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 Friday

Friday is nice. i feel like, personally, i'm most productive on friday and i dont mean work wise .. i see and do more on friday. it's the

last working day of the week and that sort of contributed to the feel good factor.

6:30 am: Up for Subuh prayer and tempo run
probably the best way to start your day. running opposite from people rushing to work. You sort of feel that you are somewhat temporarily off

grid. even tho later ...eventually, you'd too have to rush to work.

the other thing is that .. the transition between night and day (dawn) is just so beautiful. .... things i look forward to.


7:15 am: breakfast and school
what can i say. being married is one of the best decision a triathlete can make ... cuz..who'd prepare breakfast? wife sort of understand the

nutrition need so that sort of helps ...

fina and hadzim would be up by then and its just great having them around in the morning .. they're morning people and hence usually in a

good mood ... wife and hadzim off to work/pre-school ...

7:45 am: shower and off to work
usually i check the sports news .. check out the latest score etc ... shower, wave goodbye to fina and off to work ... the half hour drive is

when i strategize what to do later in the day ..the usual .. what to say during practice .. lunch .. what i'm gonna do at the pool later that day ..

8:30 am: work
after countless curses to road users .. i usually got to work on time.. by on time .. i mean on time .. on average .. i think i arrived

around 8:29 most of the time .. i've also clocked 8:30:55 which is still on time ... buzzer beater ..

12:00 PM
time flies when you're working hard or when you;re having fun .. which ever i choose,..  .. usually go out and have myself the nasi

arab at uniten and friday prayers.. awesome combo ...

5:30 PM
one of the first to clock out .. off to the pool for some laps ... will usually see the same faces ... kind of a constant visual

cue that i'm not the only one (stupid/crazy enough) to be doing this ..

7:15PM
would stop by petronas precint 9 to get some gatorade and use the ATM facility ... and then off to presint 11 .. during the drive .. i'd usually listen to BFM -life's a pitch which is kinda funny and entertaining ...

8 PM
after magrib prayer .. i'd take in some food .. the sup UK is good .. the greasy nasik goreng is even better.. i opted for the soup .. the

less of two evil i guess ... then i'd catch up with some news (facebook/ig actually) or watch the news on the tv (TV3 is news?) provided there .. watch people going about their business .. watching families having dinner ...which usually followed by me calling wife and asking how's everything at home .. to sort of dillute the guilt

8:45 PM
isyak prayer and the usual warm up for basketball practice  .. usually i'm the first one ..i'd put on Love Me Butch - Barricade and start warming up ... by the time i finish most of the guys are there and we start around 9:30pm

shooting before everyone arrive

1 AM
practice over and i'd drive home and just sponge everything the guys said during practice .. and looking forward to the real game to see how effective we did ..also during the ride back i'd tune in to BFM where they air songs from local indie bands  ..9/10 the songs i hear were not much better than what my (now dead) band used to play .. copycats are the main theme .. but some are pretty good ...it's nice to be having these songs as ambient during the whole reflecting process ..

2AM
At home .. everyone's asleep .. usually got some food on the table prepared by wife .. (again ... being a married triathlete is awesome) .. watch TV .. usually some NCAA or NBA .. or movies before shower .. and bed..


The thing is , when you commit to doing something ... which meant being away from your family  ..not only you got to enjoy every minute

spent, but you also got to make them count ...and be thankful to be given the opportunity to do them..

knowing that .. i think i;ve spent those time the best i could ...effort wise and time wise...doesn't matter whether those things are considered small ..to me they're just as important as work/life ..

 if not..

it will just be like another day out   ..........with out ever having that lasting impact ... to have them embedded in you to reflect later in life.... if that's the case ... i'm too old for that and might as well spend those time with my loved ones ..

too easy for me

post meeting trauma ...

I think people deliberately convert themselves to become a workoholic since you can be an entirely different person. You have the luxury of your position to order someone else to do things, scold people, be a mentor, sit back and lazy around etc. Why go home to more challenges and trying to figure out things that you are not good at when you can sit in your chair and do what you;re good at and ignore the important thing that you need to work on.

you can ultimately hide your flaws.

I think i've had enough of superficial, rethroical stuff, hyprocisy and all that related shit at work. When its the norm you sort of go with the flow. You too become one, not because you believe in what you're doing but more  to survive and fit in. Afterall,  whatever you/they say or do is going to be forgotten and discarded anyway. Why need to be so serious.

The thing that iritates me most is when during MY fucking time, the same shit happens. The same old song is sang and we all dance to the same tune. Outside work, my time, is not your time, except for those important to me. So Hopefully it would not be wasted. At work, my time, does not matter. You can squeeze every ounce of juice from me. I'll play along.

It's weird how we work so hard to make our organization work, thought and argue about how to make it more efficient and yet we go home and completely do the opposite. I thought about this and I'd rather apply whatever management shit that they try to implement to my own life. Maybe not all can be implemented but some could actually work.

now back to work ..

past midnight and your mind is still active - on the way to narita, Japan

he's holding her with one arm
there's no load he couldn't take
at first it was panick and he's always alarmed
he can hold it, he had to and since the first day he knew it

mommy's away far from the cry
the laughter she heard are fake and dry
pretending to be tough superficial as it might be
when she's home that's when she's set free

waking up to a sound as simple as breathing
gotta rush now to attend the thick of thin things
contributing to a world profit orienteering
protected by a bubble, they are Iiving the dream

flights, bags, and the occasional blurred photograph,
all the strangers I had crossed path,
the buildings, the roads, the most visited landmarks,
sleep well in the clouds we're out of the dark

10 April 2013 (announcement day)

the problem with us is that a bunch of guys think they know what's best for Malaysia. And they come up with a bunch of scheme in doing so ...

I assume they know what is right and what is wrong ..... all this no tolerence to corruption, 100% access to water, electricity, education .. everyone can afford everything, economic growth etc ... who in their right mind wouldn't want this...this is always by default ...

taking it a step further ... how the heck are we going to achieve this ... some might understand the mechanics ... others are simply ignorant ...

i mean ..how the heck can a rubber tapper understand that the GDP of the country is tied up to the very thing close to him ..  his industry ..rubber.. which is our main commodity ..our main economic contributor ..

tell him that petrol price is going to drop .. now that is something that he can relate to ...

this works both ways ... which why sometime I think the guys running for the post .. are merely there not because of something that is close to that post (people) .. but something that they can relate to ... power ..

I guess the equation goes like this ...

I'm running for the post because i can have ultimate power .. to get power .. people have to choose me .. for people to choose me, I have to give cheap petrol or (some other form of subsidy) ...for example ...

which is quite disturbing and worrying ... I mean ... it's a popularity contest if you ask me ... who can give the best goodies win .... if I were to take the same approach with my kids ..i could be feeding them candy all day ... but that's is NOT what the kids need ...

coming back to what "Malaysia" need .. to be progressive and competetive with domestic resources available (example rubber) .. will go un-notice .. (*for illustration purpose only..to be fair something is being done)


what do we want? a peaceful, modern, developed, high income etc. Malaysia? with Islamic ruling ...?

Can i have it all ...?

can we achieve that? can the soon to be announced nominations lead us to achieve ALL that?

sad ...what other options do we have ...