non-sense

i'm at home .. where i'm usually located at .. and i was watching the making of will smith's new movie .. i dunno what its called .. but he was playing this old black fella ... looks good ... anwyay ...

there was this line where he said to his son ... "go get what you want. Period." or something like that ... and i was like .. yeap .. if you want it so badly .... you'd get it ... with work and with will as strong as iron .... you'd get it ...

speaking of will .. i've just seen i shouldn't be alive ... and this survivor dude show how to survive in the thick amazon jungle .. and it was so cool ... it reminded me why i wanted to be a scout ... its because of the cool gear they have hanging on their uniform .. like those curled up lace ... and knives and shit ... its so cool ...

and still i think its cool to have survival gears ....for no apparent reason .... maybe i could use them someday .... i mean ... not for emergency .... you know .. for camping or jungle trekking or something ....

surviving in the jungle could be as miserable as surviving ordinary life ... mentally its almost the same .... instead of wild animals or bugs ... we have to contend to the most fierce and deadly animal of all .... human beings .. as damned-dirty-apes as they are .. i am one of em apes ... have to live with them work with them socialize with them ... and its survival i tell you ...

how many time have i cursed people cause the way they act .. the way they attack others and how they are ignorant to the feelings of others ... and how selfish and dumb they are ... but still .... i have no choice but to be with them ... not everyone is fucked up and cold ... at least that's what brendan boyd claim ...

but people are fun .. cats are fun .. but people are better ... sometimes i want cats to talk .. so i can communicate and interact to cats ... and ask them why they hate baths ... why do they slit a mouse in half and leave them in front of the door for me to clean up after ... jsut want to know how the cat's mind work ... but they're cute aren't they ...

humans are cute too .. too cute for my likings sometimes ...

all and all .. i think if i keep up this rate of hate .. it will consume me ... and i will end up being an anti social which i think is stupid .... cuz being an anti social by choice is stupid ... why do you choose to isolate yourself from society ... beats me ...