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From Monument To Masses

Mubaraq

The fasting month is here again.

I was chatting (YM!) with zaidi AKA ayah pin's right man, and we were discussing about the fasting month and then out of nowhere, the end of the world.

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xdi: tp nk dekat bulan ramadhan ni akan berlaku gerhana matahari ngan bulan
xdi: gerhana matahari dh berlaku
xdi: bila gerhana bulannye?
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No one knows if its true or not.

Anyway, i hope during this fasting month, people around the world including the non-muslim could respect ramadhan and stop bombing or killing each other. I mean, not that you should do so during any other month.

Remember, don't eat too much when its time to break your fast.

Assalamualaikum and Happy fasting. :)

week-ender

During the weekend i visited cameron highlands. It felt air conditioned all the time. In addition, it was raining which makes me shiver even more. The visit of the brinchang peak promises a great view but, the frog formed after the rain limited the viewing experience. So we were left looking at fogs and telling the little kids we are currently inside the clouds which i also believed.

The tea plantation was awesome though. The view was cool. But the only tea i drank was on sunday at maulana, serdang the next day.

Me and my dad also discussed about flowers at the flower / strawberry farm. we both no nothing about flowers hehehe. Ate some strawberry and i dont fancy it that much. But pretending to know about flower is cool.

THe fasting month is around the bend and muslims throughout the world i bet, couldn't wait for it. I know i can't, it's always great. People are less rude to each other and so should i.

GEt me some sleep and then off to parit raja again to resume business as usual.
Good luck people!

taman sri serdang

#1

It's so slow today. Been at home all day studying for the afternoon's quiz and of all the time of the day, the lecturer picked 6 pm which is when i always out playing football or basketball. And i think the weather today is just terrific for sporting activities. Today's quiz was totally testing my maths. I think if i manage to pass the math part i can at least solve the questions. it's not my day.

#2

A friend of mine asked me to pass him his convo photos. He works near Raja Chulan Monorel station. So i think, straight from pudu i'll walk to the monorel station pass him the photos then off to KLCC. I've been obsessed with leather straps. And with money, obsession can become possesion. (?) Just hope i wont get lost. Once i took almost half an hour to get to KLCC frm SG Wang. How dumb is that?

#3

Load the camera with film. Maybe i'll snap my pal's face when i meet him.

#4

I'm taking my hard disk home with me so i can copy the FMA anime.

#5

Chelsea Vs Liverpool. My verdict? The best liverpool can manage is a 0-0 draw. The best chelsea can manage? 3-0. If both teams play it safe, a 0-0 draw is certain. But i think mourinho is still upset over the way he lost to liverpool during last years champ league semi-finals. And with their confidence level sky high, i can see them winning today. I want to see them lose. Not because i hate chelsea, its just i want them to lose.

Lomo-watch 3

Title : The guy on the right should say thanks!

Ok, after posting all those pics and apologizing to paint i felt stupid cause i should show gratitude to a living being instead of apologizing to paint.

THANK YOU FARAH!

Lomo-watch 2

Title : Digital versus Analog.

Dude your nick is analogxwound so why are you holding a digital camera huh? :)

I'll try and post the rest later.

Again, SORRY PAINT.

P\S - Better and more cool pics by others around the world plus some info on LOMO!

Lomo-watch 1

I underestimate the power of paint by suggesting that features like rotating an image or changing its format could be done by a more sophisticated image editing software.

SORRY PAINT.

I know it's the digital era and i agree, but i really love this cat pic taken by an analog camera.

Speaking of analog. I also have a picture of analogxwound which looked totally cool. very very lomo. Sounds gay? you betcha!

play to impress

Erm, i'm heading back to serdang since my test which was supposedly held on friday got postponed due to some mishap to a student in our class. Hope he recover fast.

I've been reading. And opinions on some blog-posts do count. Really they do. Maybe you're the kind that would just scroll and read some and look at the pictures and say hey nice blog and then comment... but some people do make them count.

But it's all good. Everyone is entitled to their opinions. It's cool. I like those provoking posts on some blogs where they anticipate for some readers to be provoked. Like afdlin shauki's. I like his. And my friend's thoughts on their blogs. And the comment;s overwhelming. It's cool actually. But those with pictures are even better don't i think? i mean don't u think? i like pictures. Who do we write for anyway? for ourselves or for the readers? Sharing our thoughts or trying to brew some sort of reasonable doubt on people's mind or maybe simply try to feel like buddha-on-top-of-a-mountain? hahaha.

When things get mis-interpreted, that's when its all fucked. You don't know how thick skinned people are on the net. It's unbelievable. They can write like 500 words full of the-glass-is-half-full-perspective-crap and confident that no one would ever read it but then there this one person who would really get worked up. If you don't agree and think it's dumb why bother dude?

It's easier to write than blurt shit out of your mouth. That's why people blog. At least that's why i blog. Cause you can express shits without ever looking eye to eye. At the end of the day, it's just some 500 words of pure genius from me but 500 words of crap to you and the rest. It doesn't matter cause it's MY opinion and thoughts. Get over it dude. Friends know it's crap and they won't bother but the other half would simply use it as some reason to get back at the author. Don't hold anything against it. please.

If my friend were writing some 500 words of crap i think i'd think its cool. It makes them less shallow.Cause it ain't easy talking deep shit with people. Right or wrong, at least we could see where they stand on certain issues.

There was once this fellow bloger who have blogged for years and would look back at previous posts from like 2-3 years back and see if some things changed. Just like a picture album where you can see you when you were little, and then when you first visit a waterfall at age 13 or your graduation pics 10 years later. The transition. (What ever happened to the nice boy?) but with pictures you can only see physical changes rather than some more deepshit stuff like how are you thinking or your view on the world and people around you at that age.

Full of sentimental shit, i know.

If you have read this far, good for you.

It's true that the pen is mightier than the sword but trust me, my pen is shit. So don't go and do some stupid stuff like take my post seriously.

As i've mentioned earlier, it takes two to tango. But i don't dance, if you feel my drift. Cause i'd lose and losing sucks.

again...full of shit ... yeah .. i know.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyway.....to some more totally irrelevant note, Farah scanned my lomo pics upside down and save it as a bitmap format. So one pic is like 1.22 MB and lomohome only allow 500kb worth of storage. Any idea on how to resize and readjust the orientation of the pics. Adobe photoshop can do those shit rite? hahaha. i'm such an ungrateful bastard. i should acknowledge her hardwork of scaning some blurry pics of mine and yet i can bitch and moan about it.

The whole world is waiting for the debut of kota(e)k-man. Sick creative people are my kind of people. I bet it's gonna be mind-blowing. I need details. Is it a movie? or just some sort of comic strip?

To everyone, god luck with whatever you do. Don't hold anything back. Go for it!

movie watch 2

FlightPlan Official Website

movie watch 1

http://www.cinderellamanmovie.com/index.php

no surprises

Seems like birthdays are just some measurement of how long you've been around. Some say it's just some kind of measurement of how far have you gotten in life. OR, how underachieved you are still.

Well to me, it seems like i've been spending my 23 years on education. From pre-school, to elementary/secondary school and then to further study. At my age, some are married, working, dead etc. So it's not quite true to say that i'm underachieved at my age but i'm also not that far in life. Still living off mom and dad, no real asets.

Well age is certainly NOT a measuring stick for how mature you are. That's for sure. So does education. I don't think smart people are wise people. I don't feel like 23 years living and studying or qualifies me to judge anyone. It's not fair for me to say that your job suck, or your relationship is messed up or you are so stupid. because maturity comes from experience. And i just think if you have experienced a lot and mature through those experiences then you could probably have a say. But i bet it will come out right. For example, it wouldn';t sound like an insult when someone who work as a CEO tells you that your job sucks or, someone who is married with 17 children says your realtion ship suck and you don't deserve him/her bla bla. Who are we to justify saying all those things when we are just 20+ and haven't seen or experience anything real yet.

I always grasp this concept of you should take responsibility of your action AND what you said. If i say something and i know it;'s wrong i think it will save a lot of time if i be responsible and apologize or correct what i've said instead letting my ego side take over. But it's not so simple. It's not a piece of cake. We are also responsible for our dignity which where our ego lies. Would you apologize to your enemy if you're wrong. That's where responsible took over a whole new meaning. Responsible of saving our face. Multiply it by 2 (it takes 2 too tango), and you'd probably have few of stalemate arguments. Being responsible is hard. ITs harder when you reach that time and age where your responsibilites are not only your own but others. And you have to be prepared to be responsible of actions of others. Can you dig it?

When i was little i really wanted to grow up quickly so i can have money and be super cool. You know how it's like when you were in school and you wanted to be a policeman or gaban just for the sake of coolness. But now, come to think of it, i want to be in that moment where you're on your own doing cool stuff with out the burden of responsibility. Like when you're on a vacation, but not with your mom and dad (when you're little) or when you have to cut short your vacation coz you have to show up for work on mondays(when you're all grown up) but when you can like for example, lay naked on the beach all day long without ever having to think about anything. I know i have moments like those. And wouldn';t it be cool if those moments are looped so i can hold on to that feeling forever. Dream on.

I've been thinking about my life blueprint. And i think i need to re-sketch it. Its not as simple as *school>work>get rich>marry>kids>get closer to god>die* anymore. Hurm, but we'll never see the big picture, so why bother rite?. **maybe i'll stick to the basic malaysian life's blueprint and be a mold product of a proud malaysian. And then bitch about prices/tolls/fuel and shit going sky high.

to those who wished me happy birthday , thanks, to those who didn;t next year u still can. A very special thanks goes to farah just because she's special. :D

**maybe not all malaysian are living like that. but a lot are. Its easy but, its sorta like the matrix. routine and shit. i've gotta stop this dreaming because i know the only way for me to get through for my next birthday is to follow the so called blueprint.

en. nizam nuri, as promised.

this is the best i can do. right now anyway.

visit http://persetankan.blogspot.com/ for more rahsia *

city of god

the list of the must-watch movie continue to grow with its newest addition, City of God. its probably one of the best based on a true story movie i've ever watched.

Set on the mean streets of a Rio de Janeiro slum (in the "Cidade de Deus" housing project), this film follows two boys who grow up down differing paths (stretched across over 15 years, from the late 1960s to the early 1980s). One, Buscape (Rodrigues), becomes a photographer, the other becomes a drug dealer. The film follows their paths through a series of short stories, as we learn about the violent, often short lives of those wrapped up in the dangerous world of drugs and crime on Brazil's cruelest area.
Genres: Art/Foreign, Drama, Thriller and Crime/Gangster Running Time: 2 hrs. 13 min. Release Date: January 17th, 2003 (LA/NY). MPAA Rating: R for strong brutal violence, sexuality, drug content and language. Distributor: Miramax Films (picked up at Cannes)

more info visit http://www.miramax.com/cityofgod/

anyway .. its confirmed. the test is gonna take place on the 1st of november. that sucked.

I'm just thinking out loud here, so it's just my opinion and dumb thoughts. nothing more ...nothing less.

i'm thinking about people. me and you. us and we. them. and there was this guy who i thought was okay but turned out to be a total ass. so as i am trying to be more trusting to people, he kind of made me think that people don't deserve that much trust.

i'm not gonna tell what this dude did coz i'm no natural rat, but what he did sure provoked some negative emotions from people.

so as i'm observing (?) the evidence of what this dude did, i was shocked because i really thought he was an okay son of a bitch. that for one, showed that i can't rate people at first glance. so now i kinda have an idea on what this dude is all about.

it's a simple case of knowing what to share with people. and for this dude, he doesn't know what should be shared and what should be kept to himself. i've seen many people kinda just shoot off they're filthy mouth, bad mouthing people, mocking this and that. and sometime i kinda listen to it and i thought to myself "does that need to be said?".
maybe i'm too sensitive about it. maybe he meant it as a joke. but if the joke's on you, it's not a pleasant thing to endure. does this guy deserve my trust? heck no.

:D, i know for a fact that making people feel bad or shitty is just some distraction so we won't be the one getting laughed at. so we'll just shoot to kill before we get shot. u know what i mean? it means that weak people use other weaklings as their shield. strong people don't need no shield because they don't get bothered by mocks or taunts. they're not afraid of who they are ...or... maybe they're actual saints. strong people deserve our trust and they are a bunch of your loved ones and your true friends.

weak? i'm weak. you're weak too. you know it, but maybe it's better no one does. because it's scary if someone found out you're uncapable of things. no one wants to be weak.that's just natural. it's like the law of nature or something. you can accept the fact or u can run away from it. the faster we accept the fact that we're weak the faster we imrpove and move on. we should work on it. not use some weakling as a target so well get off the hook. weak people don't trust others that much cause they're afraid of getting hurt.

another thing that bother me most? this so called people who rate highly of themselves. they don't have to say it. but we can sense it from them. like troy dyer of reality bites. who always think he knows the world and he always justify all his weaknesses. it's hard to find anyone humble this day. people always have something to brag about even though they don't know they're doing it. these people take pleasure in knowing that they are not one of them victims/sheeps/whatever/people just because they're taste in things are different which in turn makes them special. but are they? special? nope. its just an excuse so they'll feel better. do they feel better though? nope. it's funny actually. the more they think that they're special the more they are shutting themselves from others. the less they gain.

i am through hthinking about this dude and how i thought he could've been my friend if i were to get to know him better, i know that he probably thought the same way about me. maybe not. but if he did, i won't trust him.

zzz

erm ... i'm waiting for the Arsenal everton game ...

i was planning on going home (Serdang) on the 30th, but then suddenly, my lecturer thought about having a test on that date or on the next day. so that would be friday or saturday which kinda suck because the my family's cameron trip is on the 30th. so there goes cameron ... if the test date is set.

and urm ...rumors about the scholarship money is circulating and its been ringing in my ears eversince. so i was thinking about buying stuff or maybe saving up so i can go somewhere like an island or ... i dunno.

so i've decided to halt the decision of having a driving license ... in this day and age it seems essential. maybe not to so many people. its just a piece of plastic with your face on it anyway. you don't need a license to drive. but you do need to know how to drive to drive. and of course a car. the very least.. your parents car.

there was this awful accident today. it was on the front page of the press. and on tv. a car rammed 2 or 3 policeman and some civillains and the all died. lately i've been thinking about terrible things happening. and farah did came up with a good point by saying that bad things occurs more to religious people. so i'm like thinking, could that be true.

we were thought to look at awful stuff happening to us as some kinda of sin redemption scheme, or as some obstacle god set up for us, and it would probably take us probably less than a minute to think about god if we really stick to that and maybe the whole bitching or complaining part won't be the only thing coming out of our mouths.

i sometime complained about this and that. but some have it worse than me. if i were taunted or mocked i know that there is a boy/gal out there who is taking a rather heavy beating then me. if i am broke i know that there's a dad out there trying to feed his family and if i'm hurt physically i know that some people are not even standing on their feet.

everyone want to be better. but in my case, i don't know if i'm a better person then i was like 2-3 years ago. sure i stopped smoking and i shake off all those money wasting habits that i have but am i a good person? i know i'm better than some people out there but it doesnt matter if you are not good to the ones that you need most and the ones that need you most.

is it always gonna be about cracking jokes? money? is my life gonna be just another routine where the only purpose is to go through tomorrow?

don't get me wrong ... i'm happy ... but for once, i just want to feel i dunno ... just satisfied with everything ... i want to feel filled with more than what i see or have. feel like i don't have anyone to please or to talk to. nothing to see or to desire. that sounds like bliss. maybe that'll come when u die. whoa ... i'm way over my head here.

life is so easy. so easy to get pass by if we stick to what we put our faith in.

that's it ... faith.

amped

i've completed watching the evangelion series. and now i get what qadir meant by what he said about the movie matrix using some of the ideas and philosophy of eva and incorporating it in the matrix trilogy. its not a total rip-off but there are some resemblences . still the matrix rank amongst the highest in my mega-blocbuster-must-see-movies list. i think the matrix is a breakthrough in science fiction films. it kinda set the standard on how a science fiction movie should be made.


speaking of trilogys, godfather is also one trilogy that is up there among the best. but the first godfather is probably the best. some would argue and probably would rank the 2nd one as the best. my pal said the only movie that has a sequel that is better than the first one would be godfather. i kinda agree. but i still love the first one. the third one is kinda slow but is allright. in the 3rd installment, the godfather himself is turning over a new leaf but somehow got pulled back in the mafia underworld. ironically many tried to kill him during his mobster glamourous rich days but he died as an old lonely man. sad.

so the eva movie is on my to-do list. and also the movie city of god. i';ll probably go back to serdang anytime next week and maybe i'll take my harddisk with me and copy some other stuff. say boring no more.

arsenal won 2-1 thanks to bergkamp last gasp winner. the truth is, i really ahve the feeling that FC thun would share a point with arsenal after v.persie sending off. but thanks to the old timer they manage to get away with the 3 point. whew.

now. to a more serious note.



i remembered a line in girl interupted where winona ryder said "crazy is you and me amplified". that's so true. i just see people amped up doing they're thing and to others it might seems like theyre outta their freaking mind. but they don't notice it. people say when you are angry you are in a state of madness. so if you amplify that feeling you could reach the extremes and robably kill. anyway. i just like the simplicity of the sentence.

if someone know where i could find curb your enthusiasm please tell me.

policeman sucks

yesterday sucks. i got a ticket for not having a road tax. i was like saying, "i live around here so gimme a break". and i also told mr police that i went for a haircut and the motorcycle was my dad's so he got the road tax. but mr police with his stuck up style just don't give a fuck. mr police then gave me the ticket and i said fuck you instead of thank you. and then he tried to shoot me but i got away. slick eh? but when i got home. the road tax is no longer in use since the renewal date was on 29th of august. so it's actually my fault. even with a road tax, it's expired and i would've probably gotten a ticket anyway. i'm just pissed because i could've taken another route home. since i'm through hating myself, i'm taking pleasure blaming it on mr police. fat-burger-eating-stuck up-mr-police.


the ticket was one thing, arsenal also lost. to middlesbrough. that was fucked up. Arsenal's credentials as genuine title challengers took a severe buffeting as they spluttered to a dismal 2-1 defeat at Middlesbrough.

Arsene Wenger's side were punished initially for poor finishing after dominating the first half and were then guilty of a lack of composure as Yakubu used his physical presence to telling effect.

i;m not the only one having a bad day.

have you seen the genie that converted to islam? that was cool. but i bet some would say it's a hoax or somekind. this genie, sort of possesed this chick that i think was getting married or something. and this ustaz kind of guy with white gloves did the conversion of the genie. but the ending is just hanging..like a question mark. i don't know if the genie left her body and went back to his underworld-spiritual-neighbourhood or if he is still in her. can't wait for the sequel. if there's any. the genie's name is idrus. it's scary and spooky. the voice is so creepy. the best short movie ever. i thought my day sucked.

i'm spooked.

nothin

i really got nothing to write. but the boredom is killing me.

desperate housewives is probably the best tv series i have ever watched in my life. you know it's good when you're hungry and need a shower but you won't budge from the monitor because you are hypnotized with their beautifully colourful character and amazingly crafted storyline. mind boggling.

when i finally got out of the house i kinda heard a woman voice in my head sort of like a monologue, just like on desperate housewives during the beginning of each episodes. now that is sick.

the best thing about being at home is the movie and sport channel.

england lost to northern ireland 1 goal to 0. and that really pleases me. meanwhile the french won against the republic of ireland by the same score line.

and today, i accidently watched a great movie called

Auberge espagnole, L' or the spanish apartment

here's the plot of the movie

As part of a job that he is promised, Xavier, an economics student in his twenties, signs on to a European exchange program in order to gain working knowledge of the Spanish language. Promising that they'll remain close, he says farewell to his loving girlfriend, then heads to Barcelona. Following his arrival, Xavier is soon thrust into a cultural melting pot when he moves into an apartment full of international students. An Italian, an English girl, a boy from Denmark, a young woman from Belgium, a German and a girl from Tarragona all join him in a series of adventures that serve as an initiation to life.

it's such a great movie. at first i was interested on the lives of students renting together since i'm renting too. the plot never stopped growing and i just got sucked into watching it. it got interesting minutes by minutes. it has great shots of barcelona with the alleys and the city. it's really cool. the movie was mostly spoken in spanish. thank god for the subtitle.

everytime i watch this kind of movie, that really blows my mind away by their unique characters ....you know, just talking and walking along great places, i just wished someone would make a movie about kl. we got streets, alleys. almost interesting people. between barcelona and kl. i think KL is better decorated with people, alleys, buildings. and it's just something about KL that you hate and love and the mixture of both make KL a very very weird city. weird in a good way.

this movie was almost as good as before sunset/sunrise.

hmmm .....

Komen Anti Mawi ..

Sebab Mawi yang tak sedap tu digilai ramai, Aidil
yang berbakat dah out.. Sebab Mawi yang diserap
masuk, habis kucar kacir satu musim AF. Anti MW

Pandangan Pertama

Dahulu Mawi:
Seorang qari yang pernah melunakkan bacaan al-
Quran. Antara petikan surah yang pernah
dibacadan dilalui sepanjang hidupnya:

"Katakanlah kepada orang laki-laki yang beriman;
hendaklah mereka menahan (merendahkan)
pandangannya dan memelihara kemaluannya;
yang demikian itu adalah lebih suci bagi mereka,
sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yang
mereka perbuat" (Surah An-Nur ayat 30).

Dan mengakhiri surah-surah yang dibaca sambil
duduk bersila penuh tertib dan adabnya.

Kini Mawi:
Qari yang sama memerdukan dan menyaringkan
nyanyian. Antara petikan lagu
dendangannya: "siapa bilang gadis Melayu tak
menawan, tak menarik hati tiada memikat. Aduhai,
lemah lembut gayanya."
(lagu penyanyi lama)

Dan mengakhiri lagunya sambil menari lantas
memandang tepat ke arah wanita yang berdiri di
sisinya.

Pandangan Kedua

Dahulu Mawi
Seorang bilal yang pernah melaung azan sambil
berdiri tegak. Antara terjemahannya membawa
erti "...menuju kejayaan"

Kini Mawi
Bilal yang sama menyanyi lagu tema rancangan
sambil menari rancak. Antara alunannya
berbunyi "...menuju puncak".

Pandangan Ketiga

Memetik kata Mawi " ....dia mesti bertudung..."

Dengan petikan itu maka;
1. Tudung Mawi diberi nama dan laku diniagakan
2. Seorang peserta bukan Islam memakai tudung
secara bergurau lantas mengejar Mawi
3. Seorang juri wanita Islam yang tidak bertudung
tidak semena-mena memakai tudung berbentuk
selendang di kepala seraya berkata "saya kalau
nak komen Mawi mesti pakai tudung."

Lantas disambut gelak hilai, sorakan, teriakan dan
jeritan penonton menyambung gurauan dan
perbuatan main-main ke atas tudung ini.

Main-main dengan hukum Allah.

Pandangan Keempat

Fanatik, penyokong dan penonton Islam Mawi
akan mempertahankan Mawi habis-habisan
apabila dimaki tetapi apabila Nabi dan agama
Islam sendiri dicaci, di mana kalian 'bersembunyi'
selama ini?

break

the midterm break.

after fucking up on both of my recent examination, i guess a break is mostly welcomed. the basketball court is not as nearly as exciting this time around. and haven't yet jammed. everything does change after you fucken work huh. played snooker today. haven't played since .....hmmm..i can't even remember.

trying my best to finish desperate housewives. farah is the person to thank .....for letting me copy the series from her hard-disk. i'm now on episode 8. and there's like 20 something more episodes to go.

downloaded soundgarden. and some other one-hit wonder songs from bands that is unknown to many this day and age.

One week after Hurricane Katrina devastated the region, miles-long lines of vehicles crawled into Jefferson Parish on Monday as residents were allowed to return to salvage what was left of their homes. New Orleans' mayor warned that 10,000 people may have died. President Bush began his second trip to the region since the storm hit, landing in Baton Rouge late in the morning to start another inspection tour and consultations with federal and local officials.


the bush administration is totally fucked up. how can a country as big and as developed as the US took 5 days to sort the mess out. simple. the answer is goerge bush. maybe i dunno the facts but... i don't think it's logical that the US took more than 5 days to arrive with help at new orleans. it is sad to see the post-hurricane casualties that could've been avoided if the govt just shut the hell up and provide them with the help/care they need instead of false promise through the media.

disaster after disaster. typhoon nabi struck japan. and a passenger jet kinda plough into a city killing 143. "The dead victims total 143, composed of 104 passengers and crew and 39 residents," Pardede said in a statement in the country's third biggest city.

reality bites ... hard ....

id310805

its our 48th independence day ... wow how about the fireworks huh? .... it's mesmerizing ...

all the independence history stuff is not so interesting.. ...

people rather go to concerts and watch mawi and the fireworks....

who the hell designed the malaysian flag anyway?

how do you celebrate the freedom of a nation?

the fireworks ..? concerts? ... ahhh..

malaysians just need excuses to have fun ...

we're so uptight about having fun ..

we're all just TOO serious.....

workin and sending kids to school ... and politics and economy and shit ....

unless there's an event we'll be working or just doin serious stuff...

WE NEED MORE CONCERTS!!!!! WE NEED FOO FIGHTERS!!!! WE NEED HOOBASTANK!!!!

i'm just pissed coz there's nothing good on tv ....

to arsenal fans out there... arsenal won their game against fulham during the midweek. 4-1. and the champions league draw is out. arsenal will face ajax, sparta prague and FC thun. i can't say this with confidence but...i think they'll at least make it to the last 8. the next lague game will be with liverpool. champions of europe. that would be a treat to watch.



during the week farah was nice enough to lend me house of wax. a horror movie that is dumb as fuck. but lotsa brainless violence activity. it's kinda nice watching violence brainless horror movie for once. (i'm too lazy too find the film's promo poster).


Have you ever felt like you are missing out on something? the feeling you feel when surrounded by those who are progressing with their life. and you ask yourself ..why am i still stuck here? why?

Well i can't help but feel pathetic when i'm asking all of these questions that shouldn't even been asked in the first place. no use regretting things that you know you could do better. you had your chances and you blew em. learn or burn. i always think that you deserve what you get. and when you don't deserve something it will balance up in the future.

come to think about it, it doesn't really matter when you finish your studies. well...financially...yes. it does matter.the important thing is just to finish the damn thing rite? but when i'm with all my pals hanging out and they're talking about their work (one even manage to get fired only after 1 month graduating from college)...., i was like whoa...how was it? so cool..bla bla bla.... i couldn't really share anything. i was left there feeling pathetic and to make everything better i lay down a few lame jokes to soothen the heart. i could only smile and laugh to hide the fact that i ... want to be with them. i want to be on the receiving end...receiving the scroll. taking pictures, graduating and shit. well i manage to take a photo with my pal's robe and and that stupid looking hat with the square top. what do you call it anyway? my time will come. but the loss time .. hmmmm...


my mom is here at kuittho. she's selling SPA forms and giving out infos on SPA and shit to the graduates for this year convocation. there was also a concert featuring D-va and indani or sumethin, (some band that was on muzik2 recently) today. i couldn't give a fuck. l-a-m-e. but it does makes me wanna drum. as i have predicted..the convo was so lame. boring. why can't they have like those carnival rides at UPM with that big ship that goes round and round... whoooo ...spinning.... or an animal exhibition. exhibiting kick ass animal genitals.

selamat hari merdeka yg ke------...48 eh? ...

fixing you

i was at serdang throughtout the weekend. At first i was reluctant to go back coz i got a test, but i couldn't let Farah drive alone with her car kept experiencing some weird problems. And today i just found out that my damn test was postponed to thursday.

oh yeah.. by the way.. happy belated birthday jasmine...

it feels like forever since the band jammed. and on friday jasmine played the drums. wow .... and on saturday her kid brother was on bass. like mr nizam said.... kids that age are more enthusiastic about stuff. just like me in my early days. hahaha ...i guess. but i think i still have it. we had fun. mathematic is always fun eh.

but now i got to hold the fast/math stuff a bit and try the new songs nizam burned for me. Mono is great. and furniture sounded like explosions in the sky with a singer. the new limp bizkit is like the bastard child of deftones and RATM. Coldplay is nice.




The serdang kids also went and did their own version of gol and gincu at the kajang futsal centre. Photo courtesy of Mr Nizam Nuri.
Note to the organiser : Next time when planning a 2 hour futsal game make sure there's more than 15 people and some oxygen tanks.

erin got some new hair-do done. he's like a walking mop. but it's cool though.

it's raining now and the bed is calling me. bye

monday monday monday

Kuittho will be having it's convo on the 27th - 28th i think. and malaysian's idol, DR. M will be there to present an award or something. so since the mid-year break starts on 29th of august, Kuittho is worried that most of the students would go back home to their mommy and daddy which means no one at the convo site. so since DR. M is coming and kuittho wanted to make sure that the convo looks happening and hip and full of people, they moved the date of the mid-year break a week after the convo. kuittho's convo is kinda dull. that's why the students rather go balik kampung then stay. maybe i'll go meet da man. the real pimp daddy.

the strap of my swatch irony is broken. i had it for almost 5 years now. i think.... when i have the money, i want to change the aluminium strap to the black leather strap.

my colorspalsh is away in a shoe box waiting to snap away colours and strips of lights coming through it lens. waiting for anyone to pose or be natural in front of it and splashing them with its coloured flash. it's been a while. and farah got some film that she didn't have the chance to use, so i'm gonna take advantage of that. feed the camera with film. please. i look retarded. as if i'm down with the down syndrome.


wow, this sonic youth shit is really mind boggling. especially the diamond sea (LP version). 25 minutes of pure noise, space, ambient, ayah pin whatever you want to call it.


losing yet again. again. and again. but we had fun.

At least arsenal won. 2- 0.

and i gotta start doing things earlier so i don't have to stay up late and do stuff i could've done 2 days before when i had the time.

i watched a malay movie

gol and gincu

http://www.golgincu.com/

i suggest you wait for the dvd or the pirate vcd version. or if you want to support the malay movie scene go ahead and watch it in theatres near you. it's nothing like those hollywood movies. but it;s different. the storyline is predictable and naive. characters are okay. the dialogue, i think... that's how suburban kl chicks talk. i'm sure as hell don;t know ayone who talks or act like that. there are a few 3R elements embeded in the movie. for instance, girl power, girl can do what men can do, and you know ... 3R stuff. I think its too gurly and sometimes annoying to the bones.

the plus is futsal playing chicks and it's different. it's almost real. wait. nope. i take that back. it's not real. girls who wear make up don't play futsal. i mean at least not here in malaysia. originality? no. i could sum it up as a typical date/teen movie and more or less a chick flick. but there is futsal playing chicks. wait ... i've said that already. ok ...girls in skirt. and girls wearing tight sport outfit. i'm dying here.

what bother me the most is... what's the deal with girls and futsal? can't you think of some other lame theme beside futsal playing chicks? how about chicks in a band or something like that?

the movie basically revolves around the sex issue. boys like sport. boys play sport. girls like boys. so why can't girls play sport? and girls wear make up. BAM! gol and gincu. so there's not much malay in it. sepet for example has that pasar malam scene. and the buildings are so malalysia. gng has a scene where an underage is smoking. and the smoker is a girl. wow. great. she smokes menthol. huhhuhuh.

i'll spoil it for you.

boy like sport > girlfriend is too gurly> boy fren break up with gurlfren and hook up with a sporty chick > gurl want boy back and decide to win his heart by playing futsal > girl suck at futsal > got help and starts training > assemble a team from group of misfits > chicks futsal tournamnet > join tournament and beat the sporty chick's team > boy want gurl back > nope, she falls for someone else.

that's basically it.

boys are selfish superficial bastards. the only good boys are sensitive and quite and adores his dream girl from far. that's a rapist profile. gimme a break.

2.33 out of 5 stars.

speaking of girls and sports, here in my very own college, chicks are playing basketball. malay chicks. wow! that is just so ..... great to see. i mean that's real life man. not a movie. arousing at times. (you pervert).

and tomorrow i'll be playing in a tournamnet. and hopefully i'm gonna kick ass. literally speaking.

defeat, SEx ,ayah pin and a little anti-AF sentiment

Yesterday saw another defeat in my attempt to win a competetive tournament. This time around it's a football tournament. I kinda also took part in a basketball tournamnet so i have to wait and see how that one goes.

Do they have t-shirt with a big "loser" sign written across the chest here in malaysia? and a
'defeat" sign on the back. I think it should be my uniform when i'm on the pitch.

SEriously, i've never won anything. have you? But i kinda gotten used to it. So when i fail at something it doesnt kill me. But i love competing. It's the rush. It's what's keeping me alive i guess.

I'm suppose to have stuffs to do but i'm too lazy to even start. can anyone suggest a cure for this laziness?


it's bad to hear abot the haze happening around KL. the haze is like a once-a-year thing. Every year there would be haze happening around KL. Some idiot burned down some forest somewhere sometime ago. right?



The girl's life is a great movie. It's about a porn star who loves what she does and suddenly found herself in limbo and wanted to turn over a new leaf. James wood is in it. he's usually the-tough-guy-bad-cop man but in this movie he plays an old man with parkinson's disease. There's also the guy who's in boston public. the teacher who is helping the cripple children swimming and shit. And also starring is kip purdue who was i think in a sylvester stallone movie where there was a F1 car racing on the street. what was that movie called?

good movie. it's sexual all the way. in a non-sexual way. its very ... arty..and poetic. who would've thought sex could be poetic and artistic. I don't expect this movie to make it on RTm TV2 or tv3 or any other channel in malaysia.

and i saw the making of amytiville horror. horror indeed. i think i want to go see that one. it's based on a true story. i don't know about that. i think the producer just twisted some facts to make the story more interesting and say it's based on a true story.

You know what would be a good based-on-a-true-story movie? A movie about ayah pin. god damn that would sell. whoever got the balls to make the movie would be rich. Ayah pin is just a movie waiting to happen. there's a lot of potential, moneywise, in an ayah pin movie. They could call it "Ayah Pin : who's your daddy now?" or "Father Pin : The untold Story". I don't know. But i think it could be a great hit.

to make sure it would be a success why not ask mawi to act in it. or anyone in AF for that matter. Hey why not? mawi in a movie? who wouldn't want to watch that? He got mawi's eyes. A littltle make up and BAM! no one could tell the difference.

so to all AF fans, pray that mawi can act as well as he sings. (he can,... can he?) because i can't see anyone better to play ayah pin.

bubye :)

p.s- congratulation to farah for her team's win in the girls volleyball tournament. If only i was girl i'd join ya.

6th august 2005

watched 2 really great movie today. one of em is as good as it gets. Finally! notice the 7 academy nomination from the promo poster? no wonder its such a powerful profounding movie. helen hunt is just adorable and she looks comfortable doing her role as a single mother raising a kid with some asthma sickness. greg kinnear was simon the fag / jack's neighbour and jack nicholson as this mentally schizo half sick dude.

at the start of the movie jack seems to shoot from his mouth and just pisses people around him due to his mental sickness. he didn't have nothing personal that really meant something to him beside his job. but he kinda outgrows that when he met greg kinnear and helen hunt. you gotta see it for yourselves. later in the movie he kinda gets personal and his sickness kinda dissolves.

what i like about this movie is the bitterness. we can be so bitter to the point that we look pathetic. beside that this movie proves that how ever bad a person is, there is always a little soft side in them. and like always, love prevails.

speaking of love, i also watched "cinta si penggali kubur" for the second time in my life today. and it never fail to make me want to weep like a girl. but since i was watching with my guy frens i didn't. but most of them did say that movie kinda makesthem weep a little. inside of course. Nasir bilal khan was the backbone of the telemovie. he was a gravedigger called dol who is sort of naive and as straight as a flagpole. and he got deceived by sheila rusly to marry her because she was carrying this bastard child. but then everything started to fall apart for dol. his mom died. the bastard baby died. and sheila left him coz she can;t stand the villagers and the kampung life. but later she seems like she couldnt live with herself and decided to get back to dol but to dol his wife is dead. and the story kinda hangs. and me and my buddies we;re like sitting there with our mind blown. this is a great movie.

the other malay telemovie that has this pussy effect on me is "sekeras kerikil". its about a relationship between a son and his stubborn dad. starring rosyam nor and jalil hamid. who would've thought jalil hamid the comedian could play a serious role.

so i can bet PGL couldn;t even come close to these movies. this remark was just to provoke reactions. i know many people thought highly of PGL. and i;ve never seen it before. so it';s not fair. hehehe...

my watched snapped. and i managed to fix it. and ummm... i finally got to listen to padi's menanti sebuah jawaban. suggested by mr. music maestro himslef nizam nuri. great track. don't know about the movie though. and my fren who gave me the padi's track was even nice enough to give me all this indon tracks. so i'm gonna start listening to it and hopefull i would dig it.

AF is finally over. the only reason i think its over is because the EPL season is starting. so astro won't have their beloved customer constantly switching between EPL games and AF. god damned the kid who won. MAwi is it? he is loaded with money! here comes another artist. watch out for mawi. and his cheesy wooooorld line. waht the fuck is that? that is one if not the only fucking cheesy / corny line i have ever heard. the restaurants with aastros are filled with students who wanted to watch the programme. can't blame em. my parents also digs AF.i think ayah pin would also love to be at one of the AF's concert and hang around with the contestants. but he's busy with his stuff in space or so i hear.

bubye then.

43300 Seri Serdang Selangor

i'm back at batu pahat. after spending the weekend back at serdang.

The annual convo was held at upm during the weekend. and i went to check it out. it was hip and happening. full of upm's chicks. the carnival rides was tempting but me and wafi were not tempted enough to ride em. but we did check out some animals that was on display.

i've been to the convo when i was a kid. and i remembered me cycling with other kids to the convo. and we would laugh at the animal's big scrotum. they still crack me up even when i think about it.

went to putrajaya and then to bangi and stayed home and watched arsenal... wow... eating... hmmm ...missed those already.

the main reason i went back home was not to look at animal's scrotum but was to take part in the MB cup. played 3 win 1 lost 2. not bad for a team which barely played together let alone train together. i missed the first game, so i don't know why we were hammered so much. the second game was probably the most weird competetive game i've ever took a part in.

there was some slight beef within our team. and to make matter worse me and some other players came late and that kinda pisses the other players that was already there..playing ....so ... we were trailing like 10 points. and then something happened that probably lead to our team winning, which was ... the other team getting too confident which led to some complacent playing. and our team kept on the pressure and they cracked . then we tied the game. at that time we know we are gonna win it. and we did. so it was kinda nice eventhough some people would like to see it as luck. i see it as the other team's in ability to control their ego's and not respecting the other team. that was just an opinion. i dunno if that was really the main reason why they lost. but hell. winning is winning. no time for losers.

speaking of losers, we lost our third game. they got 2 national players and they are well trained. go figure.

it was fun. that's all i can bring back to batu pahat. no medals, just fun. and i think its enough and i deserved that.

THIS IS FOR BEING ALIVE, TODAY

Today - Smashing Pumpkins

Today is the greatest Day I ’ve ever kown Can’t live for tomorrow Tomorrow’s much too long I burn my eyes out Before I get out I wanted more Than life could ever grant Bored by the chore Of saving face Today is the greatest Day I have ever known Can’t wait for tomorrow I might not have that long I’ll tear my heart out Before I get out Pink ribbon scars That never forget I’ve tried so hard To cleanse these regrets My angel wings Were bruised and restrained My belly stings Today is Today is Today is The greatest day That I have ever known I want to turn you on I want to turn you round I want to turn you on I want to turn you Today is the greatest Today is the greatest day Today is the greatest day That I have ever known

hmmm i need new songs

flu cold

i'm fighting this cold that i think i caught from farah. anyway.. i'm feeling a whole lot better..if i was the alien in the war of the world movie i would not be here typing this. i'd be dead.

anyway, farah has started her own blog. so i welcome that. and wafi also. blogging isn't like talking. u could say so much more in written sentences than u would in hours of conversations. things just pop up and you would write away. and if you hurt someone's feeling you don't have to look at their faces.

being sick kinda makes me think how we could die anytime. and dying kinda sucks. i mean if i die now. unless we're ready for the afterlife. damn it. this must be the combo of tru calling and me being sick that kinda made me want to write about death.

speaking of death, there was this rempit who almost died. farah almost hit him with her car. i wanted him to die. because he got away with probably him feeling so great that he managed to escape death while me and farah was trembling with fear. if she did ram this rempit and he died, it's not her fault. she did everything by the book. but the mess later and the time consumed with the police and insurance would be such a drag.

things you do when you are young. you're invincible as long as your'e alive. that's kinda true for this guy. i don't know if i ever did something so risky in my life. have you? for once put your life on a line. like parachuting from a plane, or bungee jumping? it looks fun. maybe someday.

how about the earthquakes huh? this year alone there are more than 10 cases already. i guess the world is going to an end. its almost judgement day.

anyway, i've made up my mind. i'm going back to serdang this friday. hopefully mom would prepare me some food.

Cobain's 'Last Days' inspire Van Sant movie

LOS ANGELES (Reuters) - Director Gus Van Sant's new film may be dedicated to and inspired by Kurt Cobain, but moviegoers hoping for a sensationalistic look at the suicide of the Nirvana rocker won't find it in "Last Days".

The film, which stars Michael Pitt ("The Dreamers") as a musician hiding out in his enormous stone house from his career, his family and his parasitic hangers-on, opened in New York and Los Angeles on Friday.

Contemplative rather than reportorial, "Last Days" eschews many of the conventions of mainstream narrative movies, although with "Good Will Hunting" to his credit, Van Sant is no stranger to more crowd-pleasing fare.

Like the director's previous two films, "Last Days" uses a real-life incident as a point of artistic departure. "Gerry" (2002) centered on two hikers stranded in the desert, and "Elephant," which won the top award at the Canes Film Festival.

Cannes Film Festival in 2003, followed a group of high school students in the days before a shooting rampage similar to the one at Columbine.

Like those movies, Van Sant's imagining of Cobain's final descent in 1994 is interested less in answers than in suggestion and observation.

"There isn't really one answer," the director said in a recent interview. "If there is, I tend to think that the answers become sort of like scapegoats. People want answers in the same way that they want the culprit. It doesn't matter if the guy or girl was really responsible for the crime, so long as you have somebody to hang by the tree."

But complicated questions like death, suicide and mass murder, he says, defy simple answers. "We show instances of what may be bothering our character in 'Last Days,' but we don't say, 'This is for sure the reason."'

Van Sant was drawn to the final chapter of Cobain's saga precisely because there is so little information about it.

What is known is that Cobain, battling heroin addiction, a chronic stomach ailment and creative insecurity, spent his last days in virtual solitude before retreating to the greenhouse of his Seattle home and putting a shotgun to his mouth. His body was not discovered for several days.

The film follows the Cobain-inspired character in long takes while he tries to protect his troubled solitude from a variety of colleagues, friends and strangers, including four stoned hangers-on living in his house. (Pitt contributes his own musical compositions; there are no Nirvana songs in the film).

For his ensemble, Van Sant uses both professional actors (Lukas Haas, Ricky Jay, Asia Argento) and first-timers like musician Kim Gordon of veteran indie rock band Sonic Youth.

Van Sant creates an atmosphere of seclusion and disconnection in the film, which was shot mostly in and around a 19th century castle in upstate New York.

"There is no story," Van Sant said with a laugh. "There's a direction, but there's no setup."

john mayer's daughters

this song just have the balance of love and life. i like balance.

i know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
She's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without warmth from 
A woman's good, good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world

So fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters, too

get well soon farah

dump

on wednesday i went to jb with dear farah and i bought myself a nike sandal. and farah was even nice enough to lend me money to buy this black basketball shoe but unfortunately they don't have my size. so i just end up goin' back to batu pahat with just a sandal. so i guess i'll be playing with my aspic "kick ass" shoes.

And farah is so sick today. sick of me.? hahaha... no actually. ..she came down with this sore throat and flu and stuff. and she's been sayin how she wanted to puke when she lays down and when she sits her head hurts... poor girl ... get well soon dear....

a friend asked me to play in his team in the upcoming kuittho sports carnival. that was flattering. but i don't know if i could play or not. since probably the carnival clashes with the MB cup. i wanna play both.

and mostly my classmates who recently just completed their 5 years course are workin already. they are getting paid 1600 - 2300RM. damn it . i could barely survive here let alone afford anything fancy. i guess now they can. i think most of them are thinking of the big stuff now. They're in the big league now. cars, house and even getting married comes to their mind. they're almost completing their transistion to being a full adult. well almost. so i'm like broke, and i don't even have a driving license and i have no savings. i'm thinking like what the fuck am i still doing? on the other hand, i could wake up late and have all this time to myself. the only problem with too much time is having too much time with so little money. so money kind of limits everything.

the transisition? i thought adolesence and puberty was hard enough. but there's lot more coming our way. we'll be mothers and fathers eventually. and we'll be raising our own. we are going to sacrifice a lot of our time and doing all the things we've been doing all along making sure everythings gonna be allright. there's no more "i". it'll be "we". now it's "i want this i want that". but later on it's gonna be "we need this, we need that". and we're gonna grow fat and bald. and our limbs will start to give and goin up the stairs would be like climbing mt everest. i'm going too far there.

i see my friends are more aware of their surroundings. they are starting to care about other people's feelings and are more sensitive. they are starting to step up when it counts. start acting out what they've planned instead of letting it just be another dream. there was once a time when money was for buying stuff but now money is for our parents and to be saved for more useful spending. i don't know if i'm like that. i tend to run away from things if i'm not sure i'm capable enough. i'd rather sit, watch and comment. it's so immature. it feels like you're inside a shell and whoever tries to get into your space will offend you. and you are so afraid of going out of the shell because you got used to it for so long that u're afraid you'll be a target out in the open.

it is mind boggling huh? i guess that how dreams die. the got replaced by another more mature dream. a dream of having a complete life. the basic foundation of life, money, family, asets and maybe a little time.

how you may end up

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PATRICK VIERA

these few days, fellow arsenal fans including yours truly, have been talking about the latest news on patrick viera leaving arsenal for juventus. He had an absolutely great season last season, but now that he's left there's a big gap in the central midfield area and we are all wondering who could fill that gap. So, good luck viera.

and i borrowed my frens PS2, the memory card don't work, so i can't play any games that would take me more than a day to finish coz i can't save the game. so that suck huh?.

watched Fantastic 4 with farah and it's fantastic. War of the world however is ok. The storyline suck though but the computer effect is always nice to watch. spielberg kinda lost it on this movie. maybe he's old.

its been raining here like almost everyday. so it's very cool and i can sleep forever in this condition.

i want to go back to serdang so i can shoot some hoops. damn it. my friend downloaded the 2005 all-star game and that made me want to play even more.

i got an assignment but i'm too lazy to even start. maybe i'll just copy.

zzzzzzz

monologue

i got no class on thursday and wednesday .... got only one class on friday .. so if i want to go back to serdang i could split on wednesday and ditch the friday class .... cool eh? .. and class on monday start at 5pm .. ..how cool is that?

but i'm short on money .. i need to sort out lotsa things ...moneywise.... balik kampung everyweek isn't a practical thing to do ....but hell.... i can use the time to do lots of useful stuff like pc gaming and sleeping...

so finally finished sepet ... the malay movie that i rank among the highest ... its almost realistic ... almost ... the story kinda fits .... that is as real as a malay movie could get ... the movie did pretty well potraying the malaysians .... but there was no indians actor/ress .. or maybe i missed it ... so that's kinda weird ......hummm .... the movie is allright .... i haven't watched PGL yet ... so i couldn't predict which movie could win the malaysian movie award thingy .... i wonder which movie deserves the award .... hurmm ... anyway ...now, i can say that malay movies doesn't suck all the time ...

and there's this new malaysia made reality tv show .... mencari cinta or something .... that's totally fucked up .... it lacks the 'it' factor ....it's so not orignial .....i prefer explorace.....hope the show goes well ... i doubt it ...

and umm ... the news is still hot on the london bombing .... they're looking for the bombers .. i mean the master bomber ..... the bombers are suicide freedom fighters ..... so maybe they were following orders or something from the'master bomber' since the bombing happened almost simultaneously....so they must've worked out a plan on timings and logistics and shit ....and the plan could've been ordered by the master bomber.....and the bombers just executed their orders....

and so... the islamic community at london gets it .... islam is against this violence nonsense ....but as long as these freedom bombers keep doin their thing .. they'll (americans/brits) never understand .... they'd keep blaming islams for whatever thing that gets blown up.... i remember the oklahoma bombing... the americans got really pissed coz there was a nursery in that building and many children died during the attack ... so that event got them all worked up ... so the government i guess need a scapegoat ... and the first thing they thought was .. it must be another radical islamic attack ... and the media ... boy were they helpful huh? .. CNN were ground breaking....they found out later it was one of their ex-army dude that did the bombing .... before the truth was revealed the islams are the usual suspect .... americans are paranoid .... and goergie is fucked up .... i mean .... where is the WMD ? .... and so how did he justify his attacks on iraq? ... he claimed he is freeing the iraqis from saddams evil grip .... and as you can see today ... saddam is no more ... but people keeps dying from suicide explosions and such.... free? .... unlikely ....

i feel sorry for those who lost their loved ones on the bombings .... the world is just fucked up .... i'm glad malaysia don't blow up too often ... i think we do have some cases of radical terrorist explosions rite?... or was that at indon ... gotta get the facts straight .... i dunno ... but the murders here are horrifying man .... damn .... killers are getting more creative .... i think malaysia are only years away from having gangs on the street who shoots at other gangs .....maybe not ..hopefully not..

on a final note .... i love malaysia ... i'm glad to be alive .... the world is fucked up and is filled with sickos ....but as long as they don't bother me .... its ok ...

i'm hungry....

semester finale

this is hopefully my last semester ... and after degree i hope i could continue on to get my master..

anyway ... erm ... gonna register tomorrow .... suppose to register on friday but can't .... so tomorrow i'll probably get up EARLY in the morning .... and register .. get the classes schedule bla bla ...

i want to buy new sandals

war of the worlds .... its ok .....the CG aliens and scenes ... but the storyline doesn't relly fit .... since the aliens dies easily in the end ... the aliens got sick and die ... thats the ending .... supposedly the aliens...have been planning this takeover for millions of years .. so how can they miss something like how their body couldn't cope with earth's environment and how they are not immune like us to microbes and shit ... they planned their attack pretty well .... the tripods came out of the ground and start zapping people to dusts .. and drink their blood .... yup .. everyone related to tom's family lives ... what the? .... what's the odd of that happening ...? i mean his kid ran to the bursting flames and lives ...he even managed to find his way back to boston ..... but its okay .... steven's work is always awesome .. the camera's angle and the sound and scenes .. its awesome ....dakota rules ...

playing jedi knights now ... i have a lightsaber now ...

bye bye

fsgj

watched desperate housewives yesterday ... its ok .. funny ... erm .. goin back thursday ... registration on friday .... gotta finish lara croft angel of darkness ASAP ...

erm .. gerrad was suppose to leave liperpool but decided not to leave .... what a weirdo ...

and my new lomo pics ermm ... there were only 15 pics that was developed ... god damn photo develepoing shop probably thought the other pics are messed up ... maybe when i have money i'll go to another shop and develop it ...

arrr ..... gotta pack ... but i'm too lazy to do anything .... arghh /... damn it ..i am drifting and getting use to being lazy .. then school gotta start and spoil all of it ... arghh
....bored

me ...think? .. how?

wow ... went to bangsar today ... wow i feel really hip ...and radhi khalid was there ... the bangla from spana jaya ... wow ... ok now... i feel stupid ...

i hope whatever kadir and the gang is up to ... the mega project that would cost billions of dollars ...would go well .... i think it will go well .... they are experts at what they do .... by the way ... kadir's new kicks, the L23 really kick serious ass .... it cost 4++ ... some of the material on it is KEvlar .... yes ... the thing you would definitely buy when playing counterstrike ... unless u can dodge bullets ...

my brother called today and he's settled in ... and friends are always eager to see the sensitive side to this really violent heart ... sorry .... guys ... if you want me to cry ..buy me the L23 kicks ... i'll definitely drain my eyes out for you ....

so school is coming pretty fast .... i'm enjoying every moment i have with my beloved astro and free internet ...and food ... playing all the basketball i can ... jamming ... erm ... that one got to wait ...

so hopefully i can ride thorugh this semester without me having to think that much ... about money and time and shits ... i just want to go to class and take all the tests and quizzes and pass the exam with at least an A .. hahaha ....

i hope bosol made up his mind on when he would go back to pt raja ...he said most probably wednesday night .... indiana jones temple of the doom blows .... i can't watch it any further ... its too dumb .... lara croft's ass interest me right now ... the game that is ...



watched american beauty .... everytime its on .. i can't help but to finish watching it ... its a great movie .... ... it shows that people can hide their sorrows and it will build up and blow up....can never be happy with what they have .... and people are cowards who only do things because they have to regardless of how they feel towards it just to please people around them .... freaks are no different than us .. the only difference between us and them is that we can hide our freaky attributes from showing but they can't .... and the sooner you realize you're normal and typical like every one else the sooner you'll grow up .... you don't need to justify you are different ... no one is really .... everyone is insecure .... and love ... is hard to resist ...

reality bites ? .. seen that movie ? ,,, cool huh .. ethan 'sizzling hot' hawke really nailed his character .... (i'm not gay ... he is hot .. and you know it) .... its also about life sort of ... i like it ...there's a lot of people who thinks they are "Mr. look at me I'm Buddha on the mountain top" where everything is so easy to laugh at from a safe distance ... i kinda quote ben stiller on that ...
sometime i feel like that .... sometime i think some people are not qualified to talk to me or i'm not qualified or good enough to talk to them .... don't you feel like that sometime? it sucks i know.... ....and you don't want to think or fell that way .... and when you start to talk ... it's really either you are pleasing them or the other way around .....

well enough life wisdom mummblegumbala crap choohababa shit. . fuck that .. i'm sleeping ...

big heart...comprende?

errrr .. brasil won .... of course they'll win .... did you bet your money on argentina?.... you fool ....
great game .. 5 goals .... 4 came from the brasilians .... yeah .... great huh .... germany took the 3rd placing ..

erm .. the NBA draft is today .... dunno anyone .... last year's draft i knew lebron james ... his face was on basketball magazines everywhere since he's a high profile high-schooler with mad skills ...but the cavs didn't even made it to the playoffs ... and nike's sponsoring this guy and calling him king and shit .... he's good but he's no jordan .. jordan won 7 titles ..man ... how can you compare that .. scored 60 plus point s in the playoffs ... allen iverson could only come close .... lebron? .. he can be the king .... but jordan will always rule his ass ...


damn .. alexander helb agrees to join arsenal .. he's an experienced player .... champion league experience that is .. and if only arsenal can sign the wonderboy robinho ... who played soccer like hes playing futsal at kajang ... damn kid ... he's the next pele .. or ronaldo .... only if he can avoid getting kicked in the feet or avoid career ending tackles .... that's the only way to stop him .. you can anticipate his next move .. but he's lightning fast ..... oh why do i even bother explaining ....

i rather watch these great atheletes than be like them...and try to at least play with a big heart like them .... its doing what they love to do .... and playing with a lot of passion.... that's hard .... who doesn't love watching musicians pouring their shits out playing .... isn't it great if you can only judge those kinda shit .. passion, heart and shit ....the things your senses are limited to.... if an artist looks like a mutated mule but sings gracefully like the break of dawn ... these sort of artists will never appear on TV or even radio .... its too bad huh? ... or even a skinny kid playing his heart out out to help his team win ... without even concerning the ooponents physique ... he would just be out there playing his big heart out ...or a dead beat band playing their song out loud without even the slightest try to impress anyone? .. hurmmm.....ain't it great watching these never-bee's try their best ...?



.... but these people ... they'll never be good enough .... but when they do something with heart .... they're good enough by my standard ..... i don't need people saying they don't got this and that ... and complaining how bad they're taking it ..... if you're good but you don't have heart you don't have anything .... i guess i don't see everything as a mission ... every journey doesn't always have a destination ... i could be doing the same thing i'm doing now but still i won't have any regrets ....
and i'll probably will do it until ... i lost the heart to do it...

so guys and gals out there ... if you think you're doing something you love but seems like you're losing it ... do not despair .... just remember why you're doing it in the first place ... is it really the competition ....? ... the glamour ... the feel of admiration from fellow friends .... is it just you're ego and you think you deserve more than the next person ... is it because you've been doing it for so long that you think it's about time you're rewarded with a little something ... or are you in it ... for the journey .. the feeling you get when you do it? .. the rush ... knowing the people you play with also share the same feeling you're feeling ....? .. satisfying the unit rather than yourselves .... whoa ... a whole lot of wisdom crap right there .... i'm only impressed with passionate realistic people i guess ... who always try and look at everything and enjoy every moment .... a dreamer ... a do-er and not a talker .... these people will always be cool no matter how you judge them .... they'll constantly impresses you ....



enough self pity and complaints ... go and find something you love to do .... and do it with a lot of heart .....