Thursday, October 31, 2013
IRONMAN World Championship 2013
http://www.youtube.com/v/xeAgfzN6VTk?autohide=1&version=3&attribution_tag=hGRLUM_End1jKN91L1U2aw&showinfo=1&autoplay=1&autohide=1&feature=share
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Bali Post
Was at Bali end of September 2013. This time around i manage to see more of Kuta. Didn't get the chance to surf due to time constraint.
Had good food. Fruitful meetings. Met nice people. Overall it was good. Also manage to train for the SCKLM by running around nusa dua. Again, overfriendly or vicious dogs are everywhere. I was running with a bit of apprehension.
Tuesday, October 01, 2013
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Pre-swim blog
When we were younger, our definition of fear is a bit different from that of now. I remember watching this movie where the ghost originated from a dead girl corpse buried in a cement wall. This is a Malay movie. And afterwards my senses went haywire. It's as if my hearing was amplified to pick up almost anything and translate them to ghost whispers.
I also hate going up lifts alone at night. Still do. There was this one telemovie where a guy who's about to get off the lift suddenly see a freaking ghost once the door opened.
The surprise manner of these incidents in the movie coupled with the then visualiastion of ghosts is pretty traumatic for a 7 year old.
As we grow up, It wasn't ghost anymore. I fear making mistakes that could lead to me getting spanked. And to be honest I do get a way with a lot i think. I was pretty active when i was a kid (told by mom) and think I still am. I would always do things that would invite rage among even the nicest parents. I was just curious and most of the time I would act upon that curiousity which resulted in an inconvinient moment for everyone. And of course followed by good ol malay spanking.
It worked though. Fear is like an invisble leash when we were kids. It limits me to not venture into more trouble. So with fear, the do's and the painful don'ts are pretty much clear.
When I was little I didn't know that fear would not just limit a person but could also consume and transform a person. For me fear will go away. It is not in people. fear is ghosts. fear is the thin sturdy cane or a cloth hangar or belt. I have tom make sure i behave and everything would be allright.
Then it changes.
At school. Fear becomes different. Even druing my time at school, we fear not being able to socialize. The art of getting along when we were pre-teens were as complicated as when we were teens. mom and dad is not there anymore to babysit you. the do's and don'ts are even more complicated. you are bound by rules. And you have to mingle some more.
To fit in you would have to be special. Special means your attribute as a person must stand out. This is how kids label each other. Once you are labelled a piece of shit, it's going to be a tough child hood.
I consider my self lucky since there were not much things that you can impress anyone with at that time. Everyone likes gaban or suria perkasa hitam. everyone plays in mud. the rich the poor. All the same. That's how you basically impress your firends with whatever skill set you have. you do what they do. If not, you'll fear you'll be an outcast etc.
Sports would be a safe one. By playing sport you would eliminate the fear of not getting along because sports naturally encourages participitation. Then you'd get along and if you get good at it you'd even become popular. But at such a young age everyone pretty much suck at sport.
ying would not be complete without yang. Those who despise sports would probably be into music or some other subjective form of activity. They are a pretty niche bunch at school and usually considered cool.
At this juncture, fear takes on a new life form and whole new meaning. This is where it can limit or diminish a kid potential just because he want's to fit in. I could say to the majority of kids fitting in is kinda scary. To adults too.
How bout those who are caught in limbo. You're not smart or dumb. Doesn't play sport or other activities. These type usually spend years looking for groups to fit in.
I would probably be a depressed kid then if all my friends had handphones ihones and shit and game consoles and stuff. It's a tough act to follow. Etiher you have it or not.
Now... you'r afraid of ghosts and always anxious about fitting in. Is this as good as it gets? no.
Once you become an adult, fear means responsibility. This is where we're afraid for things to go fucked and not going our way.
Imagine, I literally risk my life every morning caused by fear of clocking in late for work. There is something terribly wrong with that. You're not afraid of a car crash but you're afraid of a tiny console that says "thank you you;re late" after you pressed your finger on it.
I also see a lot of highly paid executives who's afraid to make decisions. People hold back their comments in meeting to not hurt other people feeling.
Fear now turns into perception. Slowly you realize .... fear won't go away. It exists because you let it exists. It is how you deal with it that makes a difference.
So fear transformed from something visually horrible to physical pain, to emotional pain.And the funny thing is, responsibility is a good thing and we're afraid to commit cause we're afraid we might be fucked. Silly me for thinking fear would go away just like all them ghosts by the end of a movie.
If that's the case, forever we are limited and live in fear. Or live with fear. which ever.
There were times at a socially awkward events where I would say .. I'll pick ghosts over what's happening now anytime..
I also hate going up lifts alone at night. Still do. There was this one telemovie where a guy who's about to get off the lift suddenly see a freaking ghost once the door opened.
The surprise manner of these incidents in the movie coupled with the then visualiastion of ghosts is pretty traumatic for a 7 year old.
As we grow up, It wasn't ghost anymore. I fear making mistakes that could lead to me getting spanked. And to be honest I do get a way with a lot i think. I was pretty active when i was a kid (told by mom) and think I still am. I would always do things that would invite rage among even the nicest parents. I was just curious and most of the time I would act upon that curiousity which resulted in an inconvinient moment for everyone. And of course followed by good ol malay spanking.
It worked though. Fear is like an invisble leash when we were kids. It limits me to not venture into more trouble. So with fear, the do's and the painful don'ts are pretty much clear.
When I was little I didn't know that fear would not just limit a person but could also consume and transform a person. For me fear will go away. It is not in people. fear is ghosts. fear is the thin sturdy cane or a cloth hangar or belt. I have tom make sure i behave and everything would be allright.
Then it changes.
At school. Fear becomes different. Even druing my time at school, we fear not being able to socialize. The art of getting along when we were pre-teens were as complicated as when we were teens. mom and dad is not there anymore to babysit you. the do's and don'ts are even more complicated. you are bound by rules. And you have to mingle some more.
To fit in you would have to be special. Special means your attribute as a person must stand out. This is how kids label each other. Once you are labelled a piece of shit, it's going to be a tough child hood.
I consider my self lucky since there were not much things that you can impress anyone with at that time. Everyone likes gaban or suria perkasa hitam. everyone plays in mud. the rich the poor. All the same. That's how you basically impress your firends with whatever skill set you have. you do what they do. If not, you'll fear you'll be an outcast etc.
Sports would be a safe one. By playing sport you would eliminate the fear of not getting along because sports naturally encourages participitation. Then you'd get along and if you get good at it you'd even become popular. But at such a young age everyone pretty much suck at sport.
ying would not be complete without yang. Those who despise sports would probably be into music or some other subjective form of activity. They are a pretty niche bunch at school and usually considered cool.
At this juncture, fear takes on a new life form and whole new meaning. This is where it can limit or diminish a kid potential just because he want's to fit in. I could say to the majority of kids fitting in is kinda scary. To adults too.
How bout those who are caught in limbo. You're not smart or dumb. Doesn't play sport or other activities. These type usually spend years looking for groups to fit in.
I would probably be a depressed kid then if all my friends had handphones ihones and shit and game consoles and stuff. It's a tough act to follow. Etiher you have it or not.
Now... you'r afraid of ghosts and always anxious about fitting in. Is this as good as it gets? no.
Once you become an adult, fear means responsibility. This is where we're afraid for things to go fucked and not going our way.
Imagine, I literally risk my life every morning caused by fear of clocking in late for work. There is something terribly wrong with that. You're not afraid of a car crash but you're afraid of a tiny console that says "thank you you;re late" after you pressed your finger on it.
I also see a lot of highly paid executives who's afraid to make decisions. People hold back their comments in meeting to not hurt other people feeling.
Fear now turns into perception. Slowly you realize .... fear won't go away. It exists because you let it exists. It is how you deal with it that makes a difference.
So fear transformed from something visually horrible to physical pain, to emotional pain.And the funny thing is, responsibility is a good thing and we're afraid to commit cause we're afraid we might be fucked. Silly me for thinking fear would go away just like all them ghosts by the end of a movie.
If that's the case, forever we are limited and live in fear. Or live with fear. which ever.
There were times at a socially awkward events where I would say .. I'll pick ghosts over what's happening now anytime..
Monday, September 09, 2013
Post kinabalu 2013
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| don't see this everyday |
Working out after kinabalu is limited to only swims for the past week. Main muscle groups still sore. This week goal is to build up on the run for SCKLM and to increase bike distance. Swim training will proceed as usual. Still looking for the best routes in Putrajaya.
Still few months left for training. Currently, I just want to get the hang of the training schedule and all. Want to see whether it is sustainable and to see how it effect other things that's going on.
Busy months ahead:
1) 29 Sept 2013 - SCKLM 21 KM
2) 27 Ocotber 2013 - Power Man - 11km run - 60km bike - 11km run
3) 3 November 2013 - Nusajaya Triathlon - Olympic distanceSpeaking of training, I must say I am quite surprised with how things turned out for Prinze Basketball Team. The minimum was to at least reach the paly offs stage which we manage to do last year. We just missed the cut off by head-to-head record. We trained but I guess the other teams either trained harder or played better. On a good day I think we might turn some of the losses into wins. But it was just not meant to be. Everyone tried hard but that's how it is. Looking forward to next season.
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| at the end we fell short. but good times were shared. |
On a more sour note, the oil price hike has caused some concern among the rakyats. And it was right after merdeka which was also a hot topic.
I think just like my sore muscles, it will take time for Malaysia to recover from GE 13. Our mind is still sore with the result, unanswered questions, concerns on issues raised which i think some of them are undeniably have merit to be debated. Once we've recover, probably then we can move forward. To continue to fight for causes and/or proceed with what was planned to achieve goals that was set. Either way, I hope we Malaysians turn out ok in the end.
Friday, September 06, 2013
Mount kinabalu 2013
I think I've been wanting to go up Mt. Kinabalu and expressed my interest few times but somehow it didn't materialize. But then, when a chance to go up the higehst mountain in SEA turned up, we seized the chance. It was a family trip mooted by my father in law and the destination could not have been more perfect.
Summary:
1) Est. RM300 - round trip flights (KL-KK) 30 August - 2 September 2013
2) Est RM700 - guide, breakfast day 1, dinner, supper, breakfast Day 2, accomodation, certificate/fee
3) Est RM150 - worth of Equipments + food/drinks
4) 8 Power gels + 4 mueseli bar
5) Est 2.5 Litres of water
6) 2 Days 1 Night Trip
7) 9 am from Timpohon
8) Est 6 hours to Laban Rata
9) 2.30 am from Laban Rata
10) Est 3 hours to summit
11) Est 2 hours back to Laban Rata
12) Est 4 hours back to timpohon
13) 4:30 PM - 7:30 PM serving time for dinner (buffet)
14) Porter - RM9 per kg
15) 95% phone coverage from timpohon to summit (celcom)
16) 4 bed dorm with shared bathroom and seperate water heater
17) estimated temperature range 0 c - 10 c at summit and <20 at="" c="" laban="" no="" p="" rain="" rata="">
18) Estimated sunrise at 5:45 AM
19) 1 guide per 6 climber
20) 6 km to laban rate from timpohon
21) 2 km to summit from laban rata
22) total climb 8 km
23) 4,095m elevation
24) 1st time for me
25) 2nd time for my wife
Wife also did well considering she didn't train much.
All in all, the effort and time put into this trip and climb was worth the wait and the pain. Will highly probably repeat in the future.
Thursday, September 05, 2013
August 2013
1. Good workout overall.
2. No speedwork. Just tempo.
3. Max distance on the run less than 12k.
September target
1. 15km run
Monday, August 19, 2013
20130819
Bike.
Warm up 10'
Interval 10 x 1' with 1' rest (trainer)
Cool down 1'
Total 21'
Swim
500m - 10.10
500m - 10.30
100m - 2'1"
20130812
Week 20130812 (Pilot)
1) Finis Agility Paddle Test: Great addition. Probably need some time to get use to. Direct impact to swim workout is a major plus. [TO CONTINUE USAGE]
2) New bike and run route at Putrajaya: One of the best place to run. Scenic route, less cars. Though preparing all the gears to place in the car can be quite tricky. Must ensure everything is packed and not leave any important items behind. [TO CONTINUE]
3) Logging miles with edomondo. Great to keep track of work out. Still getting used to running/cycling with the phone however. [TO CONTINUE USAGE]
4) Nutrition was good. Eating more greens and consuming less oily food produces good training sessions. Feeling good throughout. This trend will definitely continue. Though preparing them will require some effort. [TO CONTINUE BUT NOT TOO STRICT. CHOICE LIMITATION EXPECTED]
5) Using off days to work on core. Does have an impact on posture and definitely help running form.[TO CONTINUE AND VARY EXERCISE TYPE]
6) Scheduling is pretty tight. Still trying to find the best general workout combo for the week. Additional Run/Bike in the afternoon & gym session. Plus 3 swim session to work on stroke technique. [TO REFINE WORKOUT COMBOS]
7) Bike fit has also improved by properly experimenting variety of seat height. [TO CONTINUE FOR CLEATS &TRI BIKE FIT]
None workout related:
8) IELTS test
9) Hari Raya
10) Premier League Start - Arsenal Lost 3-1
11) Friendly Match: Basketball Session at Night
12) Viper Challenge
[Good Week*]
*minus the 3-1 defeat at the hands of Aston Villa
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
fast as in ramadhan not as in speed ..
It's fasting month and it's a great time to rest, recover, relax and reflect ... All training are reduced to strenghtening the core ...
Nusajaya is confirmed and registration for powerman was done (early bird)... looking at the distance and judging by last year's performance, afternoon session is required. Am fortunate to be working at Putrajaya as there are lots of routes to run,bike .. less car and dogs as well...
can imagine after ramadhan ..the car will turn into transition area ...
another thing is the swim . . feeling like the swim is getting stagnant at the moment .. not going anywhere .. endurance has picked up but still feeling un efficient..
nutrition also is something that can greatly impact race day performance... will also work on that area as well ...
recent addition to improve the swim ... bought the FINIS agility paddle online and can't wait to try them on after ramadhan ..
there are other things beside triathlon and races that has the mind busy ... this month ideal to attend to those thoughts and hopefully stretch them throughout the year ...
palm positive ...
Nusajaya is confirmed and registration for powerman was done (early bird)... looking at the distance and judging by last year's performance, afternoon session is required. Am fortunate to be working at Putrajaya as there are lots of routes to run,bike .. less car and dogs as well...
can imagine after ramadhan ..the car will turn into transition area ...
another thing is the swim . . feeling like the swim is getting stagnant at the moment .. not going anywhere .. endurance has picked up but still feeling un efficient..
nutrition also is something that can greatly impact race day performance... will also work on that area as well ...
recent addition to improve the swim ... bought the FINIS agility paddle online and can't wait to try them on after ramadhan ..
there are other things beside triathlon and races that has the mind busy ... this month ideal to attend to those thoughts and hopefully stretch them throughout the year ...
palm positive ...
Thursday, July 18, 2013
PD Tri 2013
PD Tri 2013
it was a good outing. sort of sabotage my own race as i volunteered to join a bootcamp on friday race week as a prep for viper challenge. Thus leaving most of my major muscle sore until race day. SO, cramps was expected.
Race summary
Input:
Water = approx. 500ml
Glucose = approx. 750ml bike + 55ml run
Mixture Gel + Water = 55ml (2 gel)
Power bar performance drink = 0
Power gel = 2
Electrolyte pills = 0
Power bar = 1/2
Bananas = 0
Process:
1.5km swim, 45km bike, 9.5 + 1km run (plus minus)
Output:
swim time :0:43:37 (swim pos Overall/Category: 432/119)
bike time: 1:24:29, avg speed 31kmh, avg cadence n/A (bike pos Overall/Cateogry: 426/162)
run time: 0:50:58 (run positon overall/category228/70)
Total time: 2:59:06
Pos: overall 295 age group 97
1st time mixing gel with water - ok for longer distance since the effects was felt at the later part of the run. Probably should've use 1 gel per water bottle. Unclear with the ratio.
Big mistake leaving out salt pills in race nutrition. This could've delayed the cramps.
Was not keeping pace on the bike. Lowered seat height might've caused the quads to cramp. Run time could've been better if not for the cramps though it seems that it is possible to run and igonre the cramps.
Swim time could've been better. stop-start due too sighting too much. Was worried about going off course (kapas marang). The swim was crowded.
Improvement required:
1) Quad specific work out or hill repeats for bike/run
2) speed work run
3) cadence bike
4) Strengthen core
5) Drill to improve swim stroke - with paddles/float
Experiment to continue in Powerman (preparation for Nusajaya)
1) Nutrition to include salt pills
2) gel + water mixture
3) steady bike pace
4) Expect to run better on last leg of the run
Monday, April 29, 2013
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Friday
Friday is nice. i feel like, personally, i'm most productive on friday and i dont mean work wise .. i see and do more on friday. it's the
last working day of the week and that sort of contributed to the feel good factor.
6:30 am: Up for Subuh prayer and tempo run
probably the best way to start your day. running opposite from people rushing to work. You sort of feel that you are somewhat temporarily off
grid. even tho later ...eventually, you'd too have to rush to work.
the other thing is that .. the transition between night and day (dawn) is just so beautiful. .... things i look forward to.
7:15 am: breakfast and school
what can i say. being married is one of the best decision a triathlete can make ... cuz..who'd prepare breakfast? wife sort of understand the
nutrition need so that sort of helps ...
fina and hadzim would be up by then and its just great having them around in the morning .. they're morning people and hence usually in a
good mood ... wife and hadzim off to work/pre-school ...
7:45 am: shower and off to work
usually i check the sports news .. check out the latest score etc ... shower, wave goodbye to fina and off to work ... the half hour drive is
when i strategize what to do later in the day ..the usual .. what to say during practice .. lunch .. what i'm gonna do at the pool later that day ..
8:30 am: work
after countless curses to road users .. i usually got to work on time.. by on time .. i mean on time .. on average .. i think i arrived
around 8:29 most of the time .. i've also clocked 8:30:55 which is still on time ... buzzer beater ..
12:00 PM
time flies when you're working hard or when you;re having fun .. which ever i choose,.. .. usually go out and have myself the nasi
arab at uniten and friday prayers.. awesome combo ...
5:30 PM
one of the first to clock out .. off to the pool for some laps ... will usually see the same faces ... kind of a constant visual
cue that i'm not the only one (stupid/crazy enough) to be doing this ..
7:15PM
would stop by petronas precint 9 to get some gatorade and use the ATM facility ... and then off to presint 11 .. during the drive .. i'd usually listen to BFM -life's a pitch which is kinda funny and entertaining ...
8 PM
after magrib prayer .. i'd take in some food .. the sup UK is good .. the greasy nasik goreng is even better.. i opted for the soup .. the
less of two evil i guess ... then i'd catch up with some news (facebook/ig actually) or watch the news on the tv (TV3 is news?) provided there .. watch people going about their business .. watching families having dinner ...which usually followed by me calling wife and asking how's everything at home .. to sort of dillute the guilt
8:45 PM
isyak prayer and the usual warm up for basketball practice .. usually i'm the first one ..i'd put on Love Me Butch - Barricade and start warming up ... by the time i finish most of the guys are there and we start around 9:30pm
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| shooting before everyone arrive |
practice over and i'd drive home and just sponge everything the guys said during practice .. and looking forward to the real game to see how effective we did ..also during the ride back i'd tune in to BFM where they air songs from local indie bands ..9/10 the songs i hear were not much better than what my (now dead) band used to play .. copycats are the main theme .. but some are pretty good ...it's nice to be having these songs as ambient during the whole reflecting process ..
2AM
At home .. everyone's asleep .. usually got some food on the table prepared by wife .. (again ... being a married triathlete is awesome) .. watch TV .. usually some NCAA or NBA .. or movies before shower .. and bed..
The thing is , when you commit to doing something ... which meant being away from your family ..not only you got to enjoy every minute
spent, but you also got to make them count ...and be thankful to be given the opportunity to do them..
knowing that .. i think i;ve spent those time the best i could ...effort wise and time wise...doesn't matter whether those things are considered small ..to me they're just as important as work/life ..
if not..
it will just be like another day out ..........with out ever having that lasting impact ... to have them embedded in you to reflect later in life.... if that's the case ... i'm too old for that and might as well spend those time with my loved ones ..
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| too easy for me |
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
post meeting trauma ...
I think people deliberately convert themselves to become a workoholic since you can be an entirely different person. You have the luxury of your position to order someone else to do things, scold people, be a mentor, sit back and lazy around etc. Why go home to more challenges and trying to figure out things that you are not good at when you can sit in your chair and do what you;re good at and ignore the important thing that you need to work on.
you can ultimately hide your flaws.
I think i've had enough of superficial, rethroical stuff, hyprocisy and all that related shit at work. When its the norm you sort of go with the flow. You too become one, not because you believe in what you're doing but more to survive and fit in. Afterall, whatever you/they say or do is going to be forgotten and discarded anyway. Why need to be so serious.
The thing that iritates me most is when during MY fucking time, the same shit happens. The same old song is sang and we all dance to the same tune. Outside work, my time, is not your time, except for those important to me. So Hopefully it would not be wasted. At work, my time, does not matter. You can squeeze every ounce of juice from me. I'll play along.
It's weird how we work so hard to make our organization work, thought and argue about how to make it more efficient and yet we go home and completely do the opposite. I thought about this and I'd rather apply whatever management shit that they try to implement to my own life. Maybe not all can be implemented but some could actually work.
now back to work ..
you can ultimately hide your flaws.
I think i've had enough of superficial, rethroical stuff, hyprocisy and all that related shit at work. When its the norm you sort of go with the flow. You too become one, not because you believe in what you're doing but more to survive and fit in. Afterall, whatever you/they say or do is going to be forgotten and discarded anyway. Why need to be so serious.
The thing that iritates me most is when during MY fucking time, the same shit happens. The same old song is sang and we all dance to the same tune. Outside work, my time, is not your time, except for those important to me. So Hopefully it would not be wasted. At work, my time, does not matter. You can squeeze every ounce of juice from me. I'll play along.
It's weird how we work so hard to make our organization work, thought and argue about how to make it more efficient and yet we go home and completely do the opposite. I thought about this and I'd rather apply whatever management shit that they try to implement to my own life. Maybe not all can be implemented but some could actually work.
now back to work ..
past midnight and your mind is still active - on the way to narita, Japan
he's holding her with one arm
there's no load he couldn't take
at first it was panick and he's always alarmed
he can hold it, he had to and since the first day he knew it
there's no load he couldn't take
at first it was panick and he's always alarmed
he can hold it, he had to and since the first day he knew it
mommy's away far from the cry
the laughter she heard are fake and dry
pretending to be tough superficial as it might be
when she's home that's when she's set free
the laughter she heard are fake and dry
pretending to be tough superficial as it might be
when she's home that's when she's set free
waking up to a sound as simple as breathing
gotta rush now to attend the thick of thin things
contributing to a world profit orienteering
protected by a bubble, they are Iiving the dream
gotta rush now to attend the thick of thin things
contributing to a world profit orienteering
protected by a bubble, they are Iiving the dream
flights, bags, and the occasional blurred photograph,
all the strangers I had crossed path,
the buildings, the roads, the most visited landmarks,
sleep well in the clouds we're out of the dark
all the strangers I had crossed path,
the buildings, the roads, the most visited landmarks,
sleep well in the clouds we're out of the dark
10 April 2013 (announcement day)
the problem with us is that a bunch of guys think they know what's best for Malaysia. And they come up with a bunch of scheme in doing so ...
I assume they know what is right and what is wrong ..... all this no tolerence to corruption, 100% access to water, electricity, education .. everyone can afford everything, economic growth etc ... who in their right mind wouldn't want this...this is always by default ...
taking it a step further ... how the heck are we going to achieve this ... some might understand the mechanics ... others are simply ignorant ...
i mean ..how the heck can a rubber tapper understand that the GDP of the country is tied up to the very thing close to him .. his industry ..rubber.. which is our main commodity ..our main economic contributor ..
tell him that petrol price is going to drop .. now that is something that he can relate to ...
this works both ways ... which why sometime I think the guys running for the post .. are merely there not because of something that is close to that post (people) .. but something that they can relate to ... power ..
I guess the equation goes like this ...
I'm running for the post because i can have ultimate power .. to get power .. people have to choose me .. for people to choose me, I have to give cheap petrol or (some other form of subsidy) ...for example ...
which is quite disturbing and worrying ... I mean ... it's a popularity contest if you ask me ... who can give the best goodies win .... if I were to take the same approach with my kids ..i could be feeding them candy all day ... but that's is NOT what the kids need ...
coming back to what "Malaysia" need .. to be progressive and competetive with domestic resources available (example rubber) .. will go un-notice .. (*for illustration purpose only..to be fair something is being done)
what do we want? a peaceful, modern, developed, high income etc. Malaysia? with Islamic ruling ...?
Can i have it all ...?
can we achieve that? can the soon to be announced nominations lead us to achieve ALL that?
sad ...what other options do we have ...
Monday, March 04, 2013
media
The happenings in Sabah certainly is sad and tragic. I'm not a fan of history and it's is frustrating for me to understand why it happened. What is more frustrating is the fact that facebook users are giving out free advice on geopolitics, politics in general, rule of engagement etc. Which was then shared and liked by other people fueled by their quest for the truth only for their emotions to take over. Hence, i could understand how easy it is to just hit share or like. Because that what facebook is about. Liking and sharing has never been so convenient. You hear what you want to hear and like what you like. You share what you like. It's presented in a factual way so that it looks clever. We and most of the sometime I, thought that sharing something clever would impress the "friends"on facebook. Shows that we understand things and on top of the game. Some would argue that it's the least you can do to show you care.
"It's not who I am underneath, but what I *do* that defines me" - Rachel Dawes (lame, but the message is good)
I hope the authority would come up with the report of this whole mess quickly. Opinions does not count. I am sadden by this whole event and the last thing I want is to exploit the issue on facebook. I'm not the one at war, i don't know the people who fell victim to the shootings. I feel it's unfair for me to say anything about that. Both sides are muslims which makes it even more sad for us to be saying things.
I'm sure the majority of us don't really understand the whole gepolitics/history/rule of engagement deal only up to what we are exposed to and maybe only recently. But most of us know how it feels to have lost someone.
my alter (conspiracy theory) persona is saying someone is laughing and benefiting from all of this.
I dare not call myself an expert on the issue. In fact even the experts are a bit reserved about the whole issue. But these few days, I've seen some crap posts about the whole situation. I hate to say that it is overrated but it is. How can we, through facebook condemned anyone over things that is presented as facts but was never verified. How can someone who up to only recently suddenly became a geopolitics cum historian.
And the news, well, that's another story. The fact that they can use it as some sort of political campaign is utter garbage.
And that's what is so funny about it. The TV stations might skew the facts, showed their version of the story, viewers may like the story and might even share it. Most of ushate that but... we, in some way or another, through facebook are guilty of advocating that too.
"It's not who I am underneath, but what I *do* that defines me" - Rachel Dawes (lame, but the message is good)
I hope the authority would come up with the report of this whole mess quickly. Opinions does not count. I am sadden by this whole event and the last thing I want is to exploit the issue on facebook. I'm not the one at war, i don't know the people who fell victim to the shootings. I feel it's unfair for me to say anything about that. Both sides are muslims which makes it even more sad for us to be saying things.
I'm sure the majority of us don't really understand the whole gepolitics/history/rule of engagement deal only up to what we are exposed to and maybe only recently. But most of us know how it feels to have lost someone.
my alter (conspiracy theory) persona is saying someone is laughing and benefiting from all of this.
I dare not call myself an expert on the issue. In fact even the experts are a bit reserved about the whole issue. But these few days, I've seen some crap posts about the whole situation. I hate to say that it is overrated but it is. How can we, through facebook condemned anyone over things that is presented as facts but was never verified. How can someone who up to only recently suddenly became a geopolitics cum historian.
And the news, well, that's another story. The fact that they can use it as some sort of political campaign is utter garbage.
And that's what is so funny about it. The TV stations might skew the facts, showed their version of the story, viewers may like the story and might even share it. Most of ushate that but... we, in some way or another, through facebook are guilty of advocating that too.
a satisfied need no longer motivate
SUNDAY: I've missed yesterday's london derby cause I was tired from running the whole 10km in a tempo that I could possibly never achieved when training. Racing does that to you.But even if i didn't run, i would sleep anyway since i sensed that arsenal would lose. Same feeling before the Champ league game against bayern which ended up 3-1 in favour of the bavarians.
I think with the management being staisfied with the team Arsenal has had over the years and aiming to finish 4th is the main reason for the epic fall we are experiencing now. Liverpool had their moments and now it seems we are heading the same direction which is down. I doubt arsenal will finish 4th so I hope this will trigger some senses to the management of Arsenal.
Seems like my other half is now enjoying running and racing. Racing is the motivator i guess. If not, I doubt she and myself would wake up in the morning at 4:30 am and race at 6:45am.
My maiden 6.5km swim in open water is happening pretty soon and i think it qualifies as a perfect motivator for me to train. I started to swim during lunch breaks and focus more on technique which if it was for a triathlon, I would otherwise train just to cover the distance.
Anyway, it's good for her to have started running. It's is the easiest way to get fit. Put on your shoes and go out. I'll take care of the kids while she trains.
The new basketball season is jsut around the corner and we're aiming big. I hope the whole team can be pumped up and motivated to train and play hard.
I think with the management being staisfied with the team Arsenal has had over the years and aiming to finish 4th is the main reason for the epic fall we are experiencing now. Liverpool had their moments and now it seems we are heading the same direction which is down. I doubt arsenal will finish 4th so I hope this will trigger some senses to the management of Arsenal.
Seems like my other half is now enjoying running and racing. Racing is the motivator i guess. If not, I doubt she and myself would wake up in the morning at 4:30 am and race at 6:45am.
My maiden 6.5km swim in open water is happening pretty soon and i think it qualifies as a perfect motivator for me to train. I started to swim during lunch breaks and focus more on technique which if it was for a triathlon, I would otherwise train just to cover the distance.
Anyway, it's good for her to have started running. It's is the easiest way to get fit. Put on your shoes and go out. I'll take care of the kids while she trains.
The new basketball season is jsut around the corner and we're aiming big. I hope the whole team can be pumped up and motivated to train and play hard.
Friday, January 04, 2013
songs
I was in a band. It is now defunct. But it was great while it lasted. I was the designated drummer. I could play the guitar but was not talented enough.
Anyway, nothing beats going into a studio and just jam. It's like you're in a different world all of a sudden. While the outside view this bunch of people as jokers posing as weezer we, at least me, really feel like we were weezer. Or whoever band that we were covering.
Anyway, songs trigger memory.
That's why I'm listing songs/lyrics that will definetely remind me of the member of #teamhafdzuan
1. Hadzim Faeiq
Creed - with arms wide open
Well I just heard the news today
It seems my life is going to change
I close my eyes, begin to pray
Then tears of joy stream down my face
With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open
Well I don't know if I'm ready
To be the man I have to be
I'll take a breath, I'll take her by my side
We stand in awe, we've created life
With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open
I'll show you everything ...oh yeah
With arms wide open..wide open
[Guitar Break]
If I had just one wish
Only one demand
I hope he's not like me
I hope he understands
That he can take this life
And hold it by the hand
And he can greet the world
With arms wide open...
With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open
I'll show you everything..oh yeah
With arms wide open....wide open
*The ones in red will see me sing with man tears streaming down my face.
Why this song?
It's just a powerful, promising, brave song that really describe exactly how a father wants his boy to be. Brave and ready to take whatever bullshit the world has to offer.
2. Hadfina Farwizah
John Mayer - Daughter
I know a girl,
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me
CHORUS
Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left, cleaning up the mess he made
CHORUS
Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong and boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without warmth from
A woman's good, good heart
On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world
CHORUS
Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Anyway, nothing beats going into a studio and just jam. It's like you're in a different world all of a sudden. While the outside view this bunch of people as jokers posing as weezer we, at least me, really feel like we were weezer. Or whoever band that we were covering.
Anyway, songs trigger memory.
That's why I'm listing songs/lyrics that will definetely remind me of the member of #teamhafdzuan
1. Hadzim Faeiq
Creed - with arms wide open
Well I just heard the news today
It seems my life is going to change
I close my eyes, begin to pray
Then tears of joy stream down my face
With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open
Well I don't know if I'm ready
To be the man I have to be
I'll take a breath, I'll take her by my side
We stand in awe, we've created life
With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open
I'll show you everything ...oh yeah
With arms wide open..wide open
[Guitar Break]
If I had just one wish
Only one demand
I hope he's not like me
I hope he understands
That he can take this life
And hold it by the hand
And he can greet the world
With arms wide open...
With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open
I'll show you everything..oh yeah
With arms wide open....wide open
*The ones in red will see me sing with man tears streaming down my face.
Why this song?
It's just a powerful, promising, brave song that really describe exactly how a father wants his boy to be. Brave and ready to take whatever bullshit the world has to offer.
2. Hadfina Farwizah
John Mayer - Daughter
I know a girl,
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me
CHORUS
Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left, cleaning up the mess he made
CHORUS
Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong and boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without warmth from
A woman's good, good heart
On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world
CHORUS
Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
typical new year post
2012
it's just numbers. Nothing changed. My goals didn't change. the world didn't end.
It's hard to see small changes. But looking back. yup, things did change. And they change because it was acted upon.
And these changes were not part of a resolution list set on 1st January 2012. They were just things that I thought should've been done anyway. Just that I was so caught up with all these distractions. Distractions that i and many couldn;t live without. And most of it were selfish self fullfilling things that takes and demand a lot.
for 2013,
I decided to pass the opportunity to suffer for 5 hrs + in this year's edition of the KL marathon. THe far I'll go is the half marathon. I'm sure missus is gonna do another 10k.
I'm gonna do pd tri and desaru tri. will probably bring along the whole #teamhafdzuan this time round.
nothing much, in fact i think i regressed, cutting down the distance.
it takes far too long to recover from a marathon and it disrupts other things.
work will not change much as the people/environment would probably NOT change.
so will probably focus on my own circle of influence.
maybe blog more during office hours.
a lot was achieved but they're just milestones to the ultimate goal. But it's good to have milestones to measure up against.
it's just numbers. Nothing changed. My goals didn't change. the world didn't end.
It's hard to see small changes. But looking back. yup, things did change. And they change because it was acted upon.
And these changes were not part of a resolution list set on 1st January 2012. They were just things that I thought should've been done anyway. Just that I was so caught up with all these distractions. Distractions that i and many couldn;t live without. And most of it were selfish self fullfilling things that takes and demand a lot.
for 2013,
I decided to pass the opportunity to suffer for 5 hrs + in this year's edition of the KL marathon. THe far I'll go is the half marathon. I'm sure missus is gonna do another 10k.
I'm gonna do pd tri and desaru tri. will probably bring along the whole #teamhafdzuan this time round.
nothing much, in fact i think i regressed, cutting down the distance.
it takes far too long to recover from a marathon and it disrupts other things.
work will not change much as the people/environment would probably NOT change.
so will probably focus on my own circle of influence.
maybe blog more during office hours.
a lot was achieved but they're just milestones to the ultimate goal. But it's good to have milestones to measure up against.
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