2 meg pix

bought a v3x recently .. am happy bout the camera mode ..normal shot .. the mountain icon .. what do you call it?

macro shot .. the flower icon ..
the 3 musketeers ..

and a flip phone is to die for ..
haven't fully explore the motorola software tool .. and my simcard needs upgrading ..

i really think that arsenal can do better than the last time they played .... gunned down ... fuck that shit ...

id3108

independence day. yes .. we are free ... i dunno what it means because i was never in a position where a japanese would ask me to climb up a coconut tree and force me to drink soaped water.

malaysia is free ... we are govern by our own sets of people .. we are governed by malaysians for malaysians ... but that is as good as it gets ....

i guess to me ... being free is about you making your own choice .. and for 49 years that is all we've been doing .. but ... we suck at choosing ...

we choose ... not to work hard ... we choose to take bribes ... we choose to not be creative .. we choose to watch siti and datuk K .... we choose to make mawi and ina break up issue became our own ...

we fail to choose to curb down malay social issues like drugs etc ..

i think a big percentage of malays know what is going down .. and we choose to ignore it ... we can't do nothing ... are we really free to make a change ...

a free man can make his own choice ... but a man with lots of choices need guidelines .... in order to choose the right choice ...

a rebel without a cause ... is also not good ...

choose motorola v3x

theo

Gilberto capitalises on good work by debutant Theo Walcott to fire Arsenal back on level terms against Aston Villa. They had the greater part of the possesion but ... football's like that ..

fits like a glove

basically now, at night, i'll just rot in front of the tv after 10 pm. but yesterday, i played basketball at night.

unable to play in the afternoon, the guys opted to play at night.

tomorrow i'm goin to batu pahat. kuittho recently posted my convo forms and stuff. I thought it was on the coffe table but apparently it wasn't there when i was looking for it. so i got my friend to get me a new n i'm gonna go and fill out the thing and submit.

siti is getting married with DK. Not Drift King, but Dato' K. And i got this e-mail saying that their marriage shouldn't be celebrated like that. Who do they think they are? who the fuck cares? it's their money. some company is cashing in on the action.

you sell yourself while some other people cash in on it. sounds like prostitution to me.

anyway. best of luck. i guess money can buy anything. even short term happines.

EPL is starting. Now there's more things to look forward to.

pay day is near. i'm gonna join the great sale.

TH signs up for RBK

nike ain't for everyone ...

digging it

i don't have anything new to listen to ... but the new mars volta's not too bad ...

speaking of which ...

at the drive in .. really rock my pants rite now ... good music is probably like wine ... the older they get .. the mature they taste ... (like i've tasted good wine before) :D

you know its them when you hear atdi .. you know its atdi .. cause the band is like no other ...

theyr'e cool ... really cool ..

.... i need something new to listen to ...

i am totally hating malaysian music ... especially era.fm music.. i hate malay music .. those pop hits cliche fuck ... those shit face who squeal like a pig .. they tick me off ...

how can people sink so low ... ...

there's this song which sounded very close to maroon 5 .... that's fucked man .... and those indon wannabees ... fuck ...

i'm sorry if you are offended .... but ... face it pal ... malay songs suck ... big time ...

but there's probably good ones out there .. maybe ... but ... the annoyance of malaysian music has been embedded in my head ... so .. i won't be a sucker and believe you when you tell me there's actually good music ... made by malaysian artists ...

i've been working .. and so far its good ..

i've been aksed questions like .. " how long would you be here? .. and how do you like it so far ... ... does it meet your expectation? . and so on ... and all i can say .. is ... i don't have a clue ...

i don't ...

from all i can remember .. i have never had anything go as planned .. unless it was a short term plan ...

everything is short termed ...

but i know i don't plan to be stuck in a big ol building with bulky machines forever ..

unless --> the money is good .... the pressure is positive .... and the atmosphere .... is .. relaxing ..

you're a robot .... or you're not ...

initiation

i think i've mentioned i love friday before . . .

my convocation is due to take place on the 11th of september. how cool is that?

and maybe .. i think most definitely ..... i should start saving. i mean ... i'd spend every cents i have in my account as long as its there.

i wanna go out and buy something ..
i know someone who bought something .... and "some" thing he bought ...

the expo at UPM looks interesting ..... i should also try visiting the local fun fair .. bumper cars anyone?

oh yeah ... i took part in this basketball tournament and its the same old story all over again ...

i'm now close to being a narcoleptic .... 10 pm is the cut off .. after 10 pm ... i'm unplugged ...

zizou

as i was watching

it was a hot day sunday to shoot hoops but i went anyway coz i haven't played for some time. heck i'll play as long as its not raining.

the hot hot heat reminded me during the summertime in the us where i would play bball for hours and drank tap water when thirsty. my family and i would jump from one garage sale to another and got ourselves some pretty cool and useful stuff. a remote controlled tank was one item i could remember. a skateboard and a bike. during summer, i would ride the bike up the hills and around columbia's college where my pals and i would end up at these roman columns. we then climbed on the base of the column and jumped from one column to another. we'd be at the arcade and never once feel like we don't belong. maybe because people there don't eyeball you if you are different. at least educated people there don't.

winter was also an awesome experience. especially if it was your first winter. my first winter was actually not one of those winter where snow flakes would fall and in the morning there'd be knee high snow ... it was ice. the road was sleek with ice and this weird looking vehicle would throw salt to the asphalt to melt the ice. in the morning me and my brothers would have to scrape ice from the windshield and have to wait for almost 15 minutes for the car to warm up.

... the thing that i love the most about winter is .. the virgin snow ... it would start snowing around 2 to 3 am .. so my bros and i couldn't go out .. so in bed ....on our knees .... we looked out the windowas we watched the fallen snow flakes grew in numbers... the dim street light made it more beautiful .... and in the morning .... all we could see is this powdery white puffy snow. we'd put on our jackets and shit ....and the crunching sound of snow was heard each step we took. i did a summersoult and it didn't hurt a bit.

the wind ... calms me down .... always does ....

baller

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france

that hurt ...
... you won the world cup with your head .... and on the next world cup .. you lose your head .. the irony ...

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zizou oh zizou ... i was rooting for france because of thierry henry lah ...and of course zizou ...

ok ok ok .. italy won .. and congrates tu italy .. they won ... so they're better .. penalty or not .. they won ..

but france played allright .... they perform not so bad ...

we have to wait another 4 years for the next one ...

mr philospher please explain

still loads of picture i wish i could scan .. but the lack of time and scanning device .. i wasn't able to execute my plan of scanning my 3r lomo photos ...

penang was good .... the drivers are crazy lah

what the hell am i doing here

nasik kandaq
going up
xidi pointing the way
chilling at high altitude
reflecting
trying to do that floating rock shit
xidi enjoying local theatre
qadir looking for momentos to take home
the master showing how it is done
a snap before leaving

arrival

qadir's pre-mature exit
the talk of the town
butter late then never .. now what?
boarding the ferry at 6.45 am
found love lane.
a little rest before touring the island
arif a.k.a the walking talking atlas browsing the penang map ... him and his photographic memory. looked as if i'm helping.

mr. bombay

the most hyper and drugged passenger on the train
first time on train
look out and you'll see.
qadir screaming bombay! even tho the train was heading to hat yai. here he looks as if he's done this 100000 million times.
arip and xidi enjoying what looks to be a very expensive beverage. "where's my coleslaw?" xidi wondered.....
again screaming bombay! and once a while madras!

penang

we went to penang by train

is land

pulau tioman was good ...

but i was at perhentian once so .. the snorkle was even better there ..

but .. i'm glad i went .. i mean ... the clear blue sky .. the sparkling sea .. the breeze ... everything la ... fits man ..

everything ....

after i got back .. i was like ... damn ... this suck ....

why do i like islands ..?

i think it is because .... i like the isolation .... the peace and quiet .... and how .. your problems and fear just dissolves with the wave ...

when you look at the horizon .. you'd always think about life ... and death ... bout how the world is so fucked up ... and how god created this one spot where everything ... fits ...

i like that ...

and at night .. where everything is quiet .... and you are all alone at the jetty ... looking far ... with the wind blowing ... ahhhhh ... only if i can hold that 4 ~ 5 second of my life ....

anyway ... ... i hope i can visit more islands or u know those spot where everything fits ...

world cup

brazil and england are out...

i was watching tv3 and this chick said that england and brasil are out so she felt like there's no more reason to watch the world cup ..

if they were in the world cup .. playing like they did .... i won't watch the world cup ...

brazil played like a bunch of pussies while england ... the all-time hyped ... all talk ... superstars ... can't cope with the aging french ...

the french ol timers ... zizou and makalele and thuram ... viera all 30+ ... all .. over achieved themselves ....

so to england fans out there don't take it to heart .... england players don't have the technical qualities to win the world cup ...

to brasilian fans ... walk the talk la ..

portugal won because they were lucky .. but when luck runs out ....

i think italy would win ...

maybe ... or german .. or the aging french ...

hehehe .. at least if france was to lose ... they could use age to justify the lost.

tioman

going to tioman. pulau tioman that is.

italian footballers have perfect bodies

I was watching the news today when i saw this minister from i dunno which .. praises pak lah .. saying he gives his full support and pledges he will forever support PL till the end ... pak lah was probably blushing during that speech ...

the thing is .. all this pak lah praise, support, backing shit happened after dr. M dished out some pretty useful comments directed at pak lah himself ...

he took no offense but ... somehow the thing got blew out of proportions ... it was in the paper and stuff ...

but be honest ... why now? why all of the sudden ..?

you can be rich .. be smart .. but ... you still can't get all the respect you deserved ... you can be the prime minister for all i care ....

people here don't respond to authority well ... they don't believe in enforcing the law .... not all of them la .. i don't want to generalize ...

say you are a cop .. you are still a piece of shit if i say so ...it doesn't matter if you hold an mp5 while strapped in your iron-sharp uniform. ...
i won't say it out loud but still .. you are a piece of shit ... this is merely an example ... i respect everyone unless they themselves prove otherwise ..

no one can control this ...

the other thing that bugs me .. is ...when people claim they are who they think they are ...

no offense to HC members but .. when i was studying .. there was this guy who claim he is HC ... and that somehow made him special ... at least he thinks he is special ... but like i said before .. you are a piece of shit if i say so ...

it's not that him claiming being HC that bother me the most .. it's the way he is trying to prove he is HC .. the way he isolate poeple .. by the music that they hear .. and all that shit ...the way he assume that HC is only for certain people ...

why can't we live in world where we can work out our differences and share all the special things we have, we do, we own, we believe?

why can't a chinese listen to mawi with his indian friend? why can't a jew be a nazi? that's a little off ... why can't a girl like football .. . . . .

i used to hate schoolkids who smoke ... but .. i am no better ... they are victims of ill society ...
but hating doesn';t solve anything .... anti this anti that .. doesn't do any good .

that reminded me of this virtual world where you can be cool instantly ... people do go to a certain extent to be cool ...virtually ...

well fuck it ... i don't really want to hate anymore .... i want to understand ... and segregate which is which ... which can make me be better and which can harm me ...

what i can do at least ... is improve the quality of my life ...

birthdate

happy birthday to farah. now go get yourself something =)

circus

the world cup has started for 8 days or something .... and erm .. it is great ... but i can't be a rock and stay up late at night anymore coz i can't cope with work without a good sound sleep. Something has got to give....

but i do want to do all the things that i used to do ... i think everyone do ... i believe all those old 59 ers wants to travel or run around in a field or do something fun they used to do ....

but .. the phrase times fly does justify itself when you start working ... it flies ... along with every youth you have in you ....

i'm probably going to tioman this 30th of june. it's a company sponsored trip .. so what the hell ... crystal clear water .. white sandy beaches .. blue skies .... who wouldn't want to go?

i'm officially appointed by sony yesterday ... so that is sorta cool ... now what?

i don't know the latest happenings on desperate housewives ... i don't know who is in the
nba finals .... gotta find my bearings ...

so ... james blunt sings like a girl ... but he does produces good tunes ...

it's raining and i'm hungry .. mom's cooking some pretty hot dishes ...

to all .. have nice outstanding weekend ... i know argentinians are having a good one ...

make like a tree and leave ...

pulau penang

let's go to penang ...

let's visit this majestic island ..

never been to a place like here ....

never seen it anywhere ..

very eager i scour ...

but anyway ....i guess i wasn't needed here .... x 9

violet

finally, i am a proud owner of sony's network walkman. And so far the battery is amazing, the sound though, depends on the format of the song, the kbps rate etc. u know...all the stuff that make up a good sound. anyway .... i've converted 100+ songs to ATRAC and compressed them to 48kbps and that is low as far as kbps is concerned. the sound is ok ... sort of flat .. but .. to save space that's the way to go ..

even raw recorded jamming session sounds good in this kbps...

the display however .. is awesome ... i've been awed by wafi's sony mp3 playa (different + even more expensive) display from the first time i laid my eyes on it ...

and my mp3 playa don't dissapoint ... i am pretty pleased with my display eventho i'd trade mine with wafi's anyday of the year ...

512mb is not huge enough if you prefer having the entire album of your favourite artist ...in your mp3 playa ...but it is ok for those who just want some music to enjoy to while jogging or when you're on one of those long boring trip looking at barren landscape of the plus highway....

it's light too ...i jogged with mine .. and i barely feel its presence ...

i'm not familiar with sonicstage .. but it's just like other jukebox program .... import, convert, transfer ... all that shit ...

if you are a drag and drop person ... do not buy any mp3 network walkman from sony ... i think it's better to get one of those mp3 playa made by famous computer names like creative etc ..

i'm pleased .. ..

dragon fruit

the weekend is here. I look forward to weekends. On monday there'd still be some sort of weekend hangover. On tuesday you are slowly recovering from monday. On wednesday you realize you have another 2 days to go before the weekend. Thursday, excited about friday. And on friday you barely notice its been a week since the last weekend.

So this weekend i'm not gonna do much. I hafta finish my presentation this monday. I won't commit to anything i can't finish. Coz it will end up un finished forever. So i'm planning to do simple tasks like snooker, hang around, play basket ball or soccer or whatever :D

whoa, if i were to work on saturday, that'd suck a lot. I prefer saturdays to sundays. There s something about saturday that just cheers you up. your'e lazy yet you're enthusiastic. You feel like doing something but you also want to let those muscles relax.

All and all, have a productive weekend.

your's so huge

i've made up my mind. I'm gonna go with the sony's NW-E002F/B
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RM299.00.




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surveying for 3.5mm jacks

I wAS riding home after work sometime last week and i saw a smoke trail in the sky.

suddenly, i remembered how i would once gaze at the sky to watch and ponder about the trail of smoke in the sky. The slowly forming trail was a product of water vapourizing (can someone verify this?) I think that was it.

i have bad memory, but things like this keeps popping up and it made my day. for a short short time it was bliss.

maybe i was just happy to be heading home.

the world cup is just 10 days away, and ummm... can't wait for that.

I am interested in buying an mp3 playa. since nokia N91 costs around 3000 i would rather just tape an mp3 palyer to my 3315.

attention to details.

how bout my team eh? it was a good game of football. they play with their heart. passion and hard work goes a long long way.

jeering the malay team is so malay. of course we always favour for the underdog to win. we are always behind the underdog team. but that doesn't mean the malaysian team should be receiving that kind of treatment from the spectators.

indoensia was hit with another catastrophe. this time around an earth quake which robbed many of their home, lives were lost etc. tsunami, volcano, civil wars. terrorism? what's next.

we're lucky that eventho indon and malaysia is actually not that far away, malaysia is kept safe from these devastating forces of nature. luck. that's all.

akademi fantasia is on again and .... it is hopeless. these kids should find some better things to do. but if it does for you then go ahead and indulge.

when was the last time you saw the horizon? the flat line that separates the earth from the sky.
hmmm..

hurm .... stupid w810i with its dumbass serial bus head phone. god damned expensive piece of plastic with 3.5mm jack. nothing is packaged to my preferences.

:)

Da Vinci Code is cool. the book is better i think. the book is always better. i always hate it when a bad guy shoots the hero and misses eventho the chances of hitting the hero is higher then the chances of missing. and how everything is always perfectly timed just doesn't do it for me.

i want people to die when they are shot at. immortal hero dodging bullets, superman and X-men.

the blood line of jesus christ. hmmm...the holy grail. whohohoh. i believe when it comes to faith there should be no question. i hear curiosity is good for a boy but they also say curiosity kills the cat. either way there's a boundry for these kinda things. we can question and maybe find an answer but then what?

hurting yourself is just stupid isn't it?

french guy is always gonna be cool. from godzilla to ronin to da vincci ... he is the coolest french guy ever. excluding thierry henry lah.

oh well

ok ...

little pony finished 6th overall and that's allright i guess. i mean ... it's not like we practiced or trained hard or anything like that. so ... that has got to be the right outcome.

and the CL final .... man ... what a blow ... what a blow job ... trying to stop barca with ten men is like trying to stop a train with ten men. barca is a good if not the best attacking team in the world .... if arsenal was to lose .. i accept it was to barca...and lose they did. oh well. at least henry decided to extend his contract. that's good to know.

i fell on my head weeks ago .. and .. it hurts .. of course ... and afterwards...i puked ... twice .. and that was enough to get me admitted. i was in the ward for almost a day. i'm ok now .. i feel ok. i hope i am. accidents happen and what is important is ....how you deal with it ... erm .. yeah ..

there is something wrong with the PC .. i don't know what's up with the pc ... it could only stay on for like ... 3 sec and then it goes dead ...something is fucked ... i dunno what ... i suspected something wrong with the power supply ..but that wasn't it ... i hope anyone who have experienced this sorta breakdown before.. please tell me how to overcome it ...

typing using a laptop keyboard is really hard to get use to ....

da vinci code is out .. maybe i'll go catch the movie next week ... i hear the book is a bestseller ... good book = good movie ..? i'm counting on it... i hope they make more based on books movies ... i don't have the time to read 300 plus pages of fine font ... or maybe i just prefer watching movies...

erm ... thinking about going away .... just to freshen shit up ... see something new ... have some fun ....

the world cup is near ... so .. those who are not into football ... too bad ... they can only wonder ...
my prediction .. italy .. wins the world cup ... if not ....brasil ... the dark horse ... gotta be some african team ... flop team ... england ... don't know why .... but with sven coaching i will always favour england to flop .....france would probably make it into the quarter finals .... spain ... semi? ... germans ... final ...?

asians teams? ... of course i'd love to see the arabs to go far .. but .... i got a feeling that ... they could be out in group stage. japan and korea .. no chance ....

malaysia vs myteam .... my prediction ....malaysia win big la ... those my team players ,.... they play for themselves lah ... they know how to play football ... but not how to play football as a team .... that's important ... the team ... cause the team wins games .. not some hot shot from kelantan or kl or wherever ... not to say that the malaysian team is good ... they also suck .. but .. at least ,,, the malay team has experience .... that's important also ....

but if myteam win ... i guess ... that only prove to show that .. malaysia is a developing country ... but not in football .... malaysia boleh .... yeah ... malaysia boleh buat team dan kalah lepas tu ...

what is malaysia boleh anyway? boleh lakukannya? boleh kalah? boleh cuba? that's pretty vague if you ask me ... it should go somethign like .,.. malaysia menang .. or malaysia akan menang ... something aggressive .. positive .. something that highlights the spirit and the mentality of a winner ....


malaysia can ... i can ... everyone can say they can .. but execute la ... don't be what you dream to be ... be what you are .. and that is a winner ... so i think the right shout out would be .. malaysia boleh .. cuba ...

as long we're not having civil wars or some other shit happening here.... i'm all good ....

and .. sleep is goooood .. .really .. .goooood ..... good!

typical

well .... what a week ... arsenal .... for the first time ... has finally got themselves in the final of CL. ...

they'll be up against barca ... let's be optimistic .... shall we arsenal fans? ...

and how bout that plane crash at russia today ....? .. it was an a320 airbus ... no disrespect .. but ... foo fighters actually has a song about a plane crash .... and the song was titled a320 ....

i like that song ...

work is okay ... those shit you hear .. from your office mates about people and how fucked they are ... are starting to surface ...

machines can breakdown and be repaired .... and can be pushed to its full capabilities .. once the machine losses it's efficiency .... you can always replace with new ones .... people on the other hand .... are not ... you can try to exploit whatever potential that they have .. but sadly ... they don't care about potential ... they don't care about being efficient ...they simply don't care ....

and working with machines is easier as they are set up to follow instructions ... people however ... in this case ... are set up to question .. are set up to think...set up to act ... set up to react ...and respond to orders according on how they think is right ....that is human nature ... but questioning your superior's authority is just fucked especially when you don't have the credibality to question not even a high schooler...... i know a little bit bout how .. thinking can lead to some sort of revolution ... and those great thinker .... produces great stuff ...no doubt... they thought of good things for mankind ... they are by far respected and is a good example on how to live life... BUT ... if you are some lazy stuck up bastard .... thinking can be bad ... the only revolution you can kickstart is some shit that will only benefit you ... so .. know your place in an organization .... anc accept that .... your brain functions only so far .... it's really hard to admit we are selfish and self absorbed ... but the truth is .. we are ...we only think about ourself ... and that .... is typical ....

never underestimate how stupid people are ... they are more stupid then they seem ...

we have to know their worth ... have to know where we belong ... have got to have principal ....have a stand in something we believe.... and we have to stick by it .... it's always easy to assume that someone with a responsibilty and a higher education automatically has strong principal and a stand for things he/she believes .... BUT .... believe me ... guys and gals ... they don't ... in fact i don't ....
we all don't ...

those who has at least.... are not among my network of people....

that's why i some-how admire ... anti-socials who actually do good in life ..... to me .. it's a sign of being indipendent .... is a sign of how the world doesn't affect them in getting what they want ...

maybe that's why being anti-social is cool these days ... it's like saying "hey world ...you can't fuck me up .. i'm strong and indipendent" .... pretenders can admit ... but still manage to laugh at those people who has a hard time socializing let alone a relationship with an opposite sex ...

i'm no freud .... but ... i believe those who admit they are anti-social ... somehow do so as a cool way of justifying they are different from everybody else ... and they are something special and too good to mix with anyone else ... maybe you are better off reading a book and masturbate ....

it's a simple rockstar syndrom ... rockstars are too special to mingle with normal people and thus label themselves anti-social ... but they mingle with rockstars ... and laugh at insecure kids with low self-esteem and pimples that admire them ....

like most rockstars .... they crave attention .... just like everybody else who sits on top of a mountain with buddha drinking ice tea ....no one is special ... no matter how unique you might think you are ...

and the main substance in a typical malay is not laziness ...it's not tardiness ...it's selfishness ....

being selfsih leads to a lot of other bad things that make up a what you call .. a typical malay ....
i'm not generalizing la ...of course not all malay ...those who are not .. are not typical la...

tardiness ... for example .... what you call janji melayu ... this is because you are and don't respect people's time lah ...and that .. is selfish ...

laziness ....you don't do things because you are lazy ..you are comfortable with the way things are ... another example of being selfish ...

you can look at every bad habits . and it all leads to being selfish...








well .. i'm a malay so that goes for me too ...

erm .. i'm out of juice .. bye ...

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So yesterday i spend like 140 bucks for a ronaldinho futsal shoe la. its pretty la. at least i think its pretty. my mom and dad thought it was pretty too. maybe the next time i play futsal i can play like mr. ronaldinho himself la. don't get mix up eh... its just me la with the shoes. not ronaldinho actually.

Arsenal is playing hotspur today AT highbury so ... i think arsenal will win that one. And then they'll fly to spain for the CL match against villareal. and i think they''ll win that one too. ITs barca i'm worried about. i hope ronaldinho gets a red card or get injured so he won't play.

it's amazing how things untaggles itself and how everything just gets clearer and clearer each time you venture into the unknown. You have to venture into the unknown to know what's up within. the more you stay confined .. the less you explore about others and you!

Speaking of within... fighting yourself is the hardest battle to be won. figthing to wake up in the morning for work. fighting to keep that budget tight. fighting to keep yourself motivated. stop cursing. judging people. complain. discipline bla bla bla. the battles ...we win some .. and of course we lose some.

but winning the war ..... is a whole new thing ...

its just how much you wanted to win .... it is always a losing battle.

that is .. if you incorporate the saying .... "if you can't beat em .. join em" ...

spend time with yourself and win those losing battles. you'd feel better.

what colour's your world?

what get you off?


morpheus - "ignorance is bliss"

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I have fucked up before but somehow it'll end up going my way. I try to see it in a different perspective and believe that i'll laugh about it in days time. I try not to let the situation get the best of me or drag me down mentally. All i know is that, only being dead will stop you from trying. So other than that, its just some minor set back.

What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger ... or it'll hold you in a state of depression and eventually you'll commit suicide and die a horrible death.

One thing i learn during my fuck up is that never underestimate one's stupidity. People are more stupid then you give them credit for. Or maybe i'm just naive. Either way, an ass serve 2 purpose as long as stupid people is concerned. to shit and to think.

Little pony won their first game today against j3. Good game. Lotsa heart. Its all good. Competing is the only way to know how good you are. Taking part in competition is fun and yet revealling. It let that tiger out of you. i was fouled out and was really in the mood to hurt people.

For the sake of sportmanship i tame that tiger.

Arsenal versus villareal. the semis. It gives you chills. If you support arsenal lah. Those who don't dig never understands. And i'm sick of trying to make them understand. Same goes to things that i don't dig.

Its this whole mawi thing la. People who is mystified by mawi will always find some way to justify that mawi is a great singer. While the other half believes mawi is just some lucky dude who won the people's hearts. Don't ever try to convince a mawi follower that mawi can't sing. It'll never end.

I don't care. Mawi is something. but he isn't something i'd cry over.

constant probation

ARsenal vs juventus again and this time arsenal lead 2-0. A place in the semi-final is very likely.

In other news..the pony lost on their first game against cocoro. but this sunday i hope i wont hold anything back. yes. basketball is fun. but sometime when you do something fun and you see some younger fella doin the same fun thing ... you feel really old i tell ya. i see 19 yr ol drummer and damn i feel really ol. i see 20 year ol kid shooting nothing but nets and i'm like ... maybe it has begun ... that damn phase ... i hate phase .... adjusting ... i can't call my self old just because some 20 year old is better than me and few strands of grey hair...... that's using my age to justify my weakness. i suck beacuse i don't train .....not because i'm old .. there! ...but come sunday .... i'm gonna go back in time and forget about everything and be that kid ... shit ... i think that line is from a movie or something .....

i think the happy people is the people that can adjust well and fast .... like a cripple .. they don't bitch about not having a limb but instead ... they just move on with their life .... most of us including yours truly .... complain ... about this and that ... if we can adjust ... we'll be happy ....

quoting mr red from shawshank redemption " .... hope is a dangerous thing ... "
and hoping for something .... is dangerous .... we hope for good things to come our way ... but hope often fail us ....

the good thing i believe is faith .... faith goes along way ....

principal .. is also good to have ...

what form do you take? what shape are you in ... whose mould are you in?

hummm .... speaking of hopE ....maybe i'll save enough money to buy a drumset .... maybe i'll find time to play basketball .... and maybe i'll find a whole lot of time to go travelling ....

the balance between money and time ..... finding that balance sucks you dry i tell you ....

everything is in balance .... just like my motorcycle .... as long as it is in motion ... it will keep its balance .....once it stops .... i need some sorta support to make sure i wont land on my face ...

wise poetry shit again .... damn ....i feel like a wannabe monk ... eh ... yoda ...or some other wise fella ...

all i'm saying is ... life is suppose to be in motion ... if not .... you'll never get that balance ....

work on the other hand is .. fun ... in a challenging psychology socially retarded sorta way ... climbing my way up the pyramid ...

i should sleep now ... if i want to catch the juve vs arsenal match ....

the constant things in my life ....

our race don't like to race

The job is pretty great. Its like me repeating my industrial training except the pay is much much better.

But ... like i have expected its tiring. Oh well. If i do make the 3 months trial period i'm gonna create a saving account or some ASB shit or some sort for rainy or shiny days.

Maybe i'm still not used to post-work activities coz after work .... a few minutes on the couch would see me doze off. The arsenal-juve game is next week so .... i hope i can get the timing right for me to watch the game and at the same time avoid getting drowsy at work.

Sleep ... is again a luxury.

the work is allright except for some office politics. I hate that. everything is politics. there's also comments about that guy and this guy and the boss bla bla .... and its just hard being stuck listening to both side of the gang.

gotta find my football boots ... sony staffs.... like any other manufacturing company's staffs .... love to play football ... and .. i am so honoured to be invited for a friendly game ...

well ... all i know is... everything i do now must serve some sort of purpose. if i walk i should be going somewhere. if i do i must finish and get it right.

getting snub is also no fun ...

remember kids. anything worth doing should serve some purpose.

its hard out here for a pimp

i got an offer from sony, bangi and i'm quiet happy because its quite near to where i live so .... fuel consumption won't be that big of a deal. and i was at parit raja on friday last week to complete my masters form. and i kinda have this unique problem which i am happy to have.

what if kuittho decided to enroll me? should i quit if everything is going well at sony? and if i'm there... could i then pursue my Masters degree? i was thinking in applying for a course relating to engineering but MBA seems quite the popular choice.

i won't know until that day comes ... and by then i have to know exactly what i'm gonna do.

anyway ... i was at sony for a medical checkup. they have an in house clinic. no surprise there. being in the factory reminded me of the 6 months i had in denso. i thought it was hell but now i regretted not to gain as much experience as i can. everything was similar. the canteen .. the people ... the guard .. well almost ... sony's quite big compared to denso ...

my health turned out ok and i'll start on the 16th of march. i'm glad they don't have strict dresscodes ... they offered a 3 month contract and they will assess wheter i'm qualified for the posisition or not. if not .. they'll terminate my contract......if i'm qualified, i'll be hired.

same ol story ... i gotta do things that will ultimately shape the course of my life. no surprise... it will come with a price and lotsa sacrifice. but hey .. isn't that what work is all about?

my belly ...gotta poop .. ouch ...

ARSENAL.COM

arsenal progress to the next round of the champ league and they also manage to beat liverpool 2 -1 today. things are going okay for them. the champ league quarter final is out and arsenal is going to take on juventus. we will welcome patrick viera but i'm sure the fans wants to see viera leave with just a standing ovation after the game.

its good. the defence is starting to pick up. thierry henry is in top form. the midfield is clicking. they're hustling for the ball. its going fine. i think arsenal will get that 4th spot and maybe 3rd or 2nd .. who knows. chelsea is already the chamipon.

where the poltergeist play their video game

i like to see some changes in the education system. Why can't they spend all those taxpayers money on improving the education system? why does government buildings are air-conditioned while classrooms are still with crappy fans and facilities? what about the saying women and children first? if there was a fire u'd rescue women and children first won't you? and i see these children in their classes hot and tired. And the books ... damn ... how can they learn? no wonder they have to put the standard so low.

the teachers? is it about the money? or is it about educationg and getting the best out of these students. Exploring their potentials and leading them to where they're suppose to end up? where do they suppose to end up?

everything has standards. especially a system that is design to produce high quality goods. but the bar is set so low and even so ... we still can't exploit it.

where do the money go? i won't go into politics. i don't know anything about the govt and how they distribute the funding to each ministry. but to me ... when i was in school its crappy and it still is. and i don't think its suppose to be that crappy. the funding should be for education first and foremost. well its easy for me to say if we neglect the economy and shit. but i think malaysia is stabil enough to spend some on education. we can build tall building and fancy bridges. for sure we can install air-conditioning and improve the facilities.

all i'm saying is... changes like the books and the syllybus and the facilites matters .... to produce a learning environment that would suit kids. kids should go to school and have fun. they should anticipate about going to school. and air-conditioning in school isn't such a bad idea.

i say put the kids first. We don't needthings like fancy lightings at putrajaya or anything superficial to show how modern we are. all we need is a system that produce. All we need is for someone to take action. but i don't see that happening anytime soon. put yourself in the kids shoes. would you be interested to go to school if you are wearing nylon on a hot day listening to someone you don't care teaching about some stuff that you also don't care. I think its a teachers job to make sure the kids should care first. then provide the tools for them to succeed.

and as far as politics in education is concerned you politician can go to fucking hell because if you don't care don't pretend to. you fucking graduates who only cares about status and power can shove it up your ass cause the percentage of children in school excited about learning is small and those percentages of children are either forced by their parents to study or they're special. But you fucking polititcian wouldn't know. you're busy making stuff up for the press. busy at work trying to get promoted. you should be busy caring.

politics in malaysia is a circus. and they are dragging us to support them.

product of a fail education system

an open letter condemning universities / government policies on students and their approach on learning.

or

visit ricecooker for the article / letter.

I'm at parit raja right now and i'm relieved to have finished filling up the masters form and doing all that need doing. I'm going to Jb next and then back to serdang.

It's really nice to be back. It hasn't change that much. the poeple are still the same and parit raja rocks.

till then. godspeed you!

in identity we recognize

gradually, i will jog non-stop for 1 hour flat. the small achievements in life keeps people going. it keeps me going. If i don't set out to do something then there is no point living is there? but in this case, running too much will probably see me flat out dead. running gets me high a lil.

i saw once on oprah there are these teenagers who would suffocate themselves to the point of almost blacking out and they'll get some sort of natural high coz of the insufficient supply of oxygen to the brain. There are even how to's on the net that shows exactly how to do it. its pretty sad when you have to do something that suicidal to get high.

and sony called and they set up an interview with the iq test and shit. i'm no einstein. i think i have an average iq. i can't do math operations in my head that good. if there are lotsa numbers i'd have to take time counting them with the assist of my fingers. counting is hard. i hate remembering stuff. little stuff. i can't even remember people's phone numbers or birthdays. my short term memory isn't really a memory farm.

oh well. maybe the other interview won't be that harsh on me. the company just happened to be behind my house which is logistically good. the fuel prices has gone up and having a close workplace is a good way to save up money. if i get hired that is.

the surprise of the academy was crash winning the best motion picture. i thought it'd be brokeback mountain. ang lee was awarded the oscar for best director. good for him. his mom and dad was proud of him. taiwan, china and hong kong was proud of him. it's great seeing an asian winning an oscar especially for best director.

four brothers was a fun movie. andre benjamin aka andre 3000 is one hell of an actor i tell ya. now i gotta watch brokeback and crash and delete them so i can free up space for seinfeld season 6.

I am now trying to watch all the nominated movie for the oscar or is it emmy award. So far i manage to watch walk the line. I've downloaded crash and brokeback mountain. And there's also four brothers which seems really interesting.

Walk the line is an autobiographical movie about johny cash. I've seen many autobiography rock star movies like jimi hendrix, jerry lee lewis and that la bamba fella. Oh wait. That's only 3 movie. Anyway, they have one thing in common which is drugs. They have to get high. They have too. Its a rock star cliche.

joaquin phoenix and reese witherspoon really got into their role. Joaquin phoenix who was in the village was really convincing acting as a depressed singer trying to prove something to the world and people around him while reese's character june carter was a woman who went through a lot of divorces and u know .... likes to sing. The sondtrack is really good and the emotional roller coaster that the characters went through was also good. And it has a happy ending. They died due to natural causes after 35 years of happilly married and numerous achievments in their music careers. Not overdosed or plane crash or murder or something.

What's all the fuss with brokeback mountain? ITs a gay cowboy movie. I have to see this. it stars the dude in jarhead forgot his name...jake something and heath leadger. Gay cowboy. Who would've thought gay cowboy as a theme for a movie? The hollywood movie industry is now making movies which relate to certain issues in USA. And boy do they sell. Crash for example is about paranoid prejudice thinking that's in all of us. Some communication shit that we can't control. IT is said the movie provide real life issues but no real solution or moral to the story. That has got to be a deep movie.

Go download/ Thank you BitComet.

i'm a fucking sheep

4 Jobs :
1- KFC SLAVE
2- HOTEL SLAVE
3- DENSO SLAVE
4-

4 Movies that i like:
1- Before sunrise / before sunset
2- Jarhead
3- Shawshank Redemption
4- City of God

4 Places I've lived :
1- Sri Serdang Selangor
2- BBU Johor Bahru
3- Parit Raja Batuh Pahat
4- Columbia, Missouri

4 Favourite TV Series :
1- Curb your enthusiasm
2- Seinfeld
3- Desperate housewives
4- ESPN's sportcenter

4 Places I've Been On Vacation :
1- Niagara Falls
2- Pulau Perhentian
3- Pulau Tioman
4- The Grand Canyon

The 4 blogs I visit daily :
1- farah's if updated
2- nizam nuri's - for daily updates
3- min, arip, erin, nizam owh, poza everyone who updates theirs!
4- dunno

4 of my Favourite foods :
1- Nasik kerabu
2- Nasik beriyani
3- Char keaw tiaw
4- mamee

4 Places I'd rather be :
1- remote island
2- behind a drumset
3- on abasketball court
4- on a football field

4 albums i can't live w/o :
1- Norah jones - 1st album
2- weezer's
3- explosion in the sky
4- YMT

4 vehicles i owned/own :
1- BMX bike
2- Mountain bike
3- EX5
4- 125Z

please carry on these virus ok! You've been TAG!!!

cong-rats

congratulation to farah for her first job. allrighty then.

pangkah di muka dan triple x

ARSENAL is on the verge of a collapsing. What the fuck? Another defeat away from home meant that arsenal dropped to 6th. The rovers overtook arsenal and i am personally doubting arsenal capability to get any sileverware and a spot for the champ league. but i've been wrong so many times in my life so ... i hope this time i'm wrong.

The basketball league is starting next week. And i;ve heard rumors ....well ....its a confirmed rumors..... that a lot of good non-chinese players are playing. And ummm ... who gives a fuck... i'm just gonna play. I hate thinking too much about stuff. If i set out to do a thing ... i'd just do it.
it's gonna be fun.

today ... i've watched a collection of movies burned by nizam owh for arip. And there is this bakar api movie ... and it's like a cheap porno movie with good lines. I am really amazed by the actors coz some secene are believable. And the cast was believable. It's so provoking and i wonder if it is suitable for malaysians. I mean .. we're so sensitive about this sex drugs transsex things coz we thought it might hurt the community but the fact is .... the community is already hurt. The movie was meant to educate and i think it's a good channel to do so. hey who am i to tell what to do. Let's just put up banners and posters and shit and debate about it in the parliment. see if that would help stop the spreading of HIV and shit.

The free condoms and needles i think would really suit the hookers and addicts but .... i think the community really need to be educated about HIV and drugs and shit. I mean at school. These stuff should be in the curriculum or something. Maybe its already in the cocuriculum. I dunno.

how bout the flood huh? There was this scene on the news showing cars submerged in the water. that was saddening to watch. The flood was up to chest height. That is dangerous. It rained for only 3 hours and i never thought there would be flooding anywhere. I guess this is what they mean by flash flood. Hope they'll recover.

lord of war.... i dunno what its about but i downloaded it anyway. hope its good.

there are a lot of problems in this world. personally..... i have bigger problems then HIV and floods. my jump shot is really out of order and my 1 on 1 defense is really fucked up. oh yeah .. i am still unemployed.

ah shit. .

penyerapan budaya dan sikap

my back aches. yesterday i was rebounding the basketball and suddenly i pulled a back muscle. I think its the muscle. They say that if you sprained your back it almost always relate to the back bone. i think its the muscle supporting the back bone. If something happened to my back bone my body would surely collapsed and i would be in a terrible pain right now. an injury to the back bone is fucking serious i tell you. mine is just some minor thing. some fort minor injury. wtf?

but the pain has subsided a bit today so maybe i'm gonna shoot some basket today. maybe be a little less competetive and to stretch before playing.

anyway. it hurts and it sucks.

kegembiraan di hadapan TV

it was a great week for football fans around the world. The champ league resumes with 2 giants from england faces 2 giants from spain.

me as an arsenal fan was rooting for arsenal of course. And not many believed arsenal could win at the bernebeu. But win they did. So there!

real madrid was slumping anyway. i dunno wheter it was their tactics or their lack of self belief or they're just purely over confident that they could murder arsenal but they sure looks like sunderland in disguise.

the 2nd leg will be played at highbury so .. arsenal must prepare for a real madrid backlash.

the day after .... barca was playing chelsea. and its even better. del horny was sent off. barca felt the red was justified but chelsea think otherwise.

oh well. the 10 men chelsea just couldn't cope with the likes of deco, rondaldinho, etoo and especiall lionel messi who on his own dribbles and pass and just cause havoc in the chelsea defence. SO there!

i thought mourinho would humble a bit but ... u know ... he got his reasons for losing. he always does.

fun with dick and jane: see a dick run

i am into the 4th season of seinfeld. once you start you can't stop. and its no mystery co-producer larry david is a comedic maestro. he can make insignificant details and small issues in life.. funny and amusing. all comedians uses stuff from real life. that's how we relate with comedy. it's how we digest it. if not .. we wouldn't get the joke or the puch line. combine larry david and funny man jerry seinfeld .. you have the best sitcoms ever. another show i've mentioned before is curb your enthusiasm which is a larry david's show. he plays himself who in the show go around town and jsut doing what a person would do but in larry's case everything would turn into a disaster. funny.

and during the weekend farah came and we watched fun with dick and jane which i rate 3 outta 5. before that..we were at midvalley to meet up with our employed buddies that we haven't seen for months now. and we bowled. i'm no good at bowling coz bowling is a mental sport ... like snooker. u don';t have to be a super athelete and u know... have diets and do weights or sprints to bowl. u can be a fat chump and still bowl great. all you have to do is have this focus and train to get a strike. sounds easy. haha.. but in sport the hardest thing is getting psyched and focus.like sport...... focusing in life is also really .... really hard.

if i were to focus on my dreams i would've became something else. but that would mean me making a decision when i was still in primary school. and start focusing then. that's why parents made the decisions for us. coz when we were kids we make decisions based on nothing. i am suggesting parents to ask their children what they want to be when they grow up. And once they figured it out you would hand them the classifieds and show them the requirement needed for the job. and one more thing ... mention the salary of the job they wanted.

so if the kid wanted to become Gaban. you would go ... gaban doesn't exist and even if he did he wasn't paid kicking bad guys asses. if he wanted to be a doctor... then .. you'd say to be a doctor you need to be in a science class and score perfect A's and go into 5 years of university bla bla bla and you would get paid .. bla bla bla $$$$. and all the kid have to do is just follow his dream.

when i was a kid i wanted to be a doctor because i thought being a professional is a way of life and doctor didn't happen. i thought it would be so cool having your own medical tools and the robes u know... looking all smart and shit. and then i wanted to be a pilot coz i think flying and traveling is so cool but that's out of the picture. along the way ..... ...my focus is blurred a little bit. i was focusing on some stupid teenage stuff like porn and shits and suddenly being a doctor is out coz i suck at biology and pilot ? ... i only got my driving license aged 24 ... flying a plane ? and the sad part was .. i never even once hate myself for not getting what i want. hmmmm .. so i have to stick with what i have. and that's not much. if only i was to focus on one thing and put some effort into it.

but to be what you want you have to have a 100% pure intention in doing what you want because if not .. it won't work out. you have to be focused all the time. endure years of other things that might get in your way. but like arip always said ...that's adiabatic. pure is 100% and nothing is 100%.

now i'm just a bum with a 2nd lower degree with nothing to offer to those close to me let alone malaysia or the world. finally i know what and who i want to be .. but it's too late. soul searching shouldn't take this long. but i ain't giving up yet. i'll make the most out of what i have with and see how it goes. and maybe someday i'd get what matters most which is probably being happy with what i have and feel bliss like the day when i stood up in class and said i wanted to be a doctor.

still no update on the job interview. to be honest, i was hoping. i'm optimistic but if it didn't turn out for me then what am i suppose to do?

[those who don't care about basketball may ignore this paragraph]. the 55th all-star weekend was great tho. the sprite slam dunk contest was sooo cool. the NBA director wanted to cancel the slam dunk event coz the contest seems to lost its flair but this year its a contest again. the dunk was unbelievable. this dude from the 6ers did this dunk from behind the backboard with help from allen iverson. Allen iverson threw the ball to the backside of the glass and while in mid-air the dunker catches it and dunks the ball. it was basically a dunk from the backboard, the guy practically dodges his head so it wouldn't hit the underside of the glass. In fact, he did hit his eyebrows during his first attempt. In the end, the winner was nate from the knicks who jumps over spud web. the ironic thing was spud and nate was almost the same height (5ft 8 in something) and spud also won the dunk contest in 1986. the senior all-star game was allright. nothing that fancy it was ok. In my opinion...last year's game was better.

[those who don't wanna know about football, ignore] enough basketball.. champ league is taking place this week. Arsenal will be taking on real madrid while chelsea will be hosting barca. I bet it's a busy week for the bookies. anyway, me and arsenal fans around the world would hope arsenal would win. being optimistic i would say arsenal can win. being realistic however i would say a draw the very least. Real madrid has been impressive in their last few games. and their firepower up front is world class. Arsenal on the other hand have this patch-up defense with goal shy strikers and ageing midfielders. key players are injured especially the full back position.adebayor the arsenal new signing is cup tied and reyes has a small chance of playing. henry is moving. i don;t think arsenal can match his sporting ambitions. maybe not this season. but who knows...the new stadium might lure him into staying plus the new deal i hear is quite lucrative. between barca and chelsea ... i hope the best team wins. i respect both teams. they have good players and a good coach and i'm sure it will be tight. my prediction - ARsenal 1 - r. madrid 0 and chelsea 1- barca 1. I just think that chelsea's defence is shaky now and barca scores almost every game they've played.

valentino

Its the 14th of february and its that time of year again where people around the world celebrates valentine's day. It's a day to embrace love and the death of St. Valentine who is the saint of love, the hero that saved us from being cold and loveless and dead. The earth is not a dead cold place thanks to mr valentine.

Hahaha, even if its true (which i don't care) i don' t think we need valentine's day. I have had enough of love being commercialized. The world revolves around love. Its stronger than anything. bla bla bla. Its so bogus. We have love stories and bands playing love songs, love books, couples everywhere, flowers , heart shaped everything and etc ... so why do we need a day to remind us about love .... its pathetic and depressing.

You know what we need? We need valentine's day ...everyday ....because the world is filled with people who is full of hate, loveless and is war stricken with weirdos and pedhophiles parading around. Murderers and child abusers, butchers looking for girl's meat and rapist and they really need days where they can't take a break and say" today is a day to embrace love, we'll stop and continue later when i'm full of hate again"

Okay some may agree to disagree but it is just one day where couples send at least a SMS saying i love u bla bla happy valentine day .... But isn't that what you do everyday? except attaching the valentine's day sentence in the message?

And if you're single .. isn't love what you are looking for ? Isn';t everyday is a day full of love. Love is everywhere. Today you will celebrate valentine's day and a few days/months later you'd break up. Where is St. Valentine's now? How about if i make up a new event on the calendar? Hafdzuan's break up day? 15th of february? Where couples who really is sick of eachother can say everything that they loath and kept to themselves for so long. And break up? Owh that's genius. But if their love is strong enough they won't break up and eventually learn from each other's flaws and learn to accept their partners as who they are and not who they want them to be. Anyone can make up something up. Everyone can put something on their calendar like birthdays etc. but to be honest, i don;t give a fuck about some dead saint telling me when to embrace love.

And yesterday..i assume ... some religious organization were passing out these flyers containing infos on valentine's day and why should you not celebrate it. Some of the stuff that they put in are interesting facts but some are just crap. DOes hotels and condoms go on sale and have 50% discounts during valentines day? where do they got the idea that people will have sex on valentines day. Is it part of the celebration? you give flowers and candy and go out to dinner and have sex. what the? It was a good attempt and i really admire their ambition to help curb down pre-marraige sex but the approach .. boy ,... it's a joke ... literally a joke.

So go call your partner and give them flowers, chocolate and candy and tell them how you love them sincerely ..and do it not because some dead priest told you so ...

f r e e d o m

I was surfin and i stumbled upon a site called shoutwire.com or something. it's a forum site and the hot topic was the prhopet's cartoon. So as curious as a cat, i click on to see what's up.

And just as i thought there was this denmark dude sending out hate vibe through his posts. And like many ignorant person the posts were based solely on facts from CNN, Fox news and personal opinions. And I scrolled down and finally someone stood up for the muslims. And of course a clash of opinions almost always resulted in an argument.

So the posts were getting more intense with the word mullah and quran started popping out ... then ... the "f" word .. his mom sucking who's dads penis? and before i knowit... it turned into a schoolboy debate. Oh well .... so much for an intelectual debate.... but a bottom line has to be made. The final say. The last word. So they started dishing out facts and verses from the quran ... and facts from i dunno where ... history and shit ... and it became interesting ...if someone is going to win this debate they'll need proof and facts and that exactly what they did....ITs now the muslims versus the world...........

And there were a few views and facts from the qafir that would make a muslim like me choke without answer. And that alone scares me, and made me realize how lucky we muslims are living as the majority and not the minority. In other country people would come up to you and call u a terrorist for having a muslim name. Taunt at your religion and justify their action claiming its free speech. Make fun of your culture and your way of life. And it is hard to defend and stand your ground when your knowledge is limited. ARe you gonna stand and just take the punishment? Or are you gonna stand up and be counted? Stand by the principal... the backbone of your life ... the reason why you live... these days ... freedom fighters need more than just molotov cocktails, bombs, the spirit and AK-47 to gain freedom.

And believe me ..muslims isn't the one that needed liberation. CNN for example is biased in their report. And people feed off these reports and accept them as facts. This is really what's wrong here. The people who believe in CNN and some other biased form of media should open thier eyes and FREE their mind. These people need the liberation of the mind. That's what we should be fighting for. Its more psychology then we think.

The denmark guy exactly got that. He finally ran out of CNN facts and the muslim from egypt calmly and as cool as winter dish out facts and intelectual arguments that made people who debate as a way to vent out anger .....looks dumb.

But i can never see that happening when questions like "if islam is a peaceful religion then why is there bombings and terrorist acts everywhere?" keeps popping up.

It is mind boggling. Its conflicting. How can u associate peace with bombs and suicide. Islam don';t allow all of that. Terrorism are just cowardly ACTS of terror to provoke fear and force a solution. The consequences of these acts is far more devastating then what u see on tv. WTC 9-11. Yep its devastating. Yep its a statement from someone who is desperate for a solution. But what happen next? The muslims are potrayed as the villains by the media? Is there anyone to blame is them terrorists. They provided the chance and the media took that chance and they did quite well putting ideas into people heads about islam. And suddenly the world got this generalized idea about islam. Muslims are call uptight, sensitive etc.

The idea of terrorism should be kicked out before one even think about fighting for freedom. Terrorism is never an option. Freedom starts from the mind. Revolution starts from the mind. And the mind controls everything.

Yesterday I went outside
With my momma's mason jar
Caught a lovely Butterfly

When I woke up today
Looked in on my fairy pet
She had withered all away
No more sighing in her breast
I'm sorry for what I did
I did what my body told me to
I didn't mean to do you harm
Everytime I pin down what I think I want
It slips away - the ghost slips away

I smell you on my hand for days
I can't wash away your scent
If I'm a dog then you're a bitch

I guess you're as real as me
Maybe I can live with that
Maybe I need fantasies
A life of chasing butterfly

I'm sorry for what I did
I did what my body told me to
I didn't mean to do you harm
Everytime I pin down what I think I want
It slips away - the ghost slips away

I told you I would return
When the robin makes his nest
But I ain't never coming back
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

I remembered once ...i did pretty good singing while playing the song on the guitar a very long time ago. Its kinda cool playing an acoustic song but then alterit and improvised with drums and distortion. Sang my heart out. I love doing something till my heart is out.

Hope i can do that again someday and perhaps do it forever.

And weezer's is one band that i can never have enough of. but their new album blows. oh well. weeeweeezaaahhh!!!

yack yack yack ..what else?

yesterday ...before sunset was screened on astro. I love how the characters draws you into their conversation. Its almost like you are eavesdropping and listening to someone elses conversation. [hafdzuan is a bum]

And i am so into the whole reality thingy. Especially when it involves debates and ideas exchanging over small things to things that is vital in life. [nerdy self obssesed remark]

the plot? there is no plot. Its just a movie about how a day with someone could probably effect someone's life and how it made quite a significant impact on a person that is so appealing to me. [interpertation]

Both celine and jessie are having these difficulties regarding relationships after their one night together on some euro town (refer before sunrise). Jessie unfortunately gives up on the idea of love after celine totally stood him up. They promised to meet at Vienna exactly 6 months from that night and maybe hook up again but unfortunately celine's grandma death came at a bad time and she couldn't make it. [interpretation]

celine on the other hand couldn't top the ecstassy and the way she felt that night with any other guy she's been with. In a way ... she was hurt emotionally coz she couldn't have a guy make her feel like she felt on that night. [interpretation]

The movie questions day to day decisions that we make and how those decision could effect the life ahead of us. But one thing is for sure, love isn;t an option. You can;t choose to fall in love or choose who you would want to fall in love with. we don't even know what is the true concept of love. What's your definition of love. what does it mean? a guy loves a woman? is it sexual? guy + woman = sexual? is it JUST some sort of a psychology thing that we cannot control to makes us feel good to be wanted? How do you as a person justify you are in love? Is it the sacrifice? the whole notion of being together all the time. REspect? Can love stop divorces? Can it stop guys from scouting girls? Love seems adiabatic in songs and movies. It's always i love you and i would die for you. would ya? [way off the mark]

The matter is so subjective and celine ....together with jessie made it so clear that it is. It's just something you would one day question whether you are single or attached. [wild random guess]

Different people place varying degrees of importance on the kinds of love they receive. Love is essentially an abstract concept, easier to experience than to explain. [copy paste]

And also how they talked about dreams and shit. That is so true. Pursuing something doesn't mean you will always get it no matter how hard you try. Once you realize that, you will throw away the thought of pursuing dreams and just take the quiet comfortable certain life where there are no or little risks involve. But without dreams, doing something seems so "survival". Everything we do seems to serve as some sort of a way to maintain survival in this world. School, jobs bla bla ... that's all tools to survive if you ask me. Knowledge? Wisdom? Passion? In a system that i know ...these words are just words. These words should be principals in doing something. [opinion]

And the ending is just danggling for anyone to figure out. Coz life has a danggling ending i guess. That's just my interpretation. [opinion]

But, what i fear is almost certainly would happen, as i am part of the system. And no hero can fight it. [fact]

So lets go do our thing and survive. [opinion]

Get a job that pays mohd hafdzuan! Watching astro and blogging isn;t exactly a profitable job. [fact]

to hell with time

As of today, i can drive like an asshole legally. But the actual license is currently in process so i have to ...arghhh.... WAIT!

I arrived at where the test is taking place around 8.40 am and i head straight to the counter for registration. Then I have to endure 4 hours of waiting, holding my piss and anxiety to finally get called upon and go through the whole test .. again.

I couldn't believe i've waited for that long.

I hate waiting especially if you don't have something amusing or entertaining to make the wait worthwhile. I should've borrowed someone's NgageQD for the day. Anyway, they gave this number and all i did during the whole waiting period is listen for my number to be called upon and look at cute and sexy chicks. An hour passed..then another hour .. .the third hour i gave up waiting. But the chick surveying still goes on ...strong. :)

It was hot and annoying, i was hungry and needed to piss but i can't leave coz the risk of the JPJ dudes calling my number. So there i was waiting, looking at people getting picked and cursed at how lucky they are getting selected so early.

Adreneline was pumped throughout my veins as early as 9 am and everytime they call out a number my body would generate more of these hormones and by 11 am... I've wasted a gland full of adrenaline. I felt weak, hopeless and i hate myself for failing the test weeks before. How the hell can i do the test now feeling so shitty physically and mentally?

I was as energetic as a dead cold fish, hungry and it shows . I know i have this face when i'm hungry. I'd put on a grumpy face. Hunger + waiting + tests = bitch. But i can;t get grumpy in front of the JPJ officer and somehow i just said to myself just go on with it. WHatever happens happens. I'm here and let's get through this. And then... the JPJ dude talked to me...and asked me how i'd failed last time and i told him the lines on the road fucked me up and then suddenly he asked me to make a turn and said we don;t need to do this. We don;t have enough time. And i went through everything like a basketcase on speed. He told me to just go over the 30km/h limit... and i did that. And i forgot everything.. and i just let my Need for speed most wanted instinct kick in and then i'm done. It's over. i passed.

I was like ..how? i did worse then before. how the hell can a government officer became so friendly? Then summing it all together .. i made a rather interesting conclusion.

The wait was a blessing in disguise. One thing about people that i know for sure is that .. people hate to wait. WE hate being bored. ANd this also applies to the JPJ officers. They have to do the same thing over and over and over again and i know it's boring. And when they're hot and hungry they just wan't to get it overwith. .. . I guess him taking pity on me coz i failed and looked hopeless .......and, him being hot in that little car with an empty stomach gave him a reason that came from the gut to just let me pass. The kinda thing you would do when an elder seems in need of help and you instinctly just lend him a hand. It was chemistry. I got 18/20 and i know i don;t deserve it. But he wasn't concentrating on me. He was concentrating on getting his job done. And i was lucky he made that call.

So i got outta the car and with the test marks slip in my hand .... i observe the proof of this miracle that i have just experienced. But i forgot to thank God,...... so on the way back while reading the slip ... i hit my head on an Air cond unit and everyone who was waiting for their turn laughed ...and i was like ...smiling back at them as if i was an innocent nude boy on the beach.

Taking the driving test is a once in a lifetime experience but in my case .. it's a twice in a lifetime experience but i'm loving it ....