fun with dick and jane: see a dick run

i am into the 4th season of seinfeld. once you start you can't stop. and its no mystery co-producer larry david is a comedic maestro. he can make insignificant details and small issues in life.. funny and amusing. all comedians uses stuff from real life. that's how we relate with comedy. it's how we digest it. if not .. we wouldn't get the joke or the puch line. combine larry david and funny man jerry seinfeld .. you have the best sitcoms ever. another show i've mentioned before is curb your enthusiasm which is a larry david's show. he plays himself who in the show go around town and jsut doing what a person would do but in larry's case everything would turn into a disaster. funny.

and during the weekend farah came and we watched fun with dick and jane which i rate 3 outta 5. before that..we were at midvalley to meet up with our employed buddies that we haven't seen for months now. and we bowled. i'm no good at bowling coz bowling is a mental sport ... like snooker. u don';t have to be a super athelete and u know... have diets and do weights or sprints to bowl. u can be a fat chump and still bowl great. all you have to do is have this focus and train to get a strike. sounds easy. haha.. but in sport the hardest thing is getting psyched and focus.like sport...... focusing in life is also really .... really hard.

if i were to focus on my dreams i would've became something else. but that would mean me making a decision when i was still in primary school. and start focusing then. that's why parents made the decisions for us. coz when we were kids we make decisions based on nothing. i am suggesting parents to ask their children what they want to be when they grow up. And once they figured it out you would hand them the classifieds and show them the requirement needed for the job. and one more thing ... mention the salary of the job they wanted.

so if the kid wanted to become Gaban. you would go ... gaban doesn't exist and even if he did he wasn't paid kicking bad guys asses. if he wanted to be a doctor... then .. you'd say to be a doctor you need to be in a science class and score perfect A's and go into 5 years of university bla bla bla and you would get paid .. bla bla bla $$$$. and all the kid have to do is just follow his dream.

when i was a kid i wanted to be a doctor because i thought being a professional is a way of life and doctor didn't happen. i thought it would be so cool having your own medical tools and the robes u know... looking all smart and shit. and then i wanted to be a pilot coz i think flying and traveling is so cool but that's out of the picture. along the way ..... ...my focus is blurred a little bit. i was focusing on some stupid teenage stuff like porn and shits and suddenly being a doctor is out coz i suck at biology and pilot ? ... i only got my driving license aged 24 ... flying a plane ? and the sad part was .. i never even once hate myself for not getting what i want. hmmmm .. so i have to stick with what i have. and that's not much. if only i was to focus on one thing and put some effort into it.

but to be what you want you have to have a 100% pure intention in doing what you want because if not .. it won't work out. you have to be focused all the time. endure years of other things that might get in your way. but like arip always said ...that's adiabatic. pure is 100% and nothing is 100%.

now i'm just a bum with a 2nd lower degree with nothing to offer to those close to me let alone malaysia or the world. finally i know what and who i want to be .. but it's too late. soul searching shouldn't take this long. but i ain't giving up yet. i'll make the most out of what i have with and see how it goes. and maybe someday i'd get what matters most which is probably being happy with what i have and feel bliss like the day when i stood up in class and said i wanted to be a doctor.