new year's eve

i was watching the NBA while surfing the internet when a bunch of religious driven people rang my housebell and started preaching sort of. ASking me to come along and join their program tonight.
It stopped my ecstassy.

These tabligh are mostly the source of uncomfort for those with a busy schedule or those with important things to do... well i bet 90% of them really excuse themselves and their time because we don't want people telling us we're bad people. we already know that. And when faced with these people who really wanted to help we feel insecure and suddenly we panic.

Owh faith. How mom and dad would love seeing us being spiritual and all. But the truth is we are so worked up with our problems that we tend to forgot. I would like to think that we sometime forgot. WE believe, we are not faithless and by far, faith has kept us bound from doing anything wrong.
Well Almost.

And a wakeup call for something like this is rather unexpected when you're hoping for someone to take you out celebrating new year tonight. It really got my brain cranking and change was the way to go at that time. I mean, i can't disagree to everything the dude says because its the truth. It's something that you don't say no or try to start a debate over who's right. They're always right. But my brain was trained to come up with an excuse when this sort of situation happen. And i always ... come up with a beautiful excuse.

Gotta play mr. guard-the-house coz mom and dad are out. What a good boy. I make my self sick sometime. But, you know you gotta drop it like it's hot.

So arsenal, 8.40pm, i'll be glued in front of the TV..... you know it. I do feel terrible and i hope i'd change. But hey, at least i answered when they rang instead of just staying quiet as if no one's home.

you know who you are :)

xxx-mas

merry christmas to all christians, i don't have that many christian friends, hmm.

anyway 2006 is just days ahead, and it's been a good year. And if there was an assesment on life, i would probably say i progressed. At least a little. i finished studying. that's a big progress.

but i'm sad to see some are still struggling, still clueless about themselves. Yes, we human tend to be ignorant. It's human nature. It's not deliberate. It's easier to just let things go rotten as long as YOU are fine. It's much better pleasing YOU then anyone else. It's easier to disagree on things you don't like rather then TRYING to understand it. It's easier to hide your flaws then to change it. IT's easy for YOU to ignore but it's sure as hell isn't easy for people who have taken a good beating on the matter to notice.

when we're growing up and entering these new phase that almost all early 20's kids will, we can't afford to shut our eyes to the harsh reality. i'm more insecure then ever. But i'm glad the delusion of people judging me all the time is slowly fading away. I guess i just don't care anymore. There are many things that needed sorting out. So when i meet, i'll greet. It's as simple as that.

once, when we're kids and innocent there's never this much options. They're either tora-tora or ding-dang. go to school or not. But now, the consequences of our actions go deeper than we ever imagine. It will fuck the next 20-30 years of our lives. But it can also make our life better. Options that could affect the lives of many. Options that could hurt. And you gotta choose based on your priorities. Not anyone elses.

Well almost the majority of those i know are in their early 20's. And it's a fucking crossroad i tell you. You can get lost. so lost that you have to live with it.

Next year (i hope) i'll start to live. For now, i'm as dead as a willow tree in autumn and i'm enjoying it. I'm right now living off things i love doing. Let those dreams and hope just float for now. I'm gonna get to it soon.

For those living their dreams and making things happen as time goes, good for you. If you're stuck, stagnant and not getting to where you wanna be, it's almost never the world or people's fault. you is always a big contributing factor.

bye bye 2005 :)

wow, i must say. sean penn is the only person that can look macho while suffering heart failure. that's the case in 21 grams.

like last days, the plot is quite simple with fucked time line. so, in order to fully understand the movie , audience must finish the movie. good movie. 21 grams.

last days is allright. it's inspired by the last days of kurt cobain. even got the kurt loader MTV interview thing near the end after blake blew his head away. poor artistic people. no one can understand their complex soul. do you have one? if you do, stay away from a loaded rifle and drugs. stick to music and everything would be allrite.

astro screened this cool romantick flick with rene zelweger and obi wan kenobi in it before 21 grams. ( i forgot the dude's name). its set in the 40's. it's quite funny. corny. but funny.

whew, i'm bored already. i'm gonna look for DVD's or wait for any cool movies that astro would screen. i'm downloading NFS most wanted. GTA san andreas is really pissing me off. the map is fucking huge.

ARSENAL NEWS

i am now optimistic about arsenal chances of progressing beyond the last 16 in the champ league after being drawn to real madrid.

well since arsenal and r. madrid both suck at defending at the moment the chances are 50-50.

but considering r. madrid firepower i won't be surpised if arsenal get knocked out of the comp.

anyway, i have faith in the squad and talisman thierry henry who is finding his form.

speaking of arsenal, sunday's game against chelsea should be a treat to watch. after all the mind games, both manager would not consider losing as an option. too much is at stake.

i'm going for an arsenal win. 1 -0. surely.

punk'd

Last sunday i went to jb for my friend's wedding. And it turned out to be some sort of reunion gathering. It's so cool to meet my old comrades from school. Everybody was there. well almost.

These past few days the kids at serdang are getting more into football. And we played almost every afternoon now.

considering about getting a job. maybe later.

ARSENAL lost 2 consecutive league games. the gunners are gunned! but not dead. they're still in the CL and the cups competition.

adios amigos

Good Morning

My vision was restricted
to some natural beauty
where some took for granted
but at 7.30 am this morning
i'm glad i was there
i'm glad god let me share

the long straight road remind me
of little kids who are so pure
sparkling as mineral water
as naive as those who had passions
only to realize they're just reasons
to gain attention

as i was worrying if i'll ever get home
i sing some as a relief
i put faith first cause i believe
even when sometime faith,
is the thing i constantly leave

when the signboard reveal what i wanted to see
i screamed within
to me its like i win
even if i don't know what or who was the competition

maybe when you hope
and it drives you
to some known destination
you would like to think
that you win.

as for resolutions
that could wait some more
cause i can never be done for
resolutions from before

en route

Glad to be back home. It took me 3 and a half hour of a back breaking motorcycle ride to finally reach my front gate.

Wow. I have to come up with something to do to fill my free time. I'm getting my driver's license. Yes, i don't have one. It's like a common thing for people to be driving. Back in the old days, driving is only for those who can afford it. Hmmm...So i'll be common and go for my driver's license.

Oh yeah, The graduation night went great. Met old buddies that has started work already. Some are driving big fancy cars. I'm happy for them. Happy to see them. Happy to see them be happy and finally got their shit work out.

Me and my buddy rambo presented a couple of songs by PADI and PETER PAN during the grad night. menanti sebuah jawaban and bintang di surga. Did some un-rehearsed gimmick. Half way through bintang di surga we messed up and stopped. Everyone thought we were doing some sorta gimmick but the truth was i fucked up because i forgot the chords and stuff. Big laugh from everyone. And later Rambo did some poetry stuff. It was fun.

Me and farah got this really nifty headphones with a mic attached so we could call eachother with YM!. And it was ok eventho the voice got stuck sometime. but still i could hear her and she could hear me. So that's cool.

I'm planning to get me NFS most wanted because from what i have seen the game rocks! shit...
and maybe format my Pc coz my PC annoys me these past few days. I know its not its fault. it's infected with some sort of virus. don't worry PC. I'll format u and later we'll be shifting perfect gears and having lotsa fun with racer chicks.

I really am hoping that i'll be accepted for the masters program at KUiTTHO later next year. I'm gonna visit KPM and ask them personally the procedure concerning my case. ASk them about how i can appeal so i'll be accepted. What's the channel to go through and stuff.

When i think about it, i was at fault for fucking up my own acceptance. I could've at least gotten the minimum allowed CPa to get accepted. During those jahiliah days as i would like to call it, i was drowning with too much money and too much time. And i was lucky not to be kicked out cause that would really fucked up my already fucked up situation.

Like the sand in the hour glass so is the days of our lives?

wall number four

wall numebr three

wall number 2

wall number one

adult entertainment

it's been raining almost everyday and it made me wonder if it would rain .... when umm ... i ride my motorcycle back home next week. 300 fucking kilomteres on a motorcycle. its gonna be a back breaker for sure.

nothing's been happening much. i'm still doing brainless activity. playing games, watching movies.... just stuff. boring stuff actually.

started on my resume but there are still some blanks to be filled. not that enthusiastic about work. i was really looking forward to further my studies but my CPA is really fucked so........ i guess....my chances of being accepted is close to ZERO....which leaves me no option but to take my chances looking for work. but hell, i'm not giving up on the futher studying shit. i'm gonna beg if i have to.

about the looking for work thing.... i'm just gonna try and enjoy going to interviews (if i get any). i;m under contract which in it state that i must work for the governemtn for 7 years and finish doing my master of education degree. so i got nothing to lose but knowledge, experience and money.

if i do get a job i'm gonna work hard and earn some money. i owe it to my parents and my self.

desperate housewives is getting more and more exciting. more suspense.

i'm gonna 'apply' for my driving license when i get back. to those who still doesn't have a legitimate driving license can come and join me. stop being a vigilante (?). drive legally.

so this is it.

it only gets weirder and weirder. to me, life don't get harder.... it gets weirder. it gets wilder. as you grow ... you would like to think that our mind would grow as well but some people become more fucked up as they're growing up. their way of thinking is not those of a grown up. sometimes they can't even find the rational in things. they get more selfish that's for sure. more greedy perhaps. more obsessive. the desire to quench their thirst for attention is multiplied. winning is more important than having fun, bla bla bla.

there are some things that i have to start getting use to because the world is full of weirdos. i might as well be one. but that's just me. what do i know. i'm losing rational my self. i guess 2 weeks of doing nothing gives you that effect.

so as far as today, i came up with the ingredients that make up an adult.

1. work
2.money
3.car
4.tons of responsibility
5.loved ones (wife etc)
6. faith

but i really would like to put buying a drum set after 2. or put further my fucking studies before 1. or visit an island somewhere near nepal and snap load of pictures between 3 and 4. however...... basically..... if you don't have them, its allright.

enthusiastic about being an adult?. adultery. why do they call it adultery? only adult commits adultery. adult entertainment. why do they call it adult entertainment? because only adult entertaint themselves that way (?). being an adult is over rated.

its the same song all over again.

ah shut the fuck up ... grow up. get a job. grow a moustache. buy a neck tie and start sending out your resume because they're not waiting for you to grow up.

on a completely different topic ............................ mosquitos are such mother fuckers.

ah fuck! these mosquitos are having a fucking feast. why the fuck do they love my legs god damn it. ah shit! don't they have other people to bite. other blood to taste? i'm fucking thin. i need all the blood i have.haha ..yeah motehrfucker.... i got one. hahha.. you blood sucking piece of shit. .

i can't take this anymore. i'm outta here.

harry smokin potter

finally the exam result are out and i passed , and after that farah and me went for harry potter, damn good movie, its out of this world. and the trailer king kong also got me all excited, can't wait to watch that god damned big furry monkey fighting with dinosours and destroying light aircraft while clinmging to the empire state building.

till later,

anyone

anyone got time and money? let's just fucking go, ok?

let's

i wanna see that thin line where the sky and the sea meet
i'd be there standing on my own two feet
and say "this is all worth it" and glee
for i am having an affair with the sea

i want to see the sand, the greens
i want to hear the wave scream
salt my body like i need some cream
forget about all those wannabe pimps
i'd include you in my dream

i'd put image on paper
i'd constantly wipe my tear
i'd pay with money
i would need some company
whoever it'll be
we're gonna see
we're gonna have
an affair with the sea

join me
waste yourselves
be ignorant while you can
be still
and hope that it's bliss you feel
because that's what you get
by having an affair with the sea

blood in blood out

An epic story of three brothers. Bound by blood. Divided by fate. Driven by destiny.

This movie depicts the gang wars in Californian jails during the 1980s. The half-brothers Paco and Cruz grow up together with their cousin Miklo in one of the lesser districts of L.A. When Miklo more or less accidentally kills another guy in a gang fight, he has to go to jail in St. Quentin, where he soon starts a career in a drug connection. Meanwhile Paco joins the police and returns to the district as a determined officer in the vice squad. When Miklo is released on probation after 9 years, but keeps working for his gang, he soon clashes with Paco.

love actually is all around

Love actually

UK romantic flick.

funny exorcists

www.theexorcismofemilyrose.com

this is one scary movie with scary special effects but with funny storyline.

the end

cannot log on to the world wide web becoz my pc is experiencing some network problem. i don't know what.

i'm through with studying, for now at least. don't have to worry about pointers no more coz i don't think my CPA would slump to 1.5.

anyway, now i'm in limbo. it feels quite cool. not having to wake up knowing you have stuff to do.
i'm spending my day watching movies and just hanging out with friends and loved one. so it's quite allright.

sorry min becoz i cannot make it to your open house. why don't you open table next time eh. same kan?

e a t

selamat hari raya ... its the 3rd day .. and i have had enough of ketupat , lemang etc... yesterday watched only the first 30 minutes of PGL ... kinda interesting.... must find vcd ... the night before ... Pukianak-sundal-harum-lancau ... that movie hurt my feelings ... even my 6 yr old cousin laugh at the movie man ...

no angpaw for grown-ups. children dun need money arrr .. why should give to lil kids. they're gonna spend it on ding dang or some stupid lil kid things. better give to grown up so can waste on cigaret or snuker.

i haven't started my revision yet. regret ever bringing heavy books/notes home. i know that i won't get anything done if i take them home. but i said " yes, do it u can" with the yoda voice. but astro spoil my plan arr... i blame everything on astro ...

i was sick during the 1st hari raya. wanna puke man. stinging headache. fuken weak man. cannot wake up and do stuff. just went for the hari raya prayer and then sleep till afternoon. damn antibiotic wear off and my antibodi cannot cope on their own.. . shit. nausea. my throat hurt when i eat and when i swallow my spit.

negeri sembilan has many mosquito i tell you...even during daylight... all want to taste my blood..the mosquito i tell you.... are having a party on my body i tell you. they kept attacking me without mercy...

but everyone looks good man ... they said i look thinner ... and my eyes look like those from a sick person. do i look that skinny? i dun do drugs man .. i hope they believe me ...

fire crackers are fun man .... ... very fun to play ... i blew up some bad mangoes man ... they stink like shit i tell u...haha ... very dangerous man ....

but i love hari raya man ... stay home also fun what ....

selamat hari raya

selamat hari raya maaf zahir and of course batin!

yeah! batin rocks!

up in arms again

back at serdang ... bla bla bla ... finals after raya ... not a problem for me ... but i prefer finishing off all the exams and then have the long awaited holiday.

but now, i wanna stay home and watch movies in my boxer.

having this weird fever for days now. please stop.

how are you doin?

Jokes

HAHAHA

Some not too smart gangsters decide to rob a bank. After several days of planning they agree on the best plan. The next day they get to work and are able to get into the bank relatively easy thanks to their planning. Once inside the main vault they discover one wall is full of safety deposit boxes and start to work on them immediately. They drill and pry open the first box only to find a small container of vanilla pudding inside.

The Head Gangster says, "Okay, well, at least we can eat it." So they eat the pudding. They drill and pry open up the second safety deposit box and there sits another pudding. They decide to devour it too.

Determined to find the goods, the process continues for the rest of the night until all the safety deposit boxes have been opened. They didn't find any money or jewelry in any of the boxes. Disappointed the head gangster said, "Well, at least they left something for us to eat."

The next day, while listening to the news they hear:"Yesterday the largest SPERM bank in the USA was robbed by an unknown group of people....."


Three men went to hell. The devil said to them "You have come to hell, and you must now choose whether to spend eternity in room 1, 2 or 3" He then opened the doors to the three rooms. Room 1 was filled with men standing on their heads, on a hard wooden floor. Room 2 was filled with men standing on the heads, on a cement floor. Finally, room 3 had just a few men, standing in shit up to their knees and drinking coffee. The men thought for a while, and decided to go with room 3, as it was less crowded and they could drink coffee. They entered the door to room 3 and just as it was closing behind them, the devil said "OK men, coffee break's over. Back on your heads."

More at http://www.thejokeyard.com/

whoa jessie!

i dunno about u guys but have you seen the Flipper series? its about this girl's bond with Flipper, an underwater mammal (dolphin lah). The girl aaa... was jessica alba (the chick far right). well she's in bikini again in the latest movie into the blue. i've seen it...shame on me huhuhuh. so hang on to your hormones coz jessie is gonna drive u wild!

INTO THE BLUE

that's enough for today

Your Personality Profile

You are dreamy, peaceful, and young at heart. Optimistic and caring, you tend to see the best in people. You tend to be always smiling - and making others smile. You are shy and intelligent... and a very hard worker. You're also funny, but many people don't see your funny side. Your subtle dry humor leaves your close friends in stitches.

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You Are 60% Weird

You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right? But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!

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quack! quack!

we've (the muslims) have been fasting for over a week now. time sure fly when you're having fun.
today i had nasi kerabu and it was tasty sokmo.

still haven't decided where to post yet. i need to choose 3 places according to my preference lah. so for no. 1 i think i'd put down selangor. the rest i'm still not sure.

few arsenal regulars are out with injury picked up during the world cup qualifier. what a blow.

oh yeah, i've been watching full metal alchemist. my 2nd anime after eva. hahaha. its damn funny i tell you.

lately i've been receiving e-mails about threat from the jews, christians etc trying to screw the mulims. and most recently the hindus. talk about paranoid. but i think the jew is plotting something. i dunno. but the rest sounded racist. these hate mail would surely fire someone's pot. its up to the reader to believe and act.

sick

What Your Underwear Says About You

You like to think of yourself as innocent, even though you're not! You're not afraid to lay around resting your hand in your pants.

The Underwear Oracle

Pimpin'

Your Pimp Name Is...

Maestro Luv

What's Your Pimp Name?

HAHAHA

yeah right

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Damn

Your Band Name is:

The Badass Zookeepers

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GOAL! webbie

I want to see a new movie called GOAL! It's now showing. Next year is world cup year so i guess this movie is kind of a pre-world cup movie.You know how it is. It's like when it's near christmas and then suddenly all of these christmas movie started screening. So moviegoers who is in the mood would watch it. I dunno... just randomly guessing. It's about soccer and like all sport movies of course there'll be underdogs making it big, dreams, all that hope/dream/shit.

Wow! Desperate housewives season 2 is getting more and more interesting. I've only seen it up to episode 2. There's a new neighbour who just moved in. The new neighbour is hiding some weird dude who is all tied up in their basement.There's more secret for the housewives of suburbia to hide. You gotta watch it.

Oh, by the way, this website really DO tell you who you really are. It's amazing.

jumaat

Nothing new, usual routine. Got a test on sunday. hahaha. we're suppose to be off on sunday rite?
As i was filling out my posting form, i'm having trouble deciding where to post. Selangor?, johore?, sabah?

And one other thing the form said to include a copy of some documents concerning my scholarship. So i guess i have to go back to serdang or maybe ask mom to post me the documents.

From Monument To Masses - Hahahaha

From Monument To Masses

Mubaraq

The fasting month is here again.

I was chatting (YM!) with zaidi AKA ayah pin's right man, and we were discussing about the fasting month and then out of nowhere, the end of the world.

quote

xdi: tp nk dekat bulan ramadhan ni akan berlaku gerhana matahari ngan bulan
xdi: gerhana matahari dh berlaku
xdi: bila gerhana bulannye?
unquote

No one knows if its true or not.

Anyway, i hope during this fasting month, people around the world including the non-muslim could respect ramadhan and stop bombing or killing each other. I mean, not that you should do so during any other month.

Remember, don't eat too much when its time to break your fast.

Assalamualaikum and Happy fasting. :)

week-ender

During the weekend i visited cameron highlands. It felt air conditioned all the time. In addition, it was raining which makes me shiver even more. The visit of the brinchang peak promises a great view but, the frog formed after the rain limited the viewing experience. So we were left looking at fogs and telling the little kids we are currently inside the clouds which i also believed.

The tea plantation was awesome though. The view was cool. But the only tea i drank was on sunday at maulana, serdang the next day.

Me and my dad also discussed about flowers at the flower / strawberry farm. we both no nothing about flowers hehehe. Ate some strawberry and i dont fancy it that much. But pretending to know about flower is cool.

THe fasting month is around the bend and muslims throughout the world i bet, couldn't wait for it. I know i can't, it's always great. People are less rude to each other and so should i.

GEt me some sleep and then off to parit raja again to resume business as usual.
Good luck people!

taman sri serdang

#1

It's so slow today. Been at home all day studying for the afternoon's quiz and of all the time of the day, the lecturer picked 6 pm which is when i always out playing football or basketball. And i think the weather today is just terrific for sporting activities. Today's quiz was totally testing my maths. I think if i manage to pass the math part i can at least solve the questions. it's not my day.

#2

A friend of mine asked me to pass him his convo photos. He works near Raja Chulan Monorel station. So i think, straight from pudu i'll walk to the monorel station pass him the photos then off to KLCC. I've been obsessed with leather straps. And with money, obsession can become possesion. (?) Just hope i wont get lost. Once i took almost half an hour to get to KLCC frm SG Wang. How dumb is that?

#3

Load the camera with film. Maybe i'll snap my pal's face when i meet him.

#4

I'm taking my hard disk home with me so i can copy the FMA anime.

#5

Chelsea Vs Liverpool. My verdict? The best liverpool can manage is a 0-0 draw. The best chelsea can manage? 3-0. If both teams play it safe, a 0-0 draw is certain. But i think mourinho is still upset over the way he lost to liverpool during last years champ league semi-finals. And with their confidence level sky high, i can see them winning today. I want to see them lose. Not because i hate chelsea, its just i want them to lose.

Lomo-watch 3

Title : The guy on the right should say thanks!

Ok, after posting all those pics and apologizing to paint i felt stupid cause i should show gratitude to a living being instead of apologizing to paint.

THANK YOU FARAH!

Lomo-watch 2

Title : Digital versus Analog.

Dude your nick is analogxwound so why are you holding a digital camera huh? :)

I'll try and post the rest later.

Again, SORRY PAINT.

P\S - Better and more cool pics by others around the world plus some info on LOMO!

Lomo-watch 1

I underestimate the power of paint by suggesting that features like rotating an image or changing its format could be done by a more sophisticated image editing software.

SORRY PAINT.

I know it's the digital era and i agree, but i really love this cat pic taken by an analog camera.

Speaking of analog. I also have a picture of analogxwound which looked totally cool. very very lomo. Sounds gay? you betcha!

play to impress

Erm, i'm heading back to serdang since my test which was supposedly held on friday got postponed due to some mishap to a student in our class. Hope he recover fast.

I've been reading. And opinions on some blog-posts do count. Really they do. Maybe you're the kind that would just scroll and read some and look at the pictures and say hey nice blog and then comment... but some people do make them count.

But it's all good. Everyone is entitled to their opinions. It's cool. I like those provoking posts on some blogs where they anticipate for some readers to be provoked. Like afdlin shauki's. I like his. And my friend's thoughts on their blogs. And the comment;s overwhelming. It's cool actually. But those with pictures are even better don't i think? i mean don't u think? i like pictures. Who do we write for anyway? for ourselves or for the readers? Sharing our thoughts or trying to brew some sort of reasonable doubt on people's mind or maybe simply try to feel like buddha-on-top-of-a-mountain? hahaha.

When things get mis-interpreted, that's when its all fucked. You don't know how thick skinned people are on the net. It's unbelievable. They can write like 500 words full of the-glass-is-half-full-perspective-crap and confident that no one would ever read it but then there this one person who would really get worked up. If you don't agree and think it's dumb why bother dude?

It's easier to write than blurt shit out of your mouth. That's why people blog. At least that's why i blog. Cause you can express shits without ever looking eye to eye. At the end of the day, it's just some 500 words of pure genius from me but 500 words of crap to you and the rest. It doesn't matter cause it's MY opinion and thoughts. Get over it dude. Friends know it's crap and they won't bother but the other half would simply use it as some reason to get back at the author. Don't hold anything against it. please.

If my friend were writing some 500 words of crap i think i'd think its cool. It makes them less shallow.Cause it ain't easy talking deep shit with people. Right or wrong, at least we could see where they stand on certain issues.

There was once this fellow bloger who have blogged for years and would look back at previous posts from like 2-3 years back and see if some things changed. Just like a picture album where you can see you when you were little, and then when you first visit a waterfall at age 13 or your graduation pics 10 years later. The transition. (What ever happened to the nice boy?) but with pictures you can only see physical changes rather than some more deepshit stuff like how are you thinking or your view on the world and people around you at that age.

Full of sentimental shit, i know.

If you have read this far, good for you.

It's true that the pen is mightier than the sword but trust me, my pen is shit. So don't go and do some stupid stuff like take my post seriously.

As i've mentioned earlier, it takes two to tango. But i don't dance, if you feel my drift. Cause i'd lose and losing sucks.

again...full of shit ... yeah .. i know.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyway.....to some more totally irrelevant note, Farah scanned my lomo pics upside down and save it as a bitmap format. So one pic is like 1.22 MB and lomohome only allow 500kb worth of storage. Any idea on how to resize and readjust the orientation of the pics. Adobe photoshop can do those shit rite? hahaha. i'm such an ungrateful bastard. i should acknowledge her hardwork of scaning some blurry pics of mine and yet i can bitch and moan about it.

The whole world is waiting for the debut of kota(e)k-man. Sick creative people are my kind of people. I bet it's gonna be mind-blowing. I need details. Is it a movie? or just some sort of comic strip?

To everyone, god luck with whatever you do. Don't hold anything back. Go for it!

movie watch 2

FlightPlan Official Website

movie watch 1

http://www.cinderellamanmovie.com/index.php

no surprises

Seems like birthdays are just some measurement of how long you've been around. Some say it's just some kind of measurement of how far have you gotten in life. OR, how underachieved you are still.

Well to me, it seems like i've been spending my 23 years on education. From pre-school, to elementary/secondary school and then to further study. At my age, some are married, working, dead etc. So it's not quite true to say that i'm underachieved at my age but i'm also not that far in life. Still living off mom and dad, no real asets.

Well age is certainly NOT a measuring stick for how mature you are. That's for sure. So does education. I don't think smart people are wise people. I don't feel like 23 years living and studying or qualifies me to judge anyone. It's not fair for me to say that your job suck, or your relationship is messed up or you are so stupid. because maturity comes from experience. And i just think if you have experienced a lot and mature through those experiences then you could probably have a say. But i bet it will come out right. For example, it wouldn';t sound like an insult when someone who work as a CEO tells you that your job sucks or, someone who is married with 17 children says your realtion ship suck and you don't deserve him/her bla bla. Who are we to justify saying all those things when we are just 20+ and haven't seen or experience anything real yet.

I always grasp this concept of you should take responsibility of your action AND what you said. If i say something and i know it;'s wrong i think it will save a lot of time if i be responsible and apologize or correct what i've said instead letting my ego side take over. But it's not so simple. It's not a piece of cake. We are also responsible for our dignity which where our ego lies. Would you apologize to your enemy if you're wrong. That's where responsible took over a whole new meaning. Responsible of saving our face. Multiply it by 2 (it takes 2 too tango), and you'd probably have few of stalemate arguments. Being responsible is hard. ITs harder when you reach that time and age where your responsibilites are not only your own but others. And you have to be prepared to be responsible of actions of others. Can you dig it?

When i was little i really wanted to grow up quickly so i can have money and be super cool. You know how it's like when you were in school and you wanted to be a policeman or gaban just for the sake of coolness. But now, come to think of it, i want to be in that moment where you're on your own doing cool stuff with out the burden of responsibility. Like when you're on a vacation, but not with your mom and dad (when you're little) or when you have to cut short your vacation coz you have to show up for work on mondays(when you're all grown up) but when you can like for example, lay naked on the beach all day long without ever having to think about anything. I know i have moments like those. And wouldn';t it be cool if those moments are looped so i can hold on to that feeling forever. Dream on.

I've been thinking about my life blueprint. And i think i need to re-sketch it. Its not as simple as *school>work>get rich>marry>kids>get closer to god>die* anymore. Hurm, but we'll never see the big picture, so why bother rite?. **maybe i'll stick to the basic malaysian life's blueprint and be a mold product of a proud malaysian. And then bitch about prices/tolls/fuel and shit going sky high.

to those who wished me happy birthday , thanks, to those who didn;t next year u still can. A very special thanks goes to farah just because she's special. :D

**maybe not all malaysian are living like that. but a lot are. Its easy but, its sorta like the matrix. routine and shit. i've gotta stop this dreaming because i know the only way for me to get through for my next birthday is to follow the so called blueprint.

en. nizam nuri, as promised.

this is the best i can do. right now anyway.

visit http://persetankan.blogspot.com/ for more rahsia *

city of god

the list of the must-watch movie continue to grow with its newest addition, City of God. its probably one of the best based on a true story movie i've ever watched.

Set on the mean streets of a Rio de Janeiro slum (in the "Cidade de Deus" housing project), this film follows two boys who grow up down differing paths (stretched across over 15 years, from the late 1960s to the early 1980s). One, Buscape (Rodrigues), becomes a photographer, the other becomes a drug dealer. The film follows their paths through a series of short stories, as we learn about the violent, often short lives of those wrapped up in the dangerous world of drugs and crime on Brazil's cruelest area.
Genres: Art/Foreign, Drama, Thriller and Crime/Gangster Running Time: 2 hrs. 13 min. Release Date: January 17th, 2003 (LA/NY). MPAA Rating: R for strong brutal violence, sexuality, drug content and language. Distributor: Miramax Films (picked up at Cannes)

more info visit http://www.miramax.com/cityofgod/

anyway .. its confirmed. the test is gonna take place on the 1st of november. that sucked.

I'm just thinking out loud here, so it's just my opinion and dumb thoughts. nothing more ...nothing less.

i'm thinking about people. me and you. us and we. them. and there was this guy who i thought was okay but turned out to be a total ass. so as i am trying to be more trusting to people, he kind of made me think that people don't deserve that much trust.

i'm not gonna tell what this dude did coz i'm no natural rat, but what he did sure provoked some negative emotions from people.

so as i'm observing (?) the evidence of what this dude did, i was shocked because i really thought he was an okay son of a bitch. that for one, showed that i can't rate people at first glance. so now i kinda have an idea on what this dude is all about.

it's a simple case of knowing what to share with people. and for this dude, he doesn't know what should be shared and what should be kept to himself. i've seen many people kinda just shoot off they're filthy mouth, bad mouthing people, mocking this and that. and sometime i kinda listen to it and i thought to myself "does that need to be said?".
maybe i'm too sensitive about it. maybe he meant it as a joke. but if the joke's on you, it's not a pleasant thing to endure. does this guy deserve my trust? heck no.

:D, i know for a fact that making people feel bad or shitty is just some distraction so we won't be the one getting laughed at. so we'll just shoot to kill before we get shot. u know what i mean? it means that weak people use other weaklings as their shield. strong people don't need no shield because they don't get bothered by mocks or taunts. they're not afraid of who they are ...or... maybe they're actual saints. strong people deserve our trust and they are a bunch of your loved ones and your true friends.

weak? i'm weak. you're weak too. you know it, but maybe it's better no one does. because it's scary if someone found out you're uncapable of things. no one wants to be weak.that's just natural. it's like the law of nature or something. you can accept the fact or u can run away from it. the faster we accept the fact that we're weak the faster we imrpove and move on. we should work on it. not use some weakling as a target so well get off the hook. weak people don't trust others that much cause they're afraid of getting hurt.

another thing that bother me most? this so called people who rate highly of themselves. they don't have to say it. but we can sense it from them. like troy dyer of reality bites. who always think he knows the world and he always justify all his weaknesses. it's hard to find anyone humble this day. people always have something to brag about even though they don't know they're doing it. these people take pleasure in knowing that they are not one of them victims/sheeps/whatever/people just because they're taste in things are different which in turn makes them special. but are they? special? nope. its just an excuse so they'll feel better. do they feel better though? nope. it's funny actually. the more they think that they're special the more they are shutting themselves from others. the less they gain.

i am through hthinking about this dude and how i thought he could've been my friend if i were to get to know him better, i know that he probably thought the same way about me. maybe not. but if he did, i won't trust him.

zzz

erm ... i'm waiting for the Arsenal everton game ...

i was planning on going home (Serdang) on the 30th, but then suddenly, my lecturer thought about having a test on that date or on the next day. so that would be friday or saturday which kinda suck because the my family's cameron trip is on the 30th. so there goes cameron ... if the test date is set.

and urm ...rumors about the scholarship money is circulating and its been ringing in my ears eversince. so i was thinking about buying stuff or maybe saving up so i can go somewhere like an island or ... i dunno.

so i've decided to halt the decision of having a driving license ... in this day and age it seems essential. maybe not to so many people. its just a piece of plastic with your face on it anyway. you don't need a license to drive. but you do need to know how to drive to drive. and of course a car. the very least.. your parents car.

there was this awful accident today. it was on the front page of the press. and on tv. a car rammed 2 or 3 policeman and some civillains and the all died. lately i've been thinking about terrible things happening. and farah did came up with a good point by saying that bad things occurs more to religious people. so i'm like thinking, could that be true.

we were thought to look at awful stuff happening to us as some kinda of sin redemption scheme, or as some obstacle god set up for us, and it would probably take us probably less than a minute to think about god if we really stick to that and maybe the whole bitching or complaining part won't be the only thing coming out of our mouths.

i sometime complained about this and that. but some have it worse than me. if i were taunted or mocked i know that there is a boy/gal out there who is taking a rather heavy beating then me. if i am broke i know that there's a dad out there trying to feed his family and if i'm hurt physically i know that some people are not even standing on their feet.

everyone want to be better. but in my case, i don't know if i'm a better person then i was like 2-3 years ago. sure i stopped smoking and i shake off all those money wasting habits that i have but am i a good person? i know i'm better than some people out there but it doesnt matter if you are not good to the ones that you need most and the ones that need you most.

is it always gonna be about cracking jokes? money? is my life gonna be just another routine where the only purpose is to go through tomorrow?

don't get me wrong ... i'm happy ... but for once, i just want to feel i dunno ... just satisfied with everything ... i want to feel filled with more than what i see or have. feel like i don't have anyone to please or to talk to. nothing to see or to desire. that sounds like bliss. maybe that'll come when u die. whoa ... i'm way over my head here.

life is so easy. so easy to get pass by if we stick to what we put our faith in.

that's it ... faith.

amped

i've completed watching the evangelion series. and now i get what qadir meant by what he said about the movie matrix using some of the ideas and philosophy of eva and incorporating it in the matrix trilogy. its not a total rip-off but there are some resemblences . still the matrix rank amongst the highest in my mega-blocbuster-must-see-movies list. i think the matrix is a breakthrough in science fiction films. it kinda set the standard on how a science fiction movie should be made.


speaking of trilogys, godfather is also one trilogy that is up there among the best. but the first godfather is probably the best. some would argue and probably would rank the 2nd one as the best. my pal said the only movie that has a sequel that is better than the first one would be godfather. i kinda agree. but i still love the first one. the third one is kinda slow but is allright. in the 3rd installment, the godfather himself is turning over a new leaf but somehow got pulled back in the mafia underworld. ironically many tried to kill him during his mobster glamourous rich days but he died as an old lonely man. sad.

so the eva movie is on my to-do list. and also the movie city of god. i';ll probably go back to serdang anytime next week and maybe i'll take my harddisk with me and copy some other stuff. say boring no more.

arsenal won 2-1 thanks to bergkamp last gasp winner. the truth is, i really ahve the feeling that FC thun would share a point with arsenal after v.persie sending off. but thanks to the old timer they manage to get away with the 3 point. whew.

now. to a more serious note.



i remembered a line in girl interupted where winona ryder said "crazy is you and me amplified". that's so true. i just see people amped up doing they're thing and to others it might seems like theyre outta their freaking mind. but they don't notice it. people say when you are angry you are in a state of madness. so if you amplify that feeling you could reach the extremes and robably kill. anyway. i just like the simplicity of the sentence.

if someone know where i could find curb your enthusiasm please tell me.

policeman sucks

yesterday sucks. i got a ticket for not having a road tax. i was like saying, "i live around here so gimme a break". and i also told mr police that i went for a haircut and the motorcycle was my dad's so he got the road tax. but mr police with his stuck up style just don't give a fuck. mr police then gave me the ticket and i said fuck you instead of thank you. and then he tried to shoot me but i got away. slick eh? but when i got home. the road tax is no longer in use since the renewal date was on 29th of august. so it's actually my fault. even with a road tax, it's expired and i would've probably gotten a ticket anyway. i'm just pissed because i could've taken another route home. since i'm through hating myself, i'm taking pleasure blaming it on mr police. fat-burger-eating-stuck up-mr-police.


the ticket was one thing, arsenal also lost. to middlesbrough. that was fucked up. Arsenal's credentials as genuine title challengers took a severe buffeting as they spluttered to a dismal 2-1 defeat at Middlesbrough.

Arsene Wenger's side were punished initially for poor finishing after dominating the first half and were then guilty of a lack of composure as Yakubu used his physical presence to telling effect.

i;m not the only one having a bad day.

have you seen the genie that converted to islam? that was cool. but i bet some would say it's a hoax or somekind. this genie, sort of possesed this chick that i think was getting married or something. and this ustaz kind of guy with white gloves did the conversion of the genie. but the ending is just hanging..like a question mark. i don't know if the genie left her body and went back to his underworld-spiritual-neighbourhood or if he is still in her. can't wait for the sequel. if there's any. the genie's name is idrus. it's scary and spooky. the voice is so creepy. the best short movie ever. i thought my day sucked.

i'm spooked.