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--------------movies

recent movie goers would agree that movies are getting better ... even malay made movie is showing signs of improvement ..

i'm talking about the departed .. i like gangsta shoot em up movies ... since there's no bullshit ... they shoot to kill ... i think most villains fail since they talk too much before executing a hero ... why use a time bomb .. or lock them up in a tank full of water ... the hero would escape eventually ...


anyway ... malay made movie? ... good? .... the first thing i said to myself was .. this is crash .. different theme .. same style ... the very least it is inspired by crash ...

crash however ..revolves around human emotions ..and fear ... and let questions just be ....

but love ... will always make people tingle ...you can never escape from love ... even when you don't admit it ..

you'd feel empty if you're not in love .. or something .. someone told me ... i dunno ...

cinta however .. got this happy ending .. which i think is very nice .... i could cry ... but i didn't ...

------------------------cameron

i'm going to cameron highland .... not to chill .. but this time .. to conquer irau .. it's a beginner mountain kadir said ... beginner or not .. i can't wait ... to climb up and be united with nature ...

-----------------------wedding

my brother got married last weekend .. it was ok ... so many people .. i can't recognize 1/3 of the poeple there ...

---------------------moving on

the only direction i plan to go is forward ... the weight i'm carrying is responsibility ... the things i love to do is routine ... my actions are calculated risks ...and i deserve ... the consequences ...

:)

i do think nothing is better than being behind a drumkit.

and it feels good sweating it out in a court full of your buddies.

visiting to a place you've never visitied.

accepting a challenge without knowing the consequences .

i hold so many things back, most people do. i know. i see potential in people. but they hold back too much. where there was suppose to be action, there was excuses. and i know i'm like that too. i know i could offer more, deserve more. you know you have some sort of standard. so do you live up to the standard?

i probably am lucky.

i thought giving your hundred percent was easy. but it's not. sometimes it is frustrating when all your concentration and focus go to waste. when all you did do not invite praises and all that matter was results. there is no rating for efforts.

if to enter a higher learning institute was rated on efforts, i think the majority of us would fail miserably.

i hate it when all the things that you do for something doesn't add up to the result. your best is shit when result is concerned. your hard work and everything is shit if the result is shit.

then why be a purist?

why go to an extend to please yourselves if the result was based on someone elses point of view?. why do we need to serve purpose when we are expected to serve only function?

i should just lay back and listen to what people want and try my best to give it to them. By anymeans that will fulfill their needs and requirement.

survival in malaysia today is easy. you just have to listen.... and talk when you should. and when you talk, you should attract. when you lie it is real. when you create it is original in people's mind.. when you work, it is only for the result. when you play you kill. all that matter is that dream. all that matter is you. all that you do now is for the future. and if you do not do according to your plan, the future is fucked up. i presume.

6 degrees of separation

selamat hari raya

special? you know it.

i saw an old friend of mine. and i'm glad i met him. i need to see old faces to remind me of who i was ...

this hari raya just proves that i can never be satisfied with just one thing. not shoes or shirts or designer pants. but the things i need. i always think that if i have everything that i need. i 'm done .. i'm the happiest dude alive... but .. there is always a need for something ... man ..it will never end ..the wishlist keeps growing ...

seriously ..... i didn't see this hari raya coming ... life now is time consuming ...

maybe i'm like that ... overlooking the things that suppose to matter ... i think most people share this same quality ...

is it fair
a little girl with super straight hair
is it fair
for a kid to just sit there and stare

there was never a word
escaped from his mouth
he was not in the mood to show emotion
constant face was his only expression

if i was in his place
would i venture more?
just for a taste
but afraid it could never be like before

if body could act according to will
this limbs would never stay still
only if you ask, then i will
but it's always too late, by then i'm killed

selamat hari raya

se lamat hari raya

waiting for the world

The hari raya is not so far away now .. and i still haven't paid the zakat. ... i saw the zakat counter once and felt promted for a visit but .. somehow ...i didn't ...

anyway ... i need a new watch .... my watch's second hand has fallen off while i was in penang ... i was surprised since ... i didn't drop the thing ... or .. maybe i failed to remember that i did. ..

fond+s apparel recently launched their debut shirt ... and ... hahaha ... it was ok .. but some shareholders beg to differ ..

failing to prepare , is preparing to fail ..

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i just saw the preview for the new WTC movie ... nick cage is starring in that one .. i'm totally gonna go and catch that movie ..

i'm going to penang 4 3 days ... it seems like my plant is gonna produce sony's latest mp3 player .. the one with the cool display .. the one i have to be exact ...and i have to be there to study a bit ... the process and shit ..

maxis 3g blows ... i subscribed to the epl goal alert .. and there was no alert ... i got ripped off ...
but the 3rd generation is cathing on .. and i believe SMS will be the thing of the past ... screw SMS ... voice call also ...

maybe in 4 years ...

it's ramadhan and i'm not that religious but ... i do what i can ...

u should 2

look out kid

people and the things they say .. the person they wish to become .... it's all BS

you can say .. but you cannot become ... why bother lying to yourself in the first place ...

4 a kid .. the phrase "you can be all you want" is always true ...

when you get older .. you realize you can't win .. you realize there is no free lunch ... you just grab what you have and go on with it ...

a kid .. walks on clouds .... lighter than air ... smiles brighter then the sun .....

people i think ... .. tries to act their age ... but the fact is .. .. you can always look your age ... but you cannot act your age ...

you become older AND WISER? nope .... experience and judgements make you wiser .. not rm35k worth of education ...

i see an older person and i go ... " can he really maintain this kind of enthusiasm?"... there are a lot on our mind .... but happiness still eludes us ...

to those still dreaming about going somewhere .. being someone ... doing something .. just do it ...

don't let age .. hold you back .. because it will ... and one day you'll sit down with your friend wishing what should've been ... what has been ...

i'm repeating ...

bored

i'm not that hungry .. but i'm bored ..

maybe i'll go to mines this afternoon and buy me boxers

it's ramadhan!

it's fasting month ... my first ramadhan on the job .. it's tiring .. and i'm sleepy all the time ...
.

... initiation by atdi right now ..

and .. i know some of the things i've not done .. i should have initiate ...

regrets? ...

my convocation was ok. It's not over until your convo.

thanks farah for the flowers. i've never had anyone giving me flower b4. it was nice.



anyhow. friends are growing up being somebody and getting married. with fast cars and some even manage to save enough to go to haji. so what about me?

i'm still not quite there yet. i'm still ... the same as i was years ago.

and some things are hard to get over. the things you love to do? your pals? but sacrifices are made easy when you have no choice but to trade all the shit for the sake of ur future.

believe. realize. commit.

ashley cole is quitting the gunners ... arsenal traded him for gallas .... well fuck you ashley cole ..
welcoming baptista .. the versatile attacker .. a trade for reyes ... reyes a flop anwyay ...

2 meg pix

bought a v3x recently .. am happy bout the camera mode ..normal shot .. the mountain icon .. what do you call it?

macro shot .. the flower icon ..
the 3 musketeers ..

and a flip phone is to die for ..
haven't fully explore the motorola software tool .. and my simcard needs upgrading ..

i really think that arsenal can do better than the last time they played .... gunned down ... fuck that shit ...

id3108

independence day. yes .. we are free ... i dunno what it means because i was never in a position where a japanese would ask me to climb up a coconut tree and force me to drink soaped water.

malaysia is free ... we are govern by our own sets of people .. we are governed by malaysians for malaysians ... but that is as good as it gets ....

i guess to me ... being free is about you making your own choice .. and for 49 years that is all we've been doing .. but ... we suck at choosing ...

we choose ... not to work hard ... we choose to take bribes ... we choose to not be creative .. we choose to watch siti and datuk K .... we choose to make mawi and ina break up issue became our own ...

we fail to choose to curb down malay social issues like drugs etc ..

i think a big percentage of malays know what is going down .. and we choose to ignore it ... we can't do nothing ... are we really free to make a change ...

a free man can make his own choice ... but a man with lots of choices need guidelines .... in order to choose the right choice ...

a rebel without a cause ... is also not good ...

choose motorola v3x

theo

Gilberto capitalises on good work by debutant Theo Walcott to fire Arsenal back on level terms against Aston Villa. They had the greater part of the possesion but ... football's like that ..

fits like a glove

basically now, at night, i'll just rot in front of the tv after 10 pm. but yesterday, i played basketball at night.

unable to play in the afternoon, the guys opted to play at night.

tomorrow i'm goin to batu pahat. kuittho recently posted my convo forms and stuff. I thought it was on the coffe table but apparently it wasn't there when i was looking for it. so i got my friend to get me a new n i'm gonna go and fill out the thing and submit.

siti is getting married with DK. Not Drift King, but Dato' K. And i got this e-mail saying that their marriage shouldn't be celebrated like that. Who do they think they are? who the fuck cares? it's their money. some company is cashing in on the action.

you sell yourself while some other people cash in on it. sounds like prostitution to me.

anyway. best of luck. i guess money can buy anything. even short term happines.

EPL is starting. Now there's more things to look forward to.

pay day is near. i'm gonna join the great sale.

TH signs up for RBK

nike ain't for everyone ...

digging it

i don't have anything new to listen to ... but the new mars volta's not too bad ...

speaking of which ...

at the drive in .. really rock my pants rite now ... good music is probably like wine ... the older they get .. the mature they taste ... (like i've tasted good wine before) :D

you know its them when you hear atdi .. you know its atdi .. cause the band is like no other ...

theyr'e cool ... really cool ..

.... i need something new to listen to ...

i am totally hating malaysian music ... especially era.fm music.. i hate malay music .. those pop hits cliche fuck ... those shit face who squeal like a pig .. they tick me off ...

how can people sink so low ... ...

there's this song which sounded very close to maroon 5 .... that's fucked man .... and those indon wannabees ... fuck ...

i'm sorry if you are offended .... but ... face it pal ... malay songs suck ... big time ...

but there's probably good ones out there .. maybe ... but ... the annoyance of malaysian music has been embedded in my head ... so .. i won't be a sucker and believe you when you tell me there's actually good music ... made by malaysian artists ...

i've been working .. and so far its good ..

i've been aksed questions like .. " how long would you be here? .. and how do you like it so far ... ... does it meet your expectation? . and so on ... and all i can say .. is ... i don't have a clue ...

i don't ...

from all i can remember .. i have never had anything go as planned .. unless it was a short term plan ...

everything is short termed ...

but i know i don't plan to be stuck in a big ol building with bulky machines forever ..

unless --> the money is good .... the pressure is positive .... and the atmosphere .... is .. relaxing ..

you're a robot .... or you're not ...

initiation

i think i've mentioned i love friday before . . .

my convocation is due to take place on the 11th of september. how cool is that?

and maybe .. i think most definitely ..... i should start saving. i mean ... i'd spend every cents i have in my account as long as its there.

i wanna go out and buy something ..
i know someone who bought something .... and "some" thing he bought ...

the expo at UPM looks interesting ..... i should also try visiting the local fun fair .. bumper cars anyone?

oh yeah ... i took part in this basketball tournament and its the same old story all over again ...

i'm now close to being a narcoleptic .... 10 pm is the cut off .. after 10 pm ... i'm unplugged ...

zizou

as i was watching

it was a hot day sunday to shoot hoops but i went anyway coz i haven't played for some time. heck i'll play as long as its not raining.

the hot hot heat reminded me during the summertime in the us where i would play bball for hours and drank tap water when thirsty. my family and i would jump from one garage sale to another and got ourselves some pretty cool and useful stuff. a remote controlled tank was one item i could remember. a skateboard and a bike. during summer, i would ride the bike up the hills and around columbia's college where my pals and i would end up at these roman columns. we then climbed on the base of the column and jumped from one column to another. we'd be at the arcade and never once feel like we don't belong. maybe because people there don't eyeball you if you are different. at least educated people there don't.

winter was also an awesome experience. especially if it was your first winter. my first winter was actually not one of those winter where snow flakes would fall and in the morning there'd be knee high snow ... it was ice. the road was sleek with ice and this weird looking vehicle would throw salt to the asphalt to melt the ice. in the morning me and my brothers would have to scrape ice from the windshield and have to wait for almost 15 minutes for the car to warm up.

... the thing that i love the most about winter is .. the virgin snow ... it would start snowing around 2 to 3 am .. so my bros and i couldn't go out .. so in bed ....on our knees .... we looked out the windowas we watched the fallen snow flakes grew in numbers... the dim street light made it more beautiful .... and in the morning .... all we could see is this powdery white puffy snow. we'd put on our jackets and shit ....and the crunching sound of snow was heard each step we took. i did a summersoult and it didn't hurt a bit.

the wind ... calms me down .... always does ....

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france

that hurt ...
... you won the world cup with your head .... and on the next world cup .. you lose your head .. the irony ...

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zizou oh zizou ... i was rooting for france because of thierry henry lah ...and of course zizou ...

ok ok ok .. italy won .. and congrates tu italy .. they won ... so they're better .. penalty or not .. they won ..

but france played allright .... they perform not so bad ...

we have to wait another 4 years for the next one ...

mr philospher please explain

still loads of picture i wish i could scan .. but the lack of time and scanning device .. i wasn't able to execute my plan of scanning my 3r lomo photos ...

penang was good .... the drivers are crazy lah

what the hell am i doing here

nasik kandaq
going up
xidi pointing the way
chilling at high altitude
reflecting
trying to do that floating rock shit
xidi enjoying local theatre
qadir looking for momentos to take home
the master showing how it is done
a snap before leaving

arrival

qadir's pre-mature exit
the talk of the town
butter late then never .. now what?
boarding the ferry at 6.45 am
found love lane.
a little rest before touring the island
arif a.k.a the walking talking atlas browsing the penang map ... him and his photographic memory. looked as if i'm helping.

mr. bombay

the most hyper and drugged passenger on the train
first time on train
look out and you'll see.
qadir screaming bombay! even tho the train was heading to hat yai. here he looks as if he's done this 100000 million times.
arip and xidi enjoying what looks to be a very expensive beverage. "where's my coleslaw?" xidi wondered.....
again screaming bombay! and once a while madras!

penang

we went to penang by train

is land

pulau tioman was good ...

but i was at perhentian once so .. the snorkle was even better there ..

but .. i'm glad i went .. i mean ... the clear blue sky .. the sparkling sea .. the breeze ... everything la ... fits man ..

everything ....

after i got back .. i was like ... damn ... this suck ....

why do i like islands ..?

i think it is because .... i like the isolation .... the peace and quiet .... and how .. your problems and fear just dissolves with the wave ...

when you look at the horizon .. you'd always think about life ... and death ... bout how the world is so fucked up ... and how god created this one spot where everything ... fits ...

i like that ...

and at night .. where everything is quiet .... and you are all alone at the jetty ... looking far ... with the wind blowing ... ahhhhh ... only if i can hold that 4 ~ 5 second of my life ....

anyway ... ... i hope i can visit more islands or u know those spot where everything fits ...

world cup

brazil and england are out...

i was watching tv3 and this chick said that england and brasil are out so she felt like there's no more reason to watch the world cup ..

if they were in the world cup .. playing like they did .... i won't watch the world cup ...

brazil played like a bunch of pussies while england ... the all-time hyped ... all talk ... superstars ... can't cope with the aging french ...

the french ol timers ... zizou and makalele and thuram ... viera all 30+ ... all .. over achieved themselves ....

so to england fans out there don't take it to heart .... england players don't have the technical qualities to win the world cup ...

to brasilian fans ... walk the talk la ..

portugal won because they were lucky .. but when luck runs out ....

i think italy would win ...

maybe ... or german .. or the aging french ...

hehehe .. at least if france was to lose ... they could use age to justify the lost.

tioman

going to tioman. pulau tioman that is.

italian footballers have perfect bodies

I was watching the news today when i saw this minister from i dunno which .. praises pak lah .. saying he gives his full support and pledges he will forever support PL till the end ... pak lah was probably blushing during that speech ...

the thing is .. all this pak lah praise, support, backing shit happened after dr. M dished out some pretty useful comments directed at pak lah himself ...

he took no offense but ... somehow the thing got blew out of proportions ... it was in the paper and stuff ...

but be honest ... why now? why all of the sudden ..?

you can be rich .. be smart .. but ... you still can't get all the respect you deserved ... you can be the prime minister for all i care ....

people here don't respond to authority well ... they don't believe in enforcing the law .... not all of them la .. i don't want to generalize ...

say you are a cop .. you are still a piece of shit if i say so ...it doesn't matter if you hold an mp5 while strapped in your iron-sharp uniform. ...
i won't say it out loud but still .. you are a piece of shit ... this is merely an example ... i respect everyone unless they themselves prove otherwise ..

no one can control this ...

the other thing that bugs me .. is ...when people claim they are who they think they are ...

no offense to HC members but .. when i was studying .. there was this guy who claim he is HC ... and that somehow made him special ... at least he thinks he is special ... but like i said before .. you are a piece of shit if i say so ...

it's not that him claiming being HC that bother me the most .. it's the way he is trying to prove he is HC .. the way he isolate poeple .. by the music that they hear .. and all that shit ...the way he assume that HC is only for certain people ...

why can't we live in world where we can work out our differences and share all the special things we have, we do, we own, we believe?

why can't a chinese listen to mawi with his indian friend? why can't a jew be a nazi? that's a little off ... why can't a girl like football .. . . . .

i used to hate schoolkids who smoke ... but .. i am no better ... they are victims of ill society ...
but hating doesn';t solve anything .... anti this anti that .. doesn't do any good .

that reminded me of this virtual world where you can be cool instantly ... people do go to a certain extent to be cool ...virtually ...

well fuck it ... i don't really want to hate anymore .... i want to understand ... and segregate which is which ... which can make me be better and which can harm me ...

what i can do at least ... is improve the quality of my life ...