zzz

erm ... i'm waiting for the Arsenal everton game ...

i was planning on going home (Serdang) on the 30th, but then suddenly, my lecturer thought about having a test on that date or on the next day. so that would be friday or saturday which kinda suck because the my family's cameron trip is on the 30th. so there goes cameron ... if the test date is set.

and urm ...rumors about the scholarship money is circulating and its been ringing in my ears eversince. so i was thinking about buying stuff or maybe saving up so i can go somewhere like an island or ... i dunno.

so i've decided to halt the decision of having a driving license ... in this day and age it seems essential. maybe not to so many people. its just a piece of plastic with your face on it anyway. you don't need a license to drive. but you do need to know how to drive to drive. and of course a car. the very least.. your parents car.

there was this awful accident today. it was on the front page of the press. and on tv. a car rammed 2 or 3 policeman and some civillains and the all died. lately i've been thinking about terrible things happening. and farah did came up with a good point by saying that bad things occurs more to religious people. so i'm like thinking, could that be true.

we were thought to look at awful stuff happening to us as some kinda of sin redemption scheme, or as some obstacle god set up for us, and it would probably take us probably less than a minute to think about god if we really stick to that and maybe the whole bitching or complaining part won't be the only thing coming out of our mouths.

i sometime complained about this and that. but some have it worse than me. if i were taunted or mocked i know that there is a boy/gal out there who is taking a rather heavy beating then me. if i am broke i know that there's a dad out there trying to feed his family and if i'm hurt physically i know that some people are not even standing on their feet.

everyone want to be better. but in my case, i don't know if i'm a better person then i was like 2-3 years ago. sure i stopped smoking and i shake off all those money wasting habits that i have but am i a good person? i know i'm better than some people out there but it doesnt matter if you are not good to the ones that you need most and the ones that need you most.

is it always gonna be about cracking jokes? money? is my life gonna be just another routine where the only purpose is to go through tomorrow?

don't get me wrong ... i'm happy ... but for once, i just want to feel i dunno ... just satisfied with everything ... i want to feel filled with more than what i see or have. feel like i don't have anyone to please or to talk to. nothing to see or to desire. that sounds like bliss. maybe that'll come when u die. whoa ... i'm way over my head here.

life is so easy. so easy to get pass by if we stick to what we put our faith in.

that's it ... faith.

amped

i've completed watching the evangelion series. and now i get what qadir meant by what he said about the movie matrix using some of the ideas and philosophy of eva and incorporating it in the matrix trilogy. its not a total rip-off but there are some resemblences . still the matrix rank amongst the highest in my mega-blocbuster-must-see-movies list. i think the matrix is a breakthrough in science fiction films. it kinda set the standard on how a science fiction movie should be made.


speaking of trilogys, godfather is also one trilogy that is up there among the best. but the first godfather is probably the best. some would argue and probably would rank the 2nd one as the best. my pal said the only movie that has a sequel that is better than the first one would be godfather. i kinda agree. but i still love the first one. the third one is kinda slow but is allright. in the 3rd installment, the godfather himself is turning over a new leaf but somehow got pulled back in the mafia underworld. ironically many tried to kill him during his mobster glamourous rich days but he died as an old lonely man. sad.

so the eva movie is on my to-do list. and also the movie city of god. i';ll probably go back to serdang anytime next week and maybe i'll take my harddisk with me and copy some other stuff. say boring no more.

arsenal won 2-1 thanks to bergkamp last gasp winner. the truth is, i really ahve the feeling that FC thun would share a point with arsenal after v.persie sending off. but thanks to the old timer they manage to get away with the 3 point. whew.

now. to a more serious note.



i remembered a line in girl interupted where winona ryder said "crazy is you and me amplified". that's so true. i just see people amped up doing they're thing and to others it might seems like theyre outta their freaking mind. but they don't notice it. people say when you are angry you are in a state of madness. so if you amplify that feeling you could reach the extremes and robably kill. anyway. i just like the simplicity of the sentence.

if someone know where i could find curb your enthusiasm please tell me.

policeman sucks

yesterday sucks. i got a ticket for not having a road tax. i was like saying, "i live around here so gimme a break". and i also told mr police that i went for a haircut and the motorcycle was my dad's so he got the road tax. but mr police with his stuck up style just don't give a fuck. mr police then gave me the ticket and i said fuck you instead of thank you. and then he tried to shoot me but i got away. slick eh? but when i got home. the road tax is no longer in use since the renewal date was on 29th of august. so it's actually my fault. even with a road tax, it's expired and i would've probably gotten a ticket anyway. i'm just pissed because i could've taken another route home. since i'm through hating myself, i'm taking pleasure blaming it on mr police. fat-burger-eating-stuck up-mr-police.


the ticket was one thing, arsenal also lost. to middlesbrough. that was fucked up. Arsenal's credentials as genuine title challengers took a severe buffeting as they spluttered to a dismal 2-1 defeat at Middlesbrough.

Arsene Wenger's side were punished initially for poor finishing after dominating the first half and were then guilty of a lack of composure as Yakubu used his physical presence to telling effect.

i;m not the only one having a bad day.

have you seen the genie that converted to islam? that was cool. but i bet some would say it's a hoax or somekind. this genie, sort of possesed this chick that i think was getting married or something. and this ustaz kind of guy with white gloves did the conversion of the genie. but the ending is just hanging..like a question mark. i don't know if the genie left her body and went back to his underworld-spiritual-neighbourhood or if he is still in her. can't wait for the sequel. if there's any. the genie's name is idrus. it's scary and spooky. the voice is so creepy. the best short movie ever. i thought my day sucked.

i'm spooked.

nothin

i really got nothing to write. but the boredom is killing me.

desperate housewives is probably the best tv series i have ever watched in my life. you know it's good when you're hungry and need a shower but you won't budge from the monitor because you are hypnotized with their beautifully colourful character and amazingly crafted storyline. mind boggling.

when i finally got out of the house i kinda heard a woman voice in my head sort of like a monologue, just like on desperate housewives during the beginning of each episodes. now that is sick.

the best thing about being at home is the movie and sport channel.

england lost to northern ireland 1 goal to 0. and that really pleases me. meanwhile the french won against the republic of ireland by the same score line.

and today, i accidently watched a great movie called

Auberge espagnole, L' or the spanish apartment

here's the plot of the movie

As part of a job that he is promised, Xavier, an economics student in his twenties, signs on to a European exchange program in order to gain working knowledge of the Spanish language. Promising that they'll remain close, he says farewell to his loving girlfriend, then heads to Barcelona. Following his arrival, Xavier is soon thrust into a cultural melting pot when he moves into an apartment full of international students. An Italian, an English girl, a boy from Denmark, a young woman from Belgium, a German and a girl from Tarragona all join him in a series of adventures that serve as an initiation to life.

it's such a great movie. at first i was interested on the lives of students renting together since i'm renting too. the plot never stopped growing and i just got sucked into watching it. it got interesting minutes by minutes. it has great shots of barcelona with the alleys and the city. it's really cool. the movie was mostly spoken in spanish. thank god for the subtitle.

everytime i watch this kind of movie, that really blows my mind away by their unique characters ....you know, just talking and walking along great places, i just wished someone would make a movie about kl. we got streets, alleys. almost interesting people. between barcelona and kl. i think KL is better decorated with people, alleys, buildings. and it's just something about KL that you hate and love and the mixture of both make KL a very very weird city. weird in a good way.

this movie was almost as good as before sunset/sunrise.

hmmm .....

Komen Anti Mawi ..

Sebab Mawi yang tak sedap tu digilai ramai, Aidil
yang berbakat dah out.. Sebab Mawi yang diserap
masuk, habis kucar kacir satu musim AF. Anti MW

Pandangan Pertama

Dahulu Mawi:
Seorang qari yang pernah melunakkan bacaan al-
Quran. Antara petikan surah yang pernah
dibacadan dilalui sepanjang hidupnya:

"Katakanlah kepada orang laki-laki yang beriman;
hendaklah mereka menahan (merendahkan)
pandangannya dan memelihara kemaluannya;
yang demikian itu adalah lebih suci bagi mereka,
sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yang
mereka perbuat" (Surah An-Nur ayat 30).

Dan mengakhiri surah-surah yang dibaca sambil
duduk bersila penuh tertib dan adabnya.

Kini Mawi:
Qari yang sama memerdukan dan menyaringkan
nyanyian. Antara petikan lagu
dendangannya: "siapa bilang gadis Melayu tak
menawan, tak menarik hati tiada memikat. Aduhai,
lemah lembut gayanya."
(lagu penyanyi lama)

Dan mengakhiri lagunya sambil menari lantas
memandang tepat ke arah wanita yang berdiri di
sisinya.

Pandangan Kedua

Dahulu Mawi
Seorang bilal yang pernah melaung azan sambil
berdiri tegak. Antara terjemahannya membawa
erti "...menuju kejayaan"

Kini Mawi
Bilal yang sama menyanyi lagu tema rancangan
sambil menari rancak. Antara alunannya
berbunyi "...menuju puncak".

Pandangan Ketiga

Memetik kata Mawi " ....dia mesti bertudung..."

Dengan petikan itu maka;
1. Tudung Mawi diberi nama dan laku diniagakan
2. Seorang peserta bukan Islam memakai tudung
secara bergurau lantas mengejar Mawi
3. Seorang juri wanita Islam yang tidak bertudung
tidak semena-mena memakai tudung berbentuk
selendang di kepala seraya berkata "saya kalau
nak komen Mawi mesti pakai tudung."

Lantas disambut gelak hilai, sorakan, teriakan dan
jeritan penonton menyambung gurauan dan
perbuatan main-main ke atas tudung ini.

Main-main dengan hukum Allah.

Pandangan Keempat

Fanatik, penyokong dan penonton Islam Mawi
akan mempertahankan Mawi habis-habisan
apabila dimaki tetapi apabila Nabi dan agama
Islam sendiri dicaci, di mana kalian 'bersembunyi'
selama ini?

break

the midterm break.

after fucking up on both of my recent examination, i guess a break is mostly welcomed. the basketball court is not as nearly as exciting this time around. and haven't yet jammed. everything does change after you fucken work huh. played snooker today. haven't played since .....hmmm..i can't even remember.

trying my best to finish desperate housewives. farah is the person to thank .....for letting me copy the series from her hard-disk. i'm now on episode 8. and there's like 20 something more episodes to go.

downloaded soundgarden. and some other one-hit wonder songs from bands that is unknown to many this day and age.

One week after Hurricane Katrina devastated the region, miles-long lines of vehicles crawled into Jefferson Parish on Monday as residents were allowed to return to salvage what was left of their homes. New Orleans' mayor warned that 10,000 people may have died. President Bush began his second trip to the region since the storm hit, landing in Baton Rouge late in the morning to start another inspection tour and consultations with federal and local officials.


the bush administration is totally fucked up. how can a country as big and as developed as the US took 5 days to sort the mess out. simple. the answer is goerge bush. maybe i dunno the facts but... i don't think it's logical that the US took more than 5 days to arrive with help at new orleans. it is sad to see the post-hurricane casualties that could've been avoided if the govt just shut the hell up and provide them with the help/care they need instead of false promise through the media.

disaster after disaster. typhoon nabi struck japan. and a passenger jet kinda plough into a city killing 143. "The dead victims total 143, composed of 104 passengers and crew and 39 residents," Pardede said in a statement in the country's third biggest city.

reality bites ... hard ....

id310805

its our 48th independence day ... wow how about the fireworks huh? .... it's mesmerizing ...

all the independence history stuff is not so interesting.. ...

people rather go to concerts and watch mawi and the fireworks....

who the hell designed the malaysian flag anyway?

how do you celebrate the freedom of a nation?

the fireworks ..? concerts? ... ahhh..

malaysians just need excuses to have fun ...

we're so uptight about having fun ..

we're all just TOO serious.....

workin and sending kids to school ... and politics and economy and shit ....

unless there's an event we'll be working or just doin serious stuff...

WE NEED MORE CONCERTS!!!!! WE NEED FOO FIGHTERS!!!! WE NEED HOOBASTANK!!!!

i'm just pissed coz there's nothing good on tv ....

to arsenal fans out there... arsenal won their game against fulham during the midweek. 4-1. and the champions league draw is out. arsenal will face ajax, sparta prague and FC thun. i can't say this with confidence but...i think they'll at least make it to the last 8. the next lague game will be with liverpool. champions of europe. that would be a treat to watch.



during the week farah was nice enough to lend me house of wax. a horror movie that is dumb as fuck. but lotsa brainless violence activity. it's kinda nice watching violence brainless horror movie for once. (i'm too lazy too find the film's promo poster).


Have you ever felt like you are missing out on something? the feeling you feel when surrounded by those who are progressing with their life. and you ask yourself ..why am i still stuck here? why?

Well i can't help but feel pathetic when i'm asking all of these questions that shouldn't even been asked in the first place. no use regretting things that you know you could do better. you had your chances and you blew em. learn or burn. i always think that you deserve what you get. and when you don't deserve something it will balance up in the future.

come to think about it, it doesn't really matter when you finish your studies. well...financially...yes. it does matter.the important thing is just to finish the damn thing rite? but when i'm with all my pals hanging out and they're talking about their work (one even manage to get fired only after 1 month graduating from college)...., i was like whoa...how was it? so cool..bla bla bla.... i couldn't really share anything. i was left there feeling pathetic and to make everything better i lay down a few lame jokes to soothen the heart. i could only smile and laugh to hide the fact that i ... want to be with them. i want to be on the receiving end...receiving the scroll. taking pictures, graduating and shit. well i manage to take a photo with my pal's robe and and that stupid looking hat with the square top. what do you call it anyway? my time will come. but the loss time .. hmmmm...


my mom is here at kuittho. she's selling SPA forms and giving out infos on SPA and shit to the graduates for this year convocation. there was also a concert featuring D-va and indani or sumethin, (some band that was on muzik2 recently) today. i couldn't give a fuck. l-a-m-e. but it does makes me wanna drum. as i have predicted..the convo was so lame. boring. why can't they have like those carnival rides at UPM with that big ship that goes round and round... whoooo ...spinning.... or an animal exhibition. exhibiting kick ass animal genitals.

selamat hari merdeka yg ke------...48 eh? ...

fixing you

i was at serdang throughtout the weekend. At first i was reluctant to go back coz i got a test, but i couldn't let Farah drive alone with her car kept experiencing some weird problems. And today i just found out that my damn test was postponed to thursday.

oh yeah.. by the way.. happy belated birthday jasmine...

it feels like forever since the band jammed. and on friday jasmine played the drums. wow .... and on saturday her kid brother was on bass. like mr nizam said.... kids that age are more enthusiastic about stuff. just like me in my early days. hahaha ...i guess. but i think i still have it. we had fun. mathematic is always fun eh.

but now i got to hold the fast/math stuff a bit and try the new songs nizam burned for me. Mono is great. and furniture sounded like explosions in the sky with a singer. the new limp bizkit is like the bastard child of deftones and RATM. Coldplay is nice.




The serdang kids also went and did their own version of gol and gincu at the kajang futsal centre. Photo courtesy of Mr Nizam Nuri.
Note to the organiser : Next time when planning a 2 hour futsal game make sure there's more than 15 people and some oxygen tanks.

erin got some new hair-do done. he's like a walking mop. but it's cool though.

it's raining now and the bed is calling me. bye

monday monday monday

Kuittho will be having it's convo on the 27th - 28th i think. and malaysian's idol, DR. M will be there to present an award or something. so since the mid-year break starts on 29th of august, Kuittho is worried that most of the students would go back home to their mommy and daddy which means no one at the convo site. so since DR. M is coming and kuittho wanted to make sure that the convo looks happening and hip and full of people, they moved the date of the mid-year break a week after the convo. kuittho's convo is kinda dull. that's why the students rather go balik kampung then stay. maybe i'll go meet da man. the real pimp daddy.

the strap of my swatch irony is broken. i had it for almost 5 years now. i think.... when i have the money, i want to change the aluminium strap to the black leather strap.

my colorspalsh is away in a shoe box waiting to snap away colours and strips of lights coming through it lens. waiting for anyone to pose or be natural in front of it and splashing them with its coloured flash. it's been a while. and farah got some film that she didn't have the chance to use, so i'm gonna take advantage of that. feed the camera with film. please. i look retarded. as if i'm down with the down syndrome.


wow, this sonic youth shit is really mind boggling. especially the diamond sea (LP version). 25 minutes of pure noise, space, ambient, ayah pin whatever you want to call it.


losing yet again. again. and again. but we had fun.

At least arsenal won. 2- 0.

and i gotta start doing things earlier so i don't have to stay up late and do stuff i could've done 2 days before when i had the time.

i watched a malay movie

gol and gincu

http://www.golgincu.com/

i suggest you wait for the dvd or the pirate vcd version. or if you want to support the malay movie scene go ahead and watch it in theatres near you. it's nothing like those hollywood movies. but it;s different. the storyline is predictable and naive. characters are okay. the dialogue, i think... that's how suburban kl chicks talk. i'm sure as hell don;t know ayone who talks or act like that. there are a few 3R elements embeded in the movie. for instance, girl power, girl can do what men can do, and you know ... 3R stuff. I think its too gurly and sometimes annoying to the bones.

the plus is futsal playing chicks and it's different. it's almost real. wait. nope. i take that back. it's not real. girls who wear make up don't play futsal. i mean at least not here in malaysia. originality? no. i could sum it up as a typical date/teen movie and more or less a chick flick. but there is futsal playing chicks. wait ... i've said that already. ok ...girls in skirt. and girls wearing tight sport outfit. i'm dying here.

what bother me the most is... what's the deal with girls and futsal? can't you think of some other lame theme beside futsal playing chicks? how about chicks in a band or something like that?

the movie basically revolves around the sex issue. boys like sport. boys play sport. girls like boys. so why can't girls play sport? and girls wear make up. BAM! gol and gincu. so there's not much malay in it. sepet for example has that pasar malam scene. and the buildings are so malalysia. gng has a scene where an underage is smoking. and the smoker is a girl. wow. great. she smokes menthol. huhhuhuh.

i'll spoil it for you.

boy like sport > girlfriend is too gurly> boy fren break up with gurlfren and hook up with a sporty chick > gurl want boy back and decide to win his heart by playing futsal > girl suck at futsal > got help and starts training > assemble a team from group of misfits > chicks futsal tournamnet > join tournament and beat the sporty chick's team > boy want gurl back > nope, she falls for someone else.

that's basically it.

boys are selfish superficial bastards. the only good boys are sensitive and quite and adores his dream girl from far. that's a rapist profile. gimme a break.

2.33 out of 5 stars.

speaking of girls and sports, here in my very own college, chicks are playing basketball. malay chicks. wow! that is just so ..... great to see. i mean that's real life man. not a movie. arousing at times. (you pervert).

and tomorrow i'll be playing in a tournamnet. and hopefully i'm gonna kick ass. literally speaking.

defeat, SEx ,ayah pin and a little anti-AF sentiment

Yesterday saw another defeat in my attempt to win a competetive tournament. This time around it's a football tournament. I kinda also took part in a basketball tournamnet so i have to wait and see how that one goes.

Do they have t-shirt with a big "loser" sign written across the chest here in malaysia? and a
'defeat" sign on the back. I think it should be my uniform when i'm on the pitch.

SEriously, i've never won anything. have you? But i kinda gotten used to it. So when i fail at something it doesnt kill me. But i love competing. It's the rush. It's what's keeping me alive i guess.

I'm suppose to have stuffs to do but i'm too lazy to even start. can anyone suggest a cure for this laziness?


it's bad to hear abot the haze happening around KL. the haze is like a once-a-year thing. Every year there would be haze happening around KL. Some idiot burned down some forest somewhere sometime ago. right?



The girl's life is a great movie. It's about a porn star who loves what she does and suddenly found herself in limbo and wanted to turn over a new leaf. James wood is in it. he's usually the-tough-guy-bad-cop man but in this movie he plays an old man with parkinson's disease. There's also the guy who's in boston public. the teacher who is helping the cripple children swimming and shit. And also starring is kip purdue who was i think in a sylvester stallone movie where there was a F1 car racing on the street. what was that movie called?

good movie. it's sexual all the way. in a non-sexual way. its very ... arty..and poetic. who would've thought sex could be poetic and artistic. I don't expect this movie to make it on RTm TV2 or tv3 or any other channel in malaysia.

and i saw the making of amytiville horror. horror indeed. i think i want to go see that one. it's based on a true story. i don't know about that. i think the producer just twisted some facts to make the story more interesting and say it's based on a true story.

You know what would be a good based-on-a-true-story movie? A movie about ayah pin. god damn that would sell. whoever got the balls to make the movie would be rich. Ayah pin is just a movie waiting to happen. there's a lot of potential, moneywise, in an ayah pin movie. They could call it "Ayah Pin : who's your daddy now?" or "Father Pin : The untold Story". I don't know. But i think it could be a great hit.

to make sure it would be a success why not ask mawi to act in it. or anyone in AF for that matter. Hey why not? mawi in a movie? who wouldn't want to watch that? He got mawi's eyes. A littltle make up and BAM! no one could tell the difference.

so to all AF fans, pray that mawi can act as well as he sings. (he can,... can he?) because i can't see anyone better to play ayah pin.

bubye :)

p.s- congratulation to farah for her team's win in the girls volleyball tournament. If only i was girl i'd join ya.

6th august 2005

watched 2 really great movie today. one of em is as good as it gets. Finally! notice the 7 academy nomination from the promo poster? no wonder its such a powerful profounding movie. helen hunt is just adorable and she looks comfortable doing her role as a single mother raising a kid with some asthma sickness. greg kinnear was simon the fag / jack's neighbour and jack nicholson as this mentally schizo half sick dude.

at the start of the movie jack seems to shoot from his mouth and just pisses people around him due to his mental sickness. he didn't have nothing personal that really meant something to him beside his job. but he kinda outgrows that when he met greg kinnear and helen hunt. you gotta see it for yourselves. later in the movie he kinda gets personal and his sickness kinda dissolves.

what i like about this movie is the bitterness. we can be so bitter to the point that we look pathetic. beside that this movie proves that how ever bad a person is, there is always a little soft side in them. and like always, love prevails.

speaking of love, i also watched "cinta si penggali kubur" for the second time in my life today. and it never fail to make me want to weep like a girl. but since i was watching with my guy frens i didn't. but most of them did say that movie kinda makesthem weep a little. inside of course. Nasir bilal khan was the backbone of the telemovie. he was a gravedigger called dol who is sort of naive and as straight as a flagpole. and he got deceived by sheila rusly to marry her because she was carrying this bastard child. but then everything started to fall apart for dol. his mom died. the bastard baby died. and sheila left him coz she can;t stand the villagers and the kampung life. but later she seems like she couldnt live with herself and decided to get back to dol but to dol his wife is dead. and the story kinda hangs. and me and my buddies we;re like sitting there with our mind blown. this is a great movie.

the other malay telemovie that has this pussy effect on me is "sekeras kerikil". its about a relationship between a son and his stubborn dad. starring rosyam nor and jalil hamid. who would've thought jalil hamid the comedian could play a serious role.

so i can bet PGL couldn;t even come close to these movies. this remark was just to provoke reactions. i know many people thought highly of PGL. and i;ve never seen it before. so it';s not fair. hehehe...

my watched snapped. and i managed to fix it. and ummm... i finally got to listen to padi's menanti sebuah jawaban. suggested by mr. music maestro himslef nizam nuri. great track. don't know about the movie though. and my fren who gave me the padi's track was even nice enough to give me all this indon tracks. so i'm gonna start listening to it and hopefull i would dig it.

AF is finally over. the only reason i think its over is because the EPL season is starting. so astro won't have their beloved customer constantly switching between EPL games and AF. god damned the kid who won. MAwi is it? he is loaded with money! here comes another artist. watch out for mawi. and his cheesy wooooorld line. waht the fuck is that? that is one if not the only fucking cheesy / corny line i have ever heard. the restaurants with aastros are filled with students who wanted to watch the programme. can't blame em. my parents also digs AF.i think ayah pin would also love to be at one of the AF's concert and hang around with the contestants. but he's busy with his stuff in space or so i hear.

bubye then.

43300 Seri Serdang Selangor

i'm back at batu pahat. after spending the weekend back at serdang.

The annual convo was held at upm during the weekend. and i went to check it out. it was hip and happening. full of upm's chicks. the carnival rides was tempting but me and wafi were not tempted enough to ride em. but we did check out some animals that was on display.

i've been to the convo when i was a kid. and i remembered me cycling with other kids to the convo. and we would laugh at the animal's big scrotum. they still crack me up even when i think about it.

went to putrajaya and then to bangi and stayed home and watched arsenal... wow... eating... hmmm ...missed those already.

the main reason i went back home was not to look at animal's scrotum but was to take part in the MB cup. played 3 win 1 lost 2. not bad for a team which barely played together let alone train together. i missed the first game, so i don't know why we were hammered so much. the second game was probably the most weird competetive game i've ever took a part in.

there was some slight beef within our team. and to make matter worse me and some other players came late and that kinda pisses the other players that was already there..playing ....so ... we were trailing like 10 points. and then something happened that probably lead to our team winning, which was ... the other team getting too confident which led to some complacent playing. and our team kept on the pressure and they cracked . then we tied the game. at that time we know we are gonna win it. and we did. so it was kinda nice eventhough some people would like to see it as luck. i see it as the other team's in ability to control their ego's and not respecting the other team. that was just an opinion. i dunno if that was really the main reason why they lost. but hell. winning is winning. no time for losers.

speaking of losers, we lost our third game. they got 2 national players and they are well trained. go figure.

it was fun. that's all i can bring back to batu pahat. no medals, just fun. and i think its enough and i deserved that.

THIS IS FOR BEING ALIVE, TODAY

Today - Smashing Pumpkins

Today is the greatest Day I ’ve ever kown Can’t live for tomorrow Tomorrow’s much too long I burn my eyes out Before I get out I wanted more Than life could ever grant Bored by the chore Of saving face Today is the greatest Day I have ever known Can’t wait for tomorrow I might not have that long I’ll tear my heart out Before I get out Pink ribbon scars That never forget I’ve tried so hard To cleanse these regrets My angel wings Were bruised and restrained My belly stings Today is Today is Today is The greatest day That I have ever known I want to turn you on I want to turn you round I want to turn you on I want to turn you Today is the greatest Today is the greatest day Today is the greatest day That I have ever known

hmmm i need new songs

flu cold

i'm fighting this cold that i think i caught from farah. anyway.. i'm feeling a whole lot better..if i was the alien in the war of the world movie i would not be here typing this. i'd be dead.

anyway, farah has started her own blog. so i welcome that. and wafi also. blogging isn't like talking. u could say so much more in written sentences than u would in hours of conversations. things just pop up and you would write away. and if you hurt someone's feeling you don't have to look at their faces.

being sick kinda makes me think how we could die anytime. and dying kinda sucks. i mean if i die now. unless we're ready for the afterlife. damn it. this must be the combo of tru calling and me being sick that kinda made me want to write about death.

speaking of death, there was this rempit who almost died. farah almost hit him with her car. i wanted him to die. because he got away with probably him feeling so great that he managed to escape death while me and farah was trembling with fear. if she did ram this rempit and he died, it's not her fault. she did everything by the book. but the mess later and the time consumed with the police and insurance would be such a drag.

things you do when you are young. you're invincible as long as your'e alive. that's kinda true for this guy. i don't know if i ever did something so risky in my life. have you? for once put your life on a line. like parachuting from a plane, or bungee jumping? it looks fun. maybe someday.

how about the earthquakes huh? this year alone there are more than 10 cases already. i guess the world is going to an end. its almost judgement day.

anyway, i've made up my mind. i'm going back to serdang this friday. hopefully mom would prepare me some food.

Cobain's 'Last Days' inspire Van Sant movie

LOS ANGELES (Reuters) - Director Gus Van Sant's new film may be dedicated to and inspired by Kurt Cobain, but moviegoers hoping for a sensationalistic look at the suicide of the Nirvana rocker won't find it in "Last Days".

The film, which stars Michael Pitt ("The Dreamers") as a musician hiding out in his enormous stone house from his career, his family and his parasitic hangers-on, opened in New York and Los Angeles on Friday.

Contemplative rather than reportorial, "Last Days" eschews many of the conventions of mainstream narrative movies, although with "Good Will Hunting" to his credit, Van Sant is no stranger to more crowd-pleasing fare.

Like the director's previous two films, "Last Days" uses a real-life incident as a point of artistic departure. "Gerry" (2002) centered on two hikers stranded in the desert, and "Elephant," which won the top award at the Canes Film Festival.

Cannes Film Festival in 2003, followed a group of high school students in the days before a shooting rampage similar to the one at Columbine.

Like those movies, Van Sant's imagining of Cobain's final descent in 1994 is interested less in answers than in suggestion and observation.

"There isn't really one answer," the director said in a recent interview. "If there is, I tend to think that the answers become sort of like scapegoats. People want answers in the same way that they want the culprit. It doesn't matter if the guy or girl was really responsible for the crime, so long as you have somebody to hang by the tree."

But complicated questions like death, suicide and mass murder, he says, defy simple answers. "We show instances of what may be bothering our character in 'Last Days,' but we don't say, 'This is for sure the reason."'

Van Sant was drawn to the final chapter of Cobain's saga precisely because there is so little information about it.

What is known is that Cobain, battling heroin addiction, a chronic stomach ailment and creative insecurity, spent his last days in virtual solitude before retreating to the greenhouse of his Seattle home and putting a shotgun to his mouth. His body was not discovered for several days.

The film follows the Cobain-inspired character in long takes while he tries to protect his troubled solitude from a variety of colleagues, friends and strangers, including four stoned hangers-on living in his house. (Pitt contributes his own musical compositions; there are no Nirvana songs in the film).

For his ensemble, Van Sant uses both professional actors (Lukas Haas, Ricky Jay, Asia Argento) and first-timers like musician Kim Gordon of veteran indie rock band Sonic Youth.

Van Sant creates an atmosphere of seclusion and disconnection in the film, which was shot mostly in and around a 19th century castle in upstate New York.

"There is no story," Van Sant said with a laugh. "There's a direction, but there's no setup."

john mayer's daughters

this song just have the balance of love and life. i like balance.

i know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
She's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without warmth from 
A woman's good, good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world

So fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters, too

get well soon farah

dump

on wednesday i went to jb with dear farah and i bought myself a nike sandal. and farah was even nice enough to lend me money to buy this black basketball shoe but unfortunately they don't have my size. so i just end up goin' back to batu pahat with just a sandal. so i guess i'll be playing with my aspic "kick ass" shoes.

And farah is so sick today. sick of me.? hahaha... no actually. ..she came down with this sore throat and flu and stuff. and she's been sayin how she wanted to puke when she lays down and when she sits her head hurts... poor girl ... get well soon dear....

a friend asked me to play in his team in the upcoming kuittho sports carnival. that was flattering. but i don't know if i could play or not. since probably the carnival clashes with the MB cup. i wanna play both.

and mostly my classmates who recently just completed their 5 years course are workin already. they are getting paid 1600 - 2300RM. damn it . i could barely survive here let alone afford anything fancy. i guess now they can. i think most of them are thinking of the big stuff now. They're in the big league now. cars, house and even getting married comes to their mind. they're almost completing their transistion to being a full adult. well almost. so i'm like broke, and i don't even have a driving license and i have no savings. i'm thinking like what the fuck am i still doing? on the other hand, i could wake up late and have all this time to myself. the only problem with too much time is having too much time with so little money. so money kind of limits everything.

the transisition? i thought adolesence and puberty was hard enough. but there's lot more coming our way. we'll be mothers and fathers eventually. and we'll be raising our own. we are going to sacrifice a lot of our time and doing all the things we've been doing all along making sure everythings gonna be allright. there's no more "i". it'll be "we". now it's "i want this i want that". but later on it's gonna be "we need this, we need that". and we're gonna grow fat and bald. and our limbs will start to give and goin up the stairs would be like climbing mt everest. i'm going too far there.

i see my friends are more aware of their surroundings. they are starting to care about other people's feelings and are more sensitive. they are starting to step up when it counts. start acting out what they've planned instead of letting it just be another dream. there was once a time when money was for buying stuff but now money is for our parents and to be saved for more useful spending. i don't know if i'm like that. i tend to run away from things if i'm not sure i'm capable enough. i'd rather sit, watch and comment. it's so immature. it feels like you're inside a shell and whoever tries to get into your space will offend you. and you are so afraid of going out of the shell because you got used to it for so long that u're afraid you'll be a target out in the open.

it is mind boggling huh? i guess that how dreams die. the got replaced by another more mature dream. a dream of having a complete life. the basic foundation of life, money, family, asets and maybe a little time.

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PATRICK VIERA

these few days, fellow arsenal fans including yours truly, have been talking about the latest news on patrick viera leaving arsenal for juventus. He had an absolutely great season last season, but now that he's left there's a big gap in the central midfield area and we are all wondering who could fill that gap. So, good luck viera.

and i borrowed my frens PS2, the memory card don't work, so i can't play any games that would take me more than a day to finish coz i can't save the game. so that suck huh?.

watched Fantastic 4 with farah and it's fantastic. War of the world however is ok. The storyline suck though but the computer effect is always nice to watch. spielberg kinda lost it on this movie. maybe he's old.

its been raining here like almost everyday. so it's very cool and i can sleep forever in this condition.

i want to go back to serdang so i can shoot some hoops. damn it. my friend downloaded the 2005 all-star game and that made me want to play even more.

i got an assignment but i'm too lazy to even start. maybe i'll just copy.

zzzzzzz

monologue

i got no class on thursday and wednesday .... got only one class on friday .. so if i want to go back to serdang i could split on wednesday and ditch the friday class .... cool eh? .. and class on monday start at 5pm .. ..how cool is that?

but i'm short on money .. i need to sort out lotsa things ...moneywise.... balik kampung everyweek isn't a practical thing to do ....but hell.... i can use the time to do lots of useful stuff like pc gaming and sleeping...

so finally finished sepet ... the malay movie that i rank among the highest ... its almost realistic ... almost ... the story kinda fits .... that is as real as a malay movie could get ... the movie did pretty well potraying the malaysians .... but there was no indians actor/ress .. or maybe i missed it ... so that's kinda weird ......hummm .... the movie is allright .... i haven't watched PGL yet ... so i couldn't predict which movie could win the malaysian movie award thingy .... i wonder which movie deserves the award .... hurmm ... anyway ...now, i can say that malay movies doesn't suck all the time ...

and there's this new malaysia made reality tv show .... mencari cinta or something .... that's totally fucked up .... it lacks the 'it' factor ....it's so not orignial .....i prefer explorace.....hope the show goes well ... i doubt it ...

and umm ... the news is still hot on the london bombing .... they're looking for the bombers .. i mean the master bomber ..... the bombers are suicide freedom fighters ..... so maybe they were following orders or something from the'master bomber' since the bombing happened almost simultaneously....so they must've worked out a plan on timings and logistics and shit ....and the plan could've been ordered by the master bomber.....and the bombers just executed their orders....

and so... the islamic community at london gets it .... islam is against this violence nonsense ....but as long as these freedom bombers keep doin their thing .. they'll (americans/brits) never understand .... they'd keep blaming islams for whatever thing that gets blown up.... i remember the oklahoma bombing... the americans got really pissed coz there was a nursery in that building and many children died during the attack ... so that event got them all worked up ... so the government i guess need a scapegoat ... and the first thing they thought was .. it must be another radical islamic attack ... and the media ... boy were they helpful huh? .. CNN were ground breaking....they found out later it was one of their ex-army dude that did the bombing .... before the truth was revealed the islams are the usual suspect .... americans are paranoid .... and goergie is fucked up .... i mean .... where is the WMD ? .... and so how did he justify his attacks on iraq? ... he claimed he is freeing the iraqis from saddams evil grip .... and as you can see today ... saddam is no more ... but people keeps dying from suicide explosions and such.... free? .... unlikely ....

i feel sorry for those who lost their loved ones on the bombings .... the world is just fucked up .... i'm glad malaysia don't blow up too often ... i think we do have some cases of radical terrorist explosions rite?... or was that at indon ... gotta get the facts straight .... i dunno ... but the murders here are horrifying man .... damn .... killers are getting more creative .... i think malaysia are only years away from having gangs on the street who shoots at other gangs .....maybe not ..hopefully not..

on a final note .... i love malaysia ... i'm glad to be alive .... the world is fucked up and is filled with sickos ....but as long as they don't bother me .... its ok ...

i'm hungry....

semester finale

this is hopefully my last semester ... and after degree i hope i could continue on to get my master..

anyway ... erm ... gonna register tomorrow .... suppose to register on friday but can't .... so tomorrow i'll probably get up EARLY in the morning .... and register .. get the classes schedule bla bla ...

i want to buy new sandals

war of the worlds .... its ok .....the CG aliens and scenes ... but the storyline doesn't relly fit .... since the aliens dies easily in the end ... the aliens got sick and die ... thats the ending .... supposedly the aliens...have been planning this takeover for millions of years .. so how can they miss something like how their body couldn't cope with earth's environment and how they are not immune like us to microbes and shit ... they planned their attack pretty well .... the tripods came out of the ground and start zapping people to dusts .. and drink their blood .... yup .. everyone related to tom's family lives ... what the? .... what's the odd of that happening ...? i mean his kid ran to the bursting flames and lives ...he even managed to find his way back to boston ..... but its okay .... steven's work is always awesome .. the camera's angle and the sound and scenes .. its awesome ....dakota rules ...

playing jedi knights now ... i have a lightsaber now ...

bye bye

fsgj

watched desperate housewives yesterday ... its ok .. funny ... erm .. goin back thursday ... registration on friday .... gotta finish lara croft angel of darkness ASAP ...

erm .. gerrad was suppose to leave liperpool but decided not to leave .... what a weirdo ...

and my new lomo pics ermm ... there were only 15 pics that was developed ... god damn photo develepoing shop probably thought the other pics are messed up ... maybe when i have money i'll go to another shop and develop it ...

arrr ..... gotta pack ... but i'm too lazy to do anything .... arghh /... damn it ..i am drifting and getting use to being lazy .. then school gotta start and spoil all of it ... arghh
....bored

me ...think? .. how?

wow ... went to bangsar today ... wow i feel really hip ...and radhi khalid was there ... the bangla from spana jaya ... wow ... ok now... i feel stupid ...

i hope whatever kadir and the gang is up to ... the mega project that would cost billions of dollars ...would go well .... i think it will go well .... they are experts at what they do .... by the way ... kadir's new kicks, the L23 really kick serious ass .... it cost 4++ ... some of the material on it is KEvlar .... yes ... the thing you would definitely buy when playing counterstrike ... unless u can dodge bullets ...

my brother called today and he's settled in ... and friends are always eager to see the sensitive side to this really violent heart ... sorry .... guys ... if you want me to cry ..buy me the L23 kicks ... i'll definitely drain my eyes out for you ....

so school is coming pretty fast .... i'm enjoying every moment i have with my beloved astro and free internet ...and food ... playing all the basketball i can ... jamming ... erm ... that one got to wait ...

so hopefully i can ride thorugh this semester without me having to think that much ... about money and time and shits ... i just want to go to class and take all the tests and quizzes and pass the exam with at least an A .. hahaha ....

i hope bosol made up his mind on when he would go back to pt raja ...he said most probably wednesday night .... indiana jones temple of the doom blows .... i can't watch it any further ... its too dumb .... lara croft's ass interest me right now ... the game that is ...



watched american beauty .... everytime its on .. i can't help but to finish watching it ... its a great movie .... ... it shows that people can hide their sorrows and it will build up and blow up....can never be happy with what they have .... and people are cowards who only do things because they have to regardless of how they feel towards it just to please people around them .... freaks are no different than us .. the only difference between us and them is that we can hide our freaky attributes from showing but they can't .... and the sooner you realize you're normal and typical like every one else the sooner you'll grow up .... you don't need to justify you are different ... no one is really .... everyone is insecure .... and love ... is hard to resist ...

reality bites ? .. seen that movie ? ,,, cool huh .. ethan 'sizzling hot' hawke really nailed his character .... (i'm not gay ... he is hot .. and you know it) .... its also about life sort of ... i like it ...there's a lot of people who thinks they are "Mr. look at me I'm Buddha on the mountain top" where everything is so easy to laugh at from a safe distance ... i kinda quote ben stiller on that ...
sometime i feel like that .... sometime i think some people are not qualified to talk to me or i'm not qualified or good enough to talk to them .... don't you feel like that sometime? it sucks i know.... ....and you don't want to think or fell that way .... and when you start to talk ... it's really either you are pleasing them or the other way around .....

well enough life wisdom mummblegumbala crap choohababa shit. . fuck that .. i'm sleeping ...

big heart...comprende?

errrr .. brasil won .... of course they'll win .... did you bet your money on argentina?.... you fool ....
great game .. 5 goals .... 4 came from the brasilians .... yeah .... great huh .... germany took the 3rd placing ..

erm .. the NBA draft is today .... dunno anyone .... last year's draft i knew lebron james ... his face was on basketball magazines everywhere since he's a high profile high-schooler with mad skills ...but the cavs didn't even made it to the playoffs ... and nike's sponsoring this guy and calling him king and shit .... he's good but he's no jordan .. jordan won 7 titles ..man ... how can you compare that .. scored 60 plus point s in the playoffs ... allen iverson could only come close .... lebron? .. he can be the king .... but jordan will always rule his ass ...


damn .. alexander helb agrees to join arsenal .. he's an experienced player .... champion league experience that is .. and if only arsenal can sign the wonderboy robinho ... who played soccer like hes playing futsal at kajang ... damn kid ... he's the next pele .. or ronaldo .... only if he can avoid getting kicked in the feet or avoid career ending tackles .... that's the only way to stop him .. you can anticipate his next move .. but he's lightning fast ..... oh why do i even bother explaining ....

i rather watch these great atheletes than be like them...and try to at least play with a big heart like them .... its doing what they love to do .... and playing with a lot of passion.... that's hard .... who doesn't love watching musicians pouring their shits out playing .... isn't it great if you can only judge those kinda shit .. passion, heart and shit ....the things your senses are limited to.... if an artist looks like a mutated mule but sings gracefully like the break of dawn ... these sort of artists will never appear on TV or even radio .... its too bad huh? ... or even a skinny kid playing his heart out out to help his team win ... without even concerning the ooponents physique ... he would just be out there playing his big heart out ...or a dead beat band playing their song out loud without even the slightest try to impress anyone? .. hurmmm.....ain't it great watching these never-bee's try their best ...?



.... but these people ... they'll never be good enough .... but when they do something with heart .... they're good enough by my standard ..... i don't need people saying they don't got this and that ... and complaining how bad they're taking it ..... if you're good but you don't have heart you don't have anything .... i guess i don't see everything as a mission ... every journey doesn't always have a destination ... i could be doing the same thing i'm doing now but still i won't have any regrets ....
and i'll probably will do it until ... i lost the heart to do it...

so guys and gals out there ... if you think you're doing something you love but seems like you're losing it ... do not despair .... just remember why you're doing it in the first place ... is it really the competition ....? ... the glamour ... the feel of admiration from fellow friends .... is it just you're ego and you think you deserve more than the next person ... is it because you've been doing it for so long that you think it's about time you're rewarded with a little something ... or are you in it ... for the journey .. the feeling you get when you do it? .. the rush ... knowing the people you play with also share the same feeling you're feeling ....? .. satisfying the unit rather than yourselves .... whoa ... a whole lot of wisdom crap right there .... i'm only impressed with passionate realistic people i guess ... who always try and look at everything and enjoy every moment .... a dreamer ... a do-er and not a talker .... these people will always be cool no matter how you judge them .... they'll constantly impresses you ....



enough self pity and complaints ... go and find something you love to do .... and do it with a lot of heart .....

soldjer

i'm at home .. bored as usual ... tomorrow gonna play futsal and blow someone's penis out ....

its been a while since i hang around at maulana for like more than 3 hours .... i think they put drugs in the drinks so we would keep coming back and stay there for a long period of time ...

anyway .. sungai congkak was great .. eventhough i'm not a fan of 'sungai' i must say, sg congkak was kinda cool actually .... i didn't go nuts but some did .. and it was kinda funny .... erin kinda tied alin's limbs to a tree and put some charcoal on alin's face ....and fauxa was sweating like shit while walking to zon 7 and claimed he saw a figure or somekind .... and ...he also got scared when what he thought was a pacat .. (leech eh?) ... was actually a dead leave or something .... that cracks me up . ..... it was tiring man ....maybe its because of the lack of sleep .... probably ...

so its back to business today ... no business actually ... just watching some tv .... and trying out my new shoes at the court ... oh yeah .. i bought new shoes ...a pair of Aspic's.. i bought them at alamanda putrajaya on friday .. before i jammed that night and later went to sg congkak ... alamanda is nice .... its beautiful .. anyway .... my shoes .. i searched on yahoo for aspics website or something and they didn't have one ... damn .. the shoes cost only 16 bucks .... and it looks great ... on my feet lah at least ...

boring .. maybe tomorrow i'll head on to mines with arip or play adli's new XBoX ...damn dude ...

zzzz

san antonio won the NBA finals ... great game .... detroit just kept turning the ball over and rasheed has too many fouls and that limits his playing time ... so without rasheed wallace, detroit was forced to play with the guards which makes the team small in physique... and they just can't keep up with tim duncan, obi wan ginobili and tony parker ....


guess i won't be doin anything in the morning after this since the NBA finals is over ....

and umm .... i watched indiana jones raiders of the lost ark and indiana joens and the last crusade ... the last crusade is so cool .... i wanted to go ahead and just finish temple of doom but .. .. it was kinda slow ... and boring ... spielberg is a cinematic genius .... waiting for the war of the worlds .... the CG will be mind blowing for sure...

last nite ... went to erm .. mini gig in a studio ... it was great ... the bands are really good ... i really enjoyed it ... it was okay ...

erm ... tonight probably... going to sungai congkak to do some barbecueiing ....its not exactly camping ... i don't know ... probably going there after jamming .... whatever ...

how much does life weight?

yeah ... detroit won game 6 .. so there would be game 7 to determine the champs for this year NBA finals ....and i watched the game ... yeah to me ...

and after the game i slept again ....and when i wake up i ate in front of the idiot's box(as abby would say it).. there's this movie titled true colours about best pals stabbing each other in the back and the corrupt world of politics ....it stars john cusack ... he's gud lukin when he's young .. kinda hot .... what a gay thing to say .... after that off to basketball ... and maybe i'll be playing the MB cup ... maybe .... arip got me thinkin a while .....about the past under achievements ...and over expectations ... losing is bad ... but what's even worse is when u lose and you don't have fun losing ...

farah's off to sabah today ... ... she's gonna climb kinabalu ... take some snapshots ok ...and gud luck conquering the highest mountain in SEA ...

erm.. i had a chat with my fromer guitarist whom i played with back at parit raja ... now we 're kinda already splitted up .. he wanna start a band again ...that's kinda funny ... and weird

so today suck ...

now brasil vs japan ....

she said po-tay-toe.. he said potah-toe ... i said pota-"shut the hell up i don't care"-toe

i was absolutely non-productive today ....

didn't even do much at the bball court today ... god damn it .... no one care about playing anymore.... so i was there and a few other guys and we were just shooting around and chatting ...and i didn't even drop a sweat ....

at night .. even though it was kinda short noticed .....i jammed ... i knew about it around 9.40 when erin and min dropped by and told me about it .. .we were suppose to jam at 10... but its not like i have a fish tank to clean or i have to do anything ....

so we jammed .. and there's a new guy .. palying bass .... maybe to replace our current bassist which got to sort out some personal things ..... and ... he rock .. we rock ... and ... suddenly .. half way through.... i kinda broke jasmine's drumstick .. .. and i put on my "i' m so fucking sorry" face ... and she was kinda stunned ... i don't know how she felt .... haha... but its been a while since i've broken a drumstick .... i think its been ... like 4-5 months ... gotta get me my own pair of sticks .. or maybe i'll just use the genital drumstick ...

and i was told that xdi is curretnly on a high paying job ... he's like doin a 3 month probation thing and then probably the money will start to roll ...

oh .. damn it ... when will it be me .. doin work . and getting paid ... and buying stuff i wanted .... not just the stuff i actually need ..

arghh ... i wanted japan to lose .... against brazil ... hahah .... hopefully ... i want to get up early and watch game 6 of the NBA finals ..... arghh ... i must ... it could be the last game since spurs is leading the best of seven series by 3 game to 2 .....

damn ....i'm a fucking couch potato who only gets up to shoot hoops and jam ... so i'm a healthy couch potato ... cool ...

maybe the band will get goin again .... maybe not ... but i still would like to break some more sticks in the distant future ....

my mines

yesterday went to mines .. everyone left for sungai congkak ... min got some beef to sort out with erin ... we as men always make that stupid mistakes when it comes to timing our outing with frens and shit ... .. unless you got this really "perfect understanding partner" which i don't think exist ...then there wont be no beef between no one ... i shouldn't be writing this .... but i've been experiencing the same ol thing ... i think it's a world wide problem for men ....heh ...

anyway ,,, we went to mines ... and it was raining so we were stuck there ... with little money ...so that kinda suck ... and umm ... min treat us with those little chochotop shit ice cream that tastes a bit like graceland ...it was good. ..thanks min ....maybe next time we can have those mc flurry thingy.... and um .. nixam bought this really hip soda .... the can was transparent .. maybe i was not up to date like some of u hip people so i was like a jakun . .... just browsing and just looking at stuff that i couldn't possibbly afford in the near future ...

batman is out ... wanna watch that ... but i dont think its gonna be anything .... well i've been wrong about lotsa stuff ... i just have to wait and see ... speaking of batman ... me and nixam swithed on our retard mode and have our pics taken with batman ... actually it was just the promo board ... so when we switch back to normal mode we felt like retards .... maybe min will post the pic .. i dunno ....

missed game5 of the NBA finals . coz i over slept ... due to the confidertaions cup match which mexico won over brazil ..1 - 0 .... spurs won the nab game btw .. so i have to watch the last match .... hopefully ...

wafi came by and played with my cat's genitals with my drumstick... that was weird ... and scary as well .... so i guess i'll be borrowing min's drumsticks until i bought new ones ...

so this afternoon gonna shoot some hoops ... maybe i'll get my ass kicked ... but who the fuck cares .. it beats sitting at home and feeling bored as shit ...

maybe tonight i;ll go out ... cause arip asked me to pass this malaikat at jendela CD or something to nixam ... ... actually .. arip's at penang ... his dad brought the CD and gave it to me and that scares the shit out of my skull coz i was wondering what the fuck would his dad want with me ....
god damn it arip .. you should've at least call or sms in advance ... that was fucked up ...

peace ... of shit ...

cock hurtin' 101

argh ... it's so hot today ...

erm .. on thursday went to KL to meet up with farah ... erm .. that worked out great .... and we went and watched mr and mrs smith ... to tell you the truth .... i could fall asleep but everytime my eyelids are starting to shut there would be loud sounds of gunfire and explosions .. the jokes are cool and corny ... it was allright .. the story line was allright .... married assasins .. go figure!...

on friday ... detroit managed to close the gap to 2-2 for the NBA finals .. i know you don't care ..well fuck you this is my blog ... and erm ... farah came by and we ate at F1 .... they only have steaks there ... and some other foods cooked either grilled or greased ... the grease kinda registers itself in my throat and i could not consume even one more of those greased onion rings .... and farah also couldn't finish her meal... erm .. ..and afterwards i went for futsal ...

it was funny, exciting and even better than the premier league matches you watched on TV ... fauxa AKA jose antonio reyes was playing keeper when the ball struck his cock and he then moans like a girl and couldn't get up .... i was laughing my shit outloud ... but he was strong like boys soldier are ... and continued ... the day ended for him went he got muscle cramps ... and we took pictures of him before helping him out ... it wasn't the right thing to do .. but it was a funny thing to do .... anyway it's just cramps .. it's not like anything is broken.....

speaking of broken limbs .. erin ..the midfield maestro also played even with his cracked foot ... and my team were sympathetic to even try to shoot at the goal when he was the Gkeeper....
it was a great outing ....

maybe today .... jamming ? .. maybe ..... its booked right? ... erm ....

hmmm .... i hate it when the past catches up with you ...when you're doing fine now in the present... erm .. dealing with the past suck .... drug dealing also suck ... huh?

oh yaa .. visit http://dgtalwar.blogspot.com/ for more cock hurtin' action and comments .. when are they gonna put up the pictures? ...

peace ... of shit ...

rain

the first time it rained since i got back to serdang. bored to death. fuck fuck fuck. ...

some interesting facts that i've found out via the 'internet' or the'world wide web'.


Arsenal's Dutch forward Robin van Persie has been arrested in Rotterdam on suspicion of rape, a spokeswoman for the public prosecutor said on Tuesday. The 21-year-old Van Persie was arrested on Monday following an alleged incident over the weekend. He can be held for a maximum of three days without a formal charge.

i thought football mega super ultra stars could easily get chicks to sleep with. anyway it's just a suspicion and his lawyer said he wouldn't be surprised if van persie is released early.

the other interesting fact is that norah jones did a collaboration with the foo fighters. According to dave grohl "her song is on the 'mellow' disc and its got a really cool elvis costello vibe to it. her voice is beautiful and it fits the song really nice". gonna look out for foo fighters double CD.

today .. was kinda like a self discovery day ....... u know.. kinda like when u get into an argument and then u thought about what u did wrong and u want to fix it and be better... that kinda stuff...
and i think arguments sucks and sometimes u can avoid it... but sometime u would like to think its better to just confront the issue and shit... but ... the thing is ... arguments just suck....if its the little things u might as well talk about it instead off just blowing up and let it all come out...but if its an issue that really needs sorting out .... you cannot let your emotion run wild ... but i hate it when emotions cloud your judgement.... look at what happened to anakin...

i believe this week will be an interesting week for me .. and i will never stop believing....

before sunset, before sunrise

i think it's been almost a year since i last visited pulau perhentian. i went there around this time of the year. i think. oh wait. no it was last month. on ...may.. during last year champion league final where porto won. the sunset is awesome. the sunrise i missed. overslept.when i woke up... i went outside and all i see is the sun ..... already up. so that kinda suck. but qadir who managed to sleep at the beach with this anonymous mr. wong from singapore (i made that name up) did catch the sunrise. so did zaidi and arip.



anyway ... i prefer the sea than waterfalls. except when the water fall looks like those on tv where it is secluded with models taking their pics and stuff. and there's like a big area like a pond kinda where u can swim .. and there no rocks. no rocks. just a big tree where there's a rope the locals tied up so people can swing around like monkey and freefall to the water below. kinda cool huh... erm ... enough with my childish fantasy.

today i watched apollo 13. god damn it tom hanks. u almost made me cry. damn it tom.he's good. anyway. the speech where he talked about when he was in a banshee or something where he lost power and then he said something about coming home... damn.. that was a good speech.

and spurs won again. they lead the series 2-0. and while on the subject of basketball.. i played this afternoon and kathelene( not a real name) got himself into a fight (how can kathelene be a guy's name is a mind boggler). they were trash talkin' and fatigue sets in and we were trailing by a point. and we were collecting balls after balls from our own bucket. it was frustrating. but that's what sports is all about. mental rite. you lose it. then your the physical part of you just go wild. the problem when you play to compete. i mean sports is about competing.

musically i think. if it starts turning to a big competition... there's bound to be heart broken. ego's bruised. it's hard enough pleasing your self ..you gotta please eveybody else too. so when norah jones won those awards she's like surprised. because to her it's not about winning those trophies. she wasn't on the MTV's top 10 list or channel v's what the what-ever fuck show they have. but the grammy awarded her based on her music. that's why i love her so much and so does anyone out there still making music for the sake of music. if you can't please anyone at least please your self. mind you perverts.

i've been playing basketball and music for a long time.... and i just don' t go anywhere. i'm not like manu ginobili or tim duncan. i'm not even close to norah jones... but i love playing sports and music.. it's not about winning. not all the time. i like the fact that i can control myself. i can do something with the limits set. you know. it's like a big fucking challenge. every afternoon. evey time.

..the bottom line is..... i jsut want to jam la damn it. fuck. and i want to play basketball till i graw bald and fat. and i don't care if don't go anywhere cause here is where i want to be. except islands. fucking emotional all of a sudden.

ermm... this week i think i'd go out and catch a movie with you know who.... hopefully i don't fuck things up....

fender bender

hmmmm.. arip wasn't around and i'm almost always go around anywhere with arip. he's my ride since i got no ride here in serdang. thanks dude. jasmine actually saved my day. my mom and dad was watching AF and i needed to get out. everyone is a winner in AF. i think the only reason why most malays are more into AF then malaysian idol is because of the malay contestants in that show. they're not that good. and the jury are... not that convincing. its like theye're making their comments up. so why they put up with that show?...i think its bcoz the interaction between the student looks real. they sing and the crowd cheer them on. the family members and the emotions. and aznil cracking lame jokes. but the way i see it. its not a talent show. its a popularity contest. i remembered ...zahid of AF2...zahid is a big chunk of singing meat. and he can't dance. and his songs sucks. malaysian idol is also fake. i don't want to get started on malaysian idol. i just knew AF last for 2.5 hours. i thought the show lasted for an hour. crazy ah? no offence to those who would get an astro just to catch AF. its just.. its so fake. but i can't blame them. i watch the apprentice eventhough i think its fake. its maybe because they're more real in the sense of the working business world and they end up working for trump. now that's a reality show.

so since i'm not a fan of AF... we (nizam,erin,min) went to paul's place. there was kinda like a gig but the crowd was none to be seen. we were the crowd. and seeing these old timers strumming to their fenders and just jamming and solo-ing just makes me wanna jam too. now i'm back and hopefully our band can make something. anyway...we head off during mr. azmil performed cause nizam got some stuff to do in the morning where his design will be shown in the selamat pagi malaysia. so we went out and mr. azmil yunos or azmir or whoever went" where are you guys going?" don't run away.." hahaha.. that really got me laughing. cause we were sitting in front and when we went out, he was in the middle of playing a song. and we just walk past by him..in front of the stage.

hahaha....oh yeah... sorry nizam. i failed to get up cause i got caught up watching scent of a woman last night. and today i read about the zaleha ayam patah in the pancaindera section of the utusan. wow. the media said so much about this short film. gotta be something huh?

so finally i can go online again after the computer is formatted. i think the pc is fucked up due to the malicious spyware. so my 2 days of tomb raider is out the window. i was almost completing it. tonight i think i'll just stay home and watch the apprentice. i'm bored but at least i'm at home where the food is free and i can watch astro all day long but no AF!

over

it finally over, i'm done with the short semester.

was blog hopping today and seems like everyone is tying the knot. everyone except everyone is settling down. congratulations. hope they'll have lotsa kids and one of them kids would be the next ronaldinho so malaysia could actually enter the world cup.

finished my short semester. i cheated on the final exam because i'm too lazy to study, since the subject requires a lot of thinking and i just cant cope with it anymore. so i jot down little bits of whatever info with my size 6 font on a piece of paper. and there you go.. a 'toyol' is born. some call it their 'kawan'. my toyol helped a little. for the other question that my toyol can;t help me with, i used my poor brain. but some of my unfortunate classmates got caught with their toyol and that kinda suck.

so what?.. everyone cheated once or more in their life. maybe u didn;t stop when the red light turned red at your neighbourhood's traffic light or maybe u are just too lazy to put on your helmet when your pals asked you out for a drink. that's cheating the rules. but so what? as long as you're not caught ....its all good. just like the exams. why do i have to put up with hours of studying when i know for sure that bringing a toyol would work. its unethical and its wrong. i know. but everything is based on results. it's all good. isn't it weird when u think how a kid who studies 500 hours a day got an A and this other kid who brought a toyol got the same marks. its just so fucking mind boggling. what's more mind boggling is that the kid who brought the toyol could even get higher marks than everyone else. at the end of the day what counts isn't the 500 hours you put in or the efforts ...its the A that matter most. its just so fucking unfair. because CPA isn't based on effort. it's based on numbers. and the numbers relate to your carrying marks and your final exam marks. and those marks are valued NOT from your efforts but what you wrote on the answer sheet. what is actually written on the answer sheet (the answers lah) comes from your brain OR the toyol. so when you segregate it, cheating is just a way for you to get something. is it wrong. yes it's wrong. but when knowledge are valued solely on CPA's and A's and shit then you would be tempted to cheat.

the problem is, its wrong. you get caught. you're dead meat. you don't get caught. yeay!. whatever.
i think they gotta come up with a new evaluation scheme or something to evaluate the effort of the student. i think the effort a student is also worth the marks. i don;t know how. we just have to leave it at that for our beloved politicians to solve.

last night i met a bunch of she-males... is that the term they use or is it transsexual or something.?they're fucking scary. they got a calf the size of my waist. they could easily play rugby for the national team. damn. they are more male than female. they're scary, really.

finally my short sem is over. tomorrow i'm goin to jb to meet farah. gotta pack my shits. get some sleep.after that back to serdang. i'll be one again with the astro's remote control. oh yes. the NBA Finals. now that's the finals i want to be a part of.

a bullet always tell the truth

this week seems like forever,

i woke up late today, i set the alarm on my nokia to sound at 7.30 am. and the alarm failed me or maybe nokia's alarm just don't cut it anymore. i use to own an ericsson C3PO or R2D2 i forgot what model number was but it looked like a freaking frog the size of my palm. its the grey one. it has a flip. i always thought a handphone should have flips since mulder of the x-files got a flip phone. and i thought it was so cool. anyway, ... the alarm on that thing is so annoying. i would wake up instantly after the sound enters my ear drums and sends a signal to my brain which translates "wake up you fool, hear this sound and wake up!". i love that phone. but now the phone is ancient history. its broken now. and it lays peacefully in my drawer, silent.

i wanted to study because i got a test on thursday. but i just managed to cover a chapter before i went on and continue my quest for european glory. and today my team got promoted to division 1. and i bought nakata and sinji ono and some other players. fuck. there goes 3 hours of my study time. and later, i continued studying and then some other stuff came up and later i went for my routine afternoon football.

at night i picked up where i've left off. before that i had dinner and my pals and i chatted about football, my hair and about the government 5 working days. then this fren of mine brought a DVD called man on fire. i thought it was some dumb movie coz i've never heard of it. but the cover of the dvd has denzel's face on it. denzel washington that is. but how about my exam on thursday? fuck that. i went on and join few others of my pals to watch the movie. it was a cool movie. way cool. its about an assasin, a retired assasin working as a bodyguard. his job was to protect a lil kid named pita ramos played by dakota fanning which by the way is a female version of haley joel osment.ayway... she got kidnapped by a sindicate. the syndicate is an organized syndicate which has corrupts police and mexican killers and shit. just like GTA. then the syndicate asked for ransom money which his dad agreed to. but then somehow the deal got fucked and the kidnapper killed the kid.denzel thought the kid died so he went on and took revenge on the ones who did it. the girl wasn't dead yet. so when denzel got the boss's family by the barrel of his shotgun , he negotiated to trade the life of the brother of the boss and his life for the lil girls life. and later she was back in her mother's arm again. denzel died in the end coz he was shot earlier during his attempt to kill the bosses family. quote of the movie "may god be with your child".

after the movie i went out and had a late night supper. after the meal i just have to study since i've wasted today on things i could do later. then i felt like i'm heavily sedated and so fucking drowsy. so i went on and started typing this post while listening to john mayer's daughters repeatedly. the song is so freaking soothing. so mothers be good to your daughter.

guess i better stop typing and start reading and start repeating daughters again.