eventually

whoa . recently life has been like a ship in the turbulent sea .... out of balance .... i am constantly worrying about things and i'm afraid it would raise my blood pressure .....

but it turned out good ... well... considering the earlier expectations towards it .. i think i did splendid ....

first .. it was the bachelor's project which is mandatory for me to graduate .... and i finished that . got an A- minus .... i was worried about the grade because the project was divided into two parts ... one and two ... the first part i got b- which sucked since i think i deserved more ....but the 2nd part i got an a- which i don't deserve.... but kissing the supervisor's ass helped a lot in the process .. and a lot of play acting in the labs .. being seen labouring and playing with gadgets and machines and acids and stuff ...... hahaha ... guess it worked .... and then comes the thesis which i spend a lot of money on the binding, printing and stuff,.... i magine i have to print 100 something pages ..5 copy ....and then the binding .. the hardcover thesis binding ,..... but it's all worth it .... i don't have to worry about being in the labs anymore ..... and i can sleep at night knowing i don;'t have to wake up early to go to the labs ....

enough with that ...i;ve bitched about it all semester long .....

erm .. another thing that worries me is the short semester which i am attending now .. i took 2 subjects .... and all i need to do is just study and everything will work out fine .....the problem here includes money, time and money ..... i've said that already ... it seems everything connected to me finishing my bachelor involves spending money ,...... but i took on the smeester anyway since my parents gave the green light and the bucks ..... so here i am ..... just got back from class ... damn hot today ....

before the short semester started my girlfriend asked me to go to her house to meet her mom ..... and i was shitting my pants .... how could i not ....i have a phD in communication failure ...... i don't know what to say in front of the elders nor strangers .....but her mom wanted to see me .... the boyfriend ... the one who always here with her doing stuff..... and then just like that .. im at jb waiting for her to pick me up .. after wards wewent for a movie ... 'be cool' is alright ... and then we drove back to her house to meet her mom .... oh yeah .. her brothers is there as well ... how intimidating can this get .... her brother a top student, an all-round athelete is there.. her younger brother taking up law .. is also there ....and i'm like this kid who still have months left before ever getting a job ....no driving license ..... soft spoken ..... nothing special ...communication failure .... social disorder ....but it was all god .. once again .... i have to stop expeting the worse ....

i was expecting the brothers would bully me and her mom would hate me .... or something like that ... but that;s over the top ....

it was great .... her bro's are cool ...and i remember my gf waking me up at 4 am to acompany her and her mom because her lil kid bro had a flat tyre .. i thought what's so hard about changing tyres .. it seems like the screw just got fucked up and the wrench just don't work on the screws .... so he slept in the car till the next day since we couldn;t do shit ... and got help ... so it was a something we could share...i mean her family and myself ....her family was great .... her mom especially .. now i know where she gets her character ....and personality .... she's great ..... seeing her at home ..with her family ... making me more into her ....i love u baby ...

then back to KL .... nothing to worry about here .. except for money .. jam with the band .... twice ... went out with the guys + 1 gal .... and just bury ourselves in steamed prawns and some other seafood and meat/crab balls...oh how much can a stomach bare .....

then got back to BP and ... start the short sem .... class is ok .. nothing new to worry about beside studying .. then went to see the lecturer to know if i failed or not .... since the first time i met with him he said i've failed .... and to my relief i didn;t .. i shook his hand and said thank you .... went out of his room with a big ass smile ..

my life was no short of excitement last semester .... it's like a ship in the turbulent sea .. it will calm........... eventually ....