city of god

the list of the must-watch movie continue to grow with its newest addition, City of God. its probably one of the best based on a true story movie i've ever watched.

Set on the mean streets of a Rio de Janeiro slum (in the "Cidade de Deus" housing project), this film follows two boys who grow up down differing paths (stretched across over 15 years, from the late 1960s to the early 1980s). One, Buscape (Rodrigues), becomes a photographer, the other becomes a drug dealer. The film follows their paths through a series of short stories, as we learn about the violent, often short lives of those wrapped up in the dangerous world of drugs and crime on Brazil's cruelest area.
Genres: Art/Foreign, Drama, Thriller and Crime/Gangster Running Time: 2 hrs. 13 min. Release Date: January 17th, 2003 (LA/NY). MPAA Rating: R for strong brutal violence, sexuality, drug content and language. Distributor: Miramax Films (picked up at Cannes)

more info visit http://www.miramax.com/cityofgod/

anyway .. its confirmed. the test is gonna take place on the 1st of november. that sucked.

I'm just thinking out loud here, so it's just my opinion and dumb thoughts. nothing more ...nothing less.

i'm thinking about people. me and you. us and we. them. and there was this guy who i thought was okay but turned out to be a total ass. so as i am trying to be more trusting to people, he kind of made me think that people don't deserve that much trust.

i'm not gonna tell what this dude did coz i'm no natural rat, but what he did sure provoked some negative emotions from people.

so as i'm observing (?) the evidence of what this dude did, i was shocked because i really thought he was an okay son of a bitch. that for one, showed that i can't rate people at first glance. so now i kinda have an idea on what this dude is all about.

it's a simple case of knowing what to share with people. and for this dude, he doesn't know what should be shared and what should be kept to himself. i've seen many people kinda just shoot off they're filthy mouth, bad mouthing people, mocking this and that. and sometime i kinda listen to it and i thought to myself "does that need to be said?".
maybe i'm too sensitive about it. maybe he meant it as a joke. but if the joke's on you, it's not a pleasant thing to endure. does this guy deserve my trust? heck no.

:D, i know for a fact that making people feel bad or shitty is just some distraction so we won't be the one getting laughed at. so we'll just shoot to kill before we get shot. u know what i mean? it means that weak people use other weaklings as their shield. strong people don't need no shield because they don't get bothered by mocks or taunts. they're not afraid of who they are ...or... maybe they're actual saints. strong people deserve our trust and they are a bunch of your loved ones and your true friends.

weak? i'm weak. you're weak too. you know it, but maybe it's better no one does. because it's scary if someone found out you're uncapable of things. no one wants to be weak.that's just natural. it's like the law of nature or something. you can accept the fact or u can run away from it. the faster we accept the fact that we're weak the faster we imrpove and move on. we should work on it. not use some weakling as a target so well get off the hook. weak people don't trust others that much cause they're afraid of getting hurt.

another thing that bother me most? this so called people who rate highly of themselves. they don't have to say it. but we can sense it from them. like troy dyer of reality bites. who always think he knows the world and he always justify all his weaknesses. it's hard to find anyone humble this day. people always have something to brag about even though they don't know they're doing it. these people take pleasure in knowing that they are not one of them victims/sheeps/whatever/people just because they're taste in things are different which in turn makes them special. but are they? special? nope. its just an excuse so they'll feel better. do they feel better though? nope. it's funny actually. the more they think that they're special the more they are shutting themselves from others. the less they gain.

i am through hthinking about this dude and how i thought he could've been my friend if i were to get to know him better, i know that he probably thought the same way about me. maybe not. but if he did, i won't trust him.