before sunset, before sunrise

i think it's been almost a year since i last visited pulau perhentian. i went there around this time of the year. i think. oh wait. no it was last month. on ...may.. during last year champion league final where porto won. the sunset is awesome. the sunrise i missed. overslept.when i woke up... i went outside and all i see is the sun ..... already up. so that kinda suck. but qadir who managed to sleep at the beach with this anonymous mr. wong from singapore (i made that name up) did catch the sunrise. so did zaidi and arip.



anyway ... i prefer the sea than waterfalls. except when the water fall looks like those on tv where it is secluded with models taking their pics and stuff. and there's like a big area like a pond kinda where u can swim .. and there no rocks. no rocks. just a big tree where there's a rope the locals tied up so people can swing around like monkey and freefall to the water below. kinda cool huh... erm ... enough with my childish fantasy.

today i watched apollo 13. god damn it tom hanks. u almost made me cry. damn it tom.he's good. anyway. the speech where he talked about when he was in a banshee or something where he lost power and then he said something about coming home... damn.. that was a good speech.

and spurs won again. they lead the series 2-0. and while on the subject of basketball.. i played this afternoon and kathelene( not a real name) got himself into a fight (how can kathelene be a guy's name is a mind boggler). they were trash talkin' and fatigue sets in and we were trailing by a point. and we were collecting balls after balls from our own bucket. it was frustrating. but that's what sports is all about. mental rite. you lose it. then your the physical part of you just go wild. the problem when you play to compete. i mean sports is about competing.

musically i think. if it starts turning to a big competition... there's bound to be heart broken. ego's bruised. it's hard enough pleasing your self ..you gotta please eveybody else too. so when norah jones won those awards she's like surprised. because to her it's not about winning those trophies. she wasn't on the MTV's top 10 list or channel v's what the what-ever fuck show they have. but the grammy awarded her based on her music. that's why i love her so much and so does anyone out there still making music for the sake of music. if you can't please anyone at least please your self. mind you perverts.

i've been playing basketball and music for a long time.... and i just don' t go anywhere. i'm not like manu ginobili or tim duncan. i'm not even close to norah jones... but i love playing sports and music.. it's not about winning. not all the time. i like the fact that i can control myself. i can do something with the limits set. you know. it's like a big fucking challenge. every afternoon. evey time.

..the bottom line is..... i jsut want to jam la damn it. fuck. and i want to play basketball till i graw bald and fat. and i don't care if don't go anywhere cause here is where i want to be. except islands. fucking emotional all of a sudden.

ermm... this week i think i'd go out and catch a movie with you know who.... hopefully i don't fuck things up....