ashburton grove

in less then 2 weeks, arsenal was kicked out of every cup competition. now the only thing they can do is chase the number 3 spot in the league. i'm being realistic. with 2 games in hand i think liverpool will slide to 4th. no doubt.

they contorl the game but to be honest they never bother the goal keepeer that much. guilty of being overplayed. with the defense looking rather fragile to attacks and set pieces ... i think it is fair.

and i received lotsa verbal abuse due to me being cocky before the game and i paid the price .. manchester united fan will always be delighted with a negative result from arsenal....

well gud luck... chelsea and liverpool and man u ... break a leg .. literally ...

the youngsters were a tasteful young lads .... the only thing they lack are experience ... even henry i sense ... is feeling the pressure ... his spot is well being contested by the many young arsenal strikers ...

a special message to everyone related to arsenal .... the future looks bright and .....

in arsene we trust ...

blimp

i upgraded my blogger ...

its cool .. you can label ... and upgrgade the templates ... its nice .. there probably
maybe a lot more new features that i haven't discover yet ...





when you receive an input, process it and and decide whether to believe it or to discard it ...

...without putting much thought into thinking what you choose to believe .... its enough to make your action ... un-wise ... un proper ... stupid ...

but as impressive and convincing as truth or lies can be .. you always know ... that the truth .. will be your truth .. if you believe ... it could be my truth ... it also can contradict what i believe and in turn makes me question ...first ...why can someone believe something that is out of my logic .. and how can someone act and distribute that kind of idea to others ...

maybe to impress ... maybe there's something wrong with the mind ... where it is reasonable to just swallow something which is new and fresh ... eventhough .. it is wrong .. just to prove .. and fulfill the desire to be the first ... the desire to gain as much attentntion ...

its human nature to want to be the first one ... to be known .. popular ... to be wanted and craved by many .... its human nature ....

unconciously we are doing our best to fulfill this uncontrollable lust .. ..

no one escapes this ... until a certain age ...

self fullfilment is selfish ...

lying to one self isn't the worst thing that can happen ..

its telling people what to believe and accept the lies ...

this does not only harm you .. but others ... do not believe everything ...

believe accordingly ...

island

do you think its worth it to damage your body for the sake of having fun ...?

i do ... only if the damage is minimal ...

i'm talking about going somewhere where your mind and body is pushed to the limits ... i'm not talking about snooker .... i;m talking about taking up new challenges ..i'm sure it'll be fun .. if not very painful ...

got milk?

non-sense

i'm at home .. where i'm usually located at .. and i was watching the making of will smith's new movie .. i dunno what its called .. but he was playing this old black fella ... looks good ... anwyay ...

there was this line where he said to his son ... "go get what you want. Period." or something like that ... and i was like .. yeap .. if you want it so badly .... you'd get it ... with work and with will as strong as iron .... you'd get it ...

speaking of will .. i've just seen i shouldn't be alive ... and this survivor dude show how to survive in the thick amazon jungle .. and it was so cool ... it reminded me why i wanted to be a scout ... its because of the cool gear they have hanging on their uniform .. like those curled up lace ... and knives and shit ... its so cool ...

and still i think its cool to have survival gears ....for no apparent reason .... maybe i could use them someday .... i mean ... not for emergency .... you know .. for camping or jungle trekking or something ....

surviving in the jungle could be as miserable as surviving ordinary life ... mentally its almost the same .... instead of wild animals or bugs ... we have to contend to the most fierce and deadly animal of all .... human beings .. as damned-dirty-apes as they are .. i am one of em apes ... have to live with them work with them socialize with them ... and its survival i tell you ...

how many time have i cursed people cause the way they act .. the way they attack others and how they are ignorant to the feelings of others ... and how selfish and dumb they are ... but still .... i have no choice but to be with them ... not everyone is fucked up and cold ... at least that's what brendan boyd claim ...

but people are fun .. cats are fun .. but people are better ... sometimes i want cats to talk .. so i can communicate and interact to cats ... and ask them why they hate baths ... why do they slit a mouse in half and leave them in front of the door for me to clean up after ... jsut want to know how the cat's mind work ... but they're cute aren't they ...

humans are cute too .. too cute for my likings sometimes ...

all and all .. i think if i keep up this rate of hate .. it will consume me ... and i will end up being an anti social which i think is stupid .... cuz being an anti social by choice is stupid ... why do you choose to isolate yourself from society ... beats me ...

"what in the world did you do ... aduh ... buntut aku .."

All the way for I dare not
Buy it what am I supposed to
Do without you?
Life will never be the
Same when I picked up the pieces
Rock and roll legacy
ROck and roll lies
Don't you ruin my holiday
When I wanna holiday
Holiday is where my life
Is changing color
ooohh.... Oligopoly
Don't you ruin my holiday
Everyday a holiday
Holiday is where I feel a
Whole lot better hope it's not too late
Truth is said and I dare
Not buy it what am I supposed
To do without you?
Life is never esy when I picked up the pieces
Ruin by the selling out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fHUL5dql9MY

was surfing youtube and found butter at zouk ... ruin by the selling out .. i was in it in the end ... i look stupid .. but fuck it... i was up there man ...singging along man... and you're not ...

there's a whole lot more from where that came from ... just search .. i think the whole show was recorded using a digital camera ... the sound was crappy ... but the image was ok ...

i think i saw zaidi in stolen .... he was up there for like 1.2 miliseconds and then he dropped like a sack of potatoes ... you are one heavy bodysurfer dude ....i hope your hips is getting better ... or does it still sting like hell? .. hahaha ..

we all need holidays .. take a trip .. and hope its not too late ....

• the lyrics is sorta messed up .. the wording i think is incorrect ... i'm to lazy to google for another one ... you know the lyrics ...

2007/01/26

its all about football

arsenal drew with southampton which i think is ok since they're playing away. derby match. the result was fair since they were 2-0 down. baptista got a hatrick eventhough one goal was scored by him against arsenal. the 2nd leg at emirates is the one i'm looking forward to. love watching young gunners whooping other teams... they don't dissapoint.

another young team to watch out for is the malaysian team. now they look .. like they could last 90 mins without suffering muscle cramps or ... ran out of stamina or some shit like that ...

their passing could be better though ... nervous most of the times .. they'd just kick the ball and hope it'd turn out to be a great pass ... hope luck is on our side on saturday ... cuz malaysia really need luck on their side ...

but i still support malaysia ... eventhough i condemn the way they are playing but ... they're still malaysia ... can't do nothing about it ... i want them to WIN

during this hoilday .. i'm gonna take a break from my daily work eat sleep play routine and go to ppangkor .. to hell with cash ... i'm goin anyway .. as long as i am ageing .. i might as well age while having fun ... when its time to slow down .. i'd slow and settle down .. in the mean time ... forget the future for a while and enjoy the present .... the past ... we bury in our hearts ... mak aih .. giler emo ..

MY MALAYSIA .. MAKE US PROUD WILL YA

Malaysia VS singapore

support your local football scene

eventhough they'll dissapoint

so stay home and watch the tube

no need to pay to watch your team run around like pussies kicking the ball all over filed but the goal

still support them i will

false hope

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i've never been to spore ... i wonder if its true that they're a bunch of pricks ... i dunno ..that's what i heard ...

malaysian can be like that too sometimes ...

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i think it is unfair for singapore to recruit a bunch of foreigners to play for the national team. how can a 6 foot tall black dude be a singaporean. oh well so much for national pride .....

at least if malaysia go down .. we played with our countrymen ...

truly malaysia .. losers

yo

manchester got whooped. kneel boy. hail your master. arsenal rule your ass now.

finally

RENALDO MOON by sevencollar tshirt

Stand tall, leave the waste you're on
There's hope in every war
It's time to keep your strength for more
From what you never knew was yours

Inside your wings, I'm asleep

Stay smooth, cuz I don't need no proof
The silence speaks for both of us from now on
I have a dream to follow

Hanging by your will, I'm keeping

Hand in hand
Take us to our paths
Or funerals
(Mistakes are what we're made of)

I have shown love, I have been true
I'll keep devoting my world for you

Stand tall, leave the waste you're on
There's hope in every war
It's time to keep you strength for more
From what you never knew was yours

Inside your wings, I've been dreaming in colour
Hanging by your will

aku nak gak lirik ni

jesus pose

ruin by the selling out
ok here are the jesus pose

god damn ... it was great ...

thanks arip ..

kids rule

arsenal ... with 6 youngsters barely 18 ... whipped liverfool at anfield .... 6 goals to 3 ... liverpussies fileded their top guns ... but there were no threat as a young arsenal team comfortably whooped loserpool...

and today ..... arsenal whopped blackburn away form home with 10 man ....

what can i say .... these team deserves to be whooped ...

i've been dreaming in colour

hehehe

the pushful showcase rock man .... hahaha .... the kids are crazy and wild la...

anyway .. it was fun .. i ended up with a lesion on my neck whick look a bit like a love byte. but i haven't seen it yet as of now.

it happened when this punk was trying to bodysurf. So he climbed my back a few times but failed. and he left me with a fucking lesion that hurt like a motherfucker.

why don't you come up to me and ask" bang, support saya bang" i'll be glad to... man. and all this kicking gotta to stop ... it hurts man.

i didn't know dda was performing or i'd been there earlier. it was traffic jam in kl. so it was a little slow. dda .. macam iris ... with all that screaming and space sounds ... noise ... it was "isis"ish ..

but it was so cool .. that iranian dude with his jaguar fender .... and multieffect ... god damn it man .... the sounds were awesome ...

next up aru and his buddies ... republic of brikfileds ... another reggae band ... aru looks as if he's a new man ... a preacher with dreadlocks .... i dunno if he really turned over a new leaf .. or if he was just fucking with us ...

i can not listen to reggae .. i'd put me to sleep i tell you ... maybe reggae sounds good if i'm on drugs or on an island ....

oag was up next .. and .. since it's the last band b4 butter i decided to join the already packed dance floor filled with kids hyped up and waiting for OAG ....

seriously i don't memorize all their songs but i do remember the chorus ... and since they were playing ol skool stuff .. i manage to follow ... the last song was 60s tv ... its a must .... and before the song ended i bodysurfed and it was great .. :)

after oag ....butter performed ... it was great .. when loque started playing this little solo during the start of ruin by the selling out .. i was banging my head waiting for the distortion part ... after that all i remember was .... i'm on top of people again ...

now suddenly my wrist is starting to hurt ...

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7/1/07

the butter and frens gig was held yesterday .. it was good. the sound was good. almost perfect. maybe since it was held at zouk and sponsored by many. especial bimbit.com. wtf? never heard of bimbit. maybe they are starting to mark their presence by sponsoring the gig.

i wonder who won the voting thingy.

anyway ... the gig went rather well ... except for the sheer coldness. it was freezing inside. i didn't even shed a sweat.

18sgg was first to perform ... i was late and they were performing. didn't hear much .. can't concentrate on the songs their playing.

next up was prana ... well .. i'm not a fan of reggae and their song was almost all the same to me .. was amazed by thier bassist who i think had pretty flexible fingers .. and fast i might add ...

their lead vocalist was ha tau. ha tau meant rock on in phillipines ...

even if he punk'd us .. we'll never know ...

scts was on after prana ... and the first song was enough to get my attention ... it was renaldo moon.... it was so .. good ... and i also like drones ... the rest was allright ... oh yeah .. i only learned the title of the songs courtesy of jasmine ...tq 4 da mp3 ...

scts were tight like anna kournikova's spandex .. good band ... very good ...

their singer also told a very amusing story before playing this one song ... it was about how he lost his backpack in the mountains and how he lost his identity or some shit like that ... anyway ... its good to see the band trying to be a little friendly towards the crowd ... being personal and shit ..good try ,.. it only manage to get the two bozo hosts from fly.fm to make fun of the story by telling their own losing an identity story ,,,

lmb was next ... i started to venture into the crowd / moshpit by the time freefall was on .... butter is next anyway and i wanted to get a good view of them ... and my back was limiting my action .. so i just push oncoming bodies ... head bang a little .. i pushed bosol who was also there in the crowd... so he also got involved into the kicking and pushing ... it was fun ...

anyway .. their new songs ... like prana ....was almost all the same .. i only recognize hollywood holiday and this other song since i heard it so many time .. live lah ... sharul was a true rockstar ... wing meng .... really put on a good show ... even tho it was very emo ... i didn't start crying or anything ...

you know a band did well in a gig when you can remeber what the band did.. sang...performed ...the next day ...

and i always remember a butterfingers performance ...

loque really looks like shit ... he looks like he lost a lot of money and became an alcoholic ... his beard was wild and out of control ... he was covered in cellulite ... but there was no questioning his rocking that night ...

emmet on the other hand... was the opposite ... he was charming and clean cut... ... and he bodysurfed that night ... emmet is a big boy i tell you .... he's heavy ... both of emet and loq combined after two years missing ...and they were awesome ... singging along with them was great ...

kadak maintained his chubby figure ... he was quiet ... but still rock ...

loko ... man .. was he loco .. he whacked the drums and cymbals silly ... he beat them to death ... ... during 1.2mg kalai was playing and i wonder if loko could be as good as him playing old butter songs ... and loko proved to be as good as kalai.... if not ....better ...

can't wait for next week .. i was hoping they play some selamat tinggal dunia songs ... but .. its allright ... they still rock ...

...... new bands these days .. cannot perform .. some have good songs ... but cannot perform .. ..some can perform but can only use their instruments to produce cow shit ...

its the combination of the two i think ... and i hope all the bands out there to .. grow up .. be a rockstar ... ... i know you got talent but you don't have to be a prick about it ... this underground thing got to stop .. what underground? are you freeing slaves or something .. making changes ? .. have some political issues that you need to sort out with the govt ... fuck that ... we all have issues with the govt ...

all i'm saying is .. it's all about the music ... nothing more ... and if some other thing got in the way of that ... i can bet you there would be more one buck short and pop shuvass t shirt worn by cool kids than good bands making a name for themselves and performing their stuff ....

wishlist

some magnificent shit eh mt kinabalu ...

i want to visit and experience ..

1. mt kinabalu / sabah
2. phuket / thailand
3. bali / indonesia

at least ... damn it ..

get me a passport first .... visit s'pore ... eventho i know it;s just another urban jungle ... and then go visit them places ..

backpacking? ... of course .

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maybe a digital camera won't hurt ... since lomo is quite costly ... hahaha

but i'll print the pics ... and put them in a cute lil album with a red ribbon on it's cover ...

maybe i'll plan for a year ... and then ... i'll be prepared ...

2008 probably ..

anyone?

a r s e n a l ..

wat's up wit their form man .. wenger gotta get some consistency goin ... or he can kiss the champ league bye bye..

self titled

2007 ....

resolutions anyone?

i haven't been writing much ... but i am still very much involved in blogging .. reading them at least /...

i've comitted to something .. a car ...

you've gotta commit to step up a level ...

i would not call it a burden .. but a responsibility ....

the more responsibility you undertake ... successfully .... you're more complete...

it's a learning process ... it's easy ... sometimes ... and most of the time ... you learn ...



money ... like air ... is' something that we all breath ...we can not live with out it ...un-like air ... money doesn't come free ...

but .. i'm balancing between buying stuff .. and buying .. experience ... .. stuff .. things ... can only fulfill my requirement to live ... it can not ... improve the quality of my life ...

you can listen to music .. but making music is a whole new thing ... the experience ... it's a whole new feeling ...

same goes for sport .. watching sport .. and playing them is a different thing altogether ...

... all the things money can buy ... all the experience money can't buy ...

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hello

--------------movies

recent movie goers would agree that movies are getting better ... even malay made movie is showing signs of improvement ..

i'm talking about the departed .. i like gangsta shoot em up movies ... since there's no bullshit ... they shoot to kill ... i think most villains fail since they talk too much before executing a hero ... why use a time bomb .. or lock them up in a tank full of water ... the hero would escape eventually ...


anyway ... malay made movie? ... good? .... the first thing i said to myself was .. this is crash .. different theme .. same style ... the very least it is inspired by crash ...

crash however ..revolves around human emotions ..and fear ... and let questions just be ....

but love ... will always make people tingle ...you can never escape from love ... even when you don't admit it ..

you'd feel empty if you're not in love .. or something .. someone told me ... i dunno ...

cinta however .. got this happy ending .. which i think is very nice .... i could cry ... but i didn't ...

------------------------cameron

i'm going to cameron highland .... not to chill .. but this time .. to conquer irau .. it's a beginner mountain kadir said ... beginner or not .. i can't wait ... to climb up and be united with nature ...

-----------------------wedding

my brother got married last weekend .. it was ok ... so many people .. i can't recognize 1/3 of the poeple there ...

---------------------moving on

the only direction i plan to go is forward ... the weight i'm carrying is responsibility ... the things i love to do is routine ... my actions are calculated risks ...and i deserve ... the consequences ...

:)

i do think nothing is better than being behind a drumkit.

and it feels good sweating it out in a court full of your buddies.

visiting to a place you've never visitied.

accepting a challenge without knowing the consequences .

i hold so many things back, most people do. i know. i see potential in people. but they hold back too much. where there was suppose to be action, there was excuses. and i know i'm like that too. i know i could offer more, deserve more. you know you have some sort of standard. so do you live up to the standard?

i probably am lucky.

i thought giving your hundred percent was easy. but it's not. sometimes it is frustrating when all your concentration and focus go to waste. when all you did do not invite praises and all that matter was results. there is no rating for efforts.

if to enter a higher learning institute was rated on efforts, i think the majority of us would fail miserably.

i hate it when all the things that you do for something doesn't add up to the result. your best is shit when result is concerned. your hard work and everything is shit if the result is shit.

then why be a purist?

why go to an extend to please yourselves if the result was based on someone elses point of view?. why do we need to serve purpose when we are expected to serve only function?

i should just lay back and listen to what people want and try my best to give it to them. By anymeans that will fulfill their needs and requirement.

survival in malaysia today is easy. you just have to listen.... and talk when you should. and when you talk, you should attract. when you lie it is real. when you create it is original in people's mind.. when you work, it is only for the result. when you play you kill. all that matter is that dream. all that matter is you. all that you do now is for the future. and if you do not do according to your plan, the future is fucked up. i presume.

6 degrees of separation

selamat hari raya

special? you know it.

i saw an old friend of mine. and i'm glad i met him. i need to see old faces to remind me of who i was ...

this hari raya just proves that i can never be satisfied with just one thing. not shoes or shirts or designer pants. but the things i need. i always think that if i have everything that i need. i 'm done .. i'm the happiest dude alive... but .. there is always a need for something ... man ..it will never end ..the wishlist keeps growing ...

seriously ..... i didn't see this hari raya coming ... life now is time consuming ...

maybe i'm like that ... overlooking the things that suppose to matter ... i think most people share this same quality ...

is it fair
a little girl with super straight hair
is it fair
for a kid to just sit there and stare

there was never a word
escaped from his mouth
he was not in the mood to show emotion
constant face was his only expression

if i was in his place
would i venture more?
just for a taste
but afraid it could never be like before

if body could act according to will
this limbs would never stay still
only if you ask, then i will
but it's always too late, by then i'm killed

selamat hari raya