nothin

i really got nothing to write. but the boredom is killing me.

desperate housewives is probably the best tv series i have ever watched in my life. you know it's good when you're hungry and need a shower but you won't budge from the monitor because you are hypnotized with their beautifully colourful character and amazingly crafted storyline. mind boggling.

when i finally got out of the house i kinda heard a woman voice in my head sort of like a monologue, just like on desperate housewives during the beginning of each episodes. now that is sick.

the best thing about being at home is the movie and sport channel.

england lost to northern ireland 1 goal to 0. and that really pleases me. meanwhile the french won against the republic of ireland by the same score line.

and today, i accidently watched a great movie called

Auberge espagnole, L' or the spanish apartment

here's the plot of the movie

As part of a job that he is promised, Xavier, an economics student in his twenties, signs on to a European exchange program in order to gain working knowledge of the Spanish language. Promising that they'll remain close, he says farewell to his loving girlfriend, then heads to Barcelona. Following his arrival, Xavier is soon thrust into a cultural melting pot when he moves into an apartment full of international students. An Italian, an English girl, a boy from Denmark, a young woman from Belgium, a German and a girl from Tarragona all join him in a series of adventures that serve as an initiation to life.

it's such a great movie. at first i was interested on the lives of students renting together since i'm renting too. the plot never stopped growing and i just got sucked into watching it. it got interesting minutes by minutes. it has great shots of barcelona with the alleys and the city. it's really cool. the movie was mostly spoken in spanish. thank god for the subtitle.

everytime i watch this kind of movie, that really blows my mind away by their unique characters ....you know, just talking and walking along great places, i just wished someone would make a movie about kl. we got streets, alleys. almost interesting people. between barcelona and kl. i think KL is better decorated with people, alleys, buildings. and it's just something about KL that you hate and love and the mixture of both make KL a very very weird city. weird in a good way.

this movie was almost as good as before sunset/sunrise.

hmmm .....

Komen Anti Mawi ..

Sebab Mawi yang tak sedap tu digilai ramai, Aidil
yang berbakat dah out.. Sebab Mawi yang diserap
masuk, habis kucar kacir satu musim AF. Anti MW

Pandangan Pertama

Dahulu Mawi:
Seorang qari yang pernah melunakkan bacaan al-
Quran. Antara petikan surah yang pernah
dibacadan dilalui sepanjang hidupnya:

"Katakanlah kepada orang laki-laki yang beriman;
hendaklah mereka menahan (merendahkan)
pandangannya dan memelihara kemaluannya;
yang demikian itu adalah lebih suci bagi mereka,
sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yang
mereka perbuat" (Surah An-Nur ayat 30).

Dan mengakhiri surah-surah yang dibaca sambil
duduk bersila penuh tertib dan adabnya.

Kini Mawi:
Qari yang sama memerdukan dan menyaringkan
nyanyian. Antara petikan lagu
dendangannya: "siapa bilang gadis Melayu tak
menawan, tak menarik hati tiada memikat. Aduhai,
lemah lembut gayanya."
(lagu penyanyi lama)

Dan mengakhiri lagunya sambil menari lantas
memandang tepat ke arah wanita yang berdiri di
sisinya.

Pandangan Kedua

Dahulu Mawi
Seorang bilal yang pernah melaung azan sambil
berdiri tegak. Antara terjemahannya membawa
erti "...menuju kejayaan"

Kini Mawi
Bilal yang sama menyanyi lagu tema rancangan
sambil menari rancak. Antara alunannya
berbunyi "...menuju puncak".

Pandangan Ketiga

Memetik kata Mawi " ....dia mesti bertudung..."

Dengan petikan itu maka;
1. Tudung Mawi diberi nama dan laku diniagakan
2. Seorang peserta bukan Islam memakai tudung
secara bergurau lantas mengejar Mawi
3. Seorang juri wanita Islam yang tidak bertudung
tidak semena-mena memakai tudung berbentuk
selendang di kepala seraya berkata "saya kalau
nak komen Mawi mesti pakai tudung."

Lantas disambut gelak hilai, sorakan, teriakan dan
jeritan penonton menyambung gurauan dan
perbuatan main-main ke atas tudung ini.

Main-main dengan hukum Allah.

Pandangan Keempat

Fanatik, penyokong dan penonton Islam Mawi
akan mempertahankan Mawi habis-habisan
apabila dimaki tetapi apabila Nabi dan agama
Islam sendiri dicaci, di mana kalian 'bersembunyi'
selama ini?

break

the midterm break.

after fucking up on both of my recent examination, i guess a break is mostly welcomed. the basketball court is not as nearly as exciting this time around. and haven't yet jammed. everything does change after you fucken work huh. played snooker today. haven't played since .....hmmm..i can't even remember.

trying my best to finish desperate housewives. farah is the person to thank .....for letting me copy the series from her hard-disk. i'm now on episode 8. and there's like 20 something more episodes to go.

downloaded soundgarden. and some other one-hit wonder songs from bands that is unknown to many this day and age.

One week after Hurricane Katrina devastated the region, miles-long lines of vehicles crawled into Jefferson Parish on Monday as residents were allowed to return to salvage what was left of their homes. New Orleans' mayor warned that 10,000 people may have died. President Bush began his second trip to the region since the storm hit, landing in Baton Rouge late in the morning to start another inspection tour and consultations with federal and local officials.


the bush administration is totally fucked up. how can a country as big and as developed as the US took 5 days to sort the mess out. simple. the answer is goerge bush. maybe i dunno the facts but... i don't think it's logical that the US took more than 5 days to arrive with help at new orleans. it is sad to see the post-hurricane casualties that could've been avoided if the govt just shut the hell up and provide them with the help/care they need instead of false promise through the media.

disaster after disaster. typhoon nabi struck japan. and a passenger jet kinda plough into a city killing 143. "The dead victims total 143, composed of 104 passengers and crew and 39 residents," Pardede said in a statement in the country's third biggest city.

reality bites ... hard ....

id310805

its our 48th independence day ... wow how about the fireworks huh? .... it's mesmerizing ...

all the independence history stuff is not so interesting.. ...

people rather go to concerts and watch mawi and the fireworks....

who the hell designed the malaysian flag anyway?

how do you celebrate the freedom of a nation?

the fireworks ..? concerts? ... ahhh..

malaysians just need excuses to have fun ...

we're so uptight about having fun ..

we're all just TOO serious.....

workin and sending kids to school ... and politics and economy and shit ....

unless there's an event we'll be working or just doin serious stuff...

WE NEED MORE CONCERTS!!!!! WE NEED FOO FIGHTERS!!!! WE NEED HOOBASTANK!!!!

i'm just pissed coz there's nothing good on tv ....

to arsenal fans out there... arsenal won their game against fulham during the midweek. 4-1. and the champions league draw is out. arsenal will face ajax, sparta prague and FC thun. i can't say this with confidence but...i think they'll at least make it to the last 8. the next lague game will be with liverpool. champions of europe. that would be a treat to watch.



during the week farah was nice enough to lend me house of wax. a horror movie that is dumb as fuck. but lotsa brainless violence activity. it's kinda nice watching violence brainless horror movie for once. (i'm too lazy too find the film's promo poster).


Have you ever felt like you are missing out on something? the feeling you feel when surrounded by those who are progressing with their life. and you ask yourself ..why am i still stuck here? why?

Well i can't help but feel pathetic when i'm asking all of these questions that shouldn't even been asked in the first place. no use regretting things that you know you could do better. you had your chances and you blew em. learn or burn. i always think that you deserve what you get. and when you don't deserve something it will balance up in the future.

come to think about it, it doesn't really matter when you finish your studies. well...financially...yes. it does matter.the important thing is just to finish the damn thing rite? but when i'm with all my pals hanging out and they're talking about their work (one even manage to get fired only after 1 month graduating from college)...., i was like whoa...how was it? so cool..bla bla bla.... i couldn't really share anything. i was left there feeling pathetic and to make everything better i lay down a few lame jokes to soothen the heart. i could only smile and laugh to hide the fact that i ... want to be with them. i want to be on the receiving end...receiving the scroll. taking pictures, graduating and shit. well i manage to take a photo with my pal's robe and and that stupid looking hat with the square top. what do you call it anyway? my time will come. but the loss time .. hmmmm...


my mom is here at kuittho. she's selling SPA forms and giving out infos on SPA and shit to the graduates for this year convocation. there was also a concert featuring D-va and indani or sumethin, (some band that was on muzik2 recently) today. i couldn't give a fuck. l-a-m-e. but it does makes me wanna drum. as i have predicted..the convo was so lame. boring. why can't they have like those carnival rides at UPM with that big ship that goes round and round... whoooo ...spinning.... or an animal exhibition. exhibiting kick ass animal genitals.

selamat hari merdeka yg ke------...48 eh? ...

fixing you

i was at serdang throughtout the weekend. At first i was reluctant to go back coz i got a test, but i couldn't let Farah drive alone with her car kept experiencing some weird problems. And today i just found out that my damn test was postponed to thursday.

oh yeah.. by the way.. happy belated birthday jasmine...

it feels like forever since the band jammed. and on friday jasmine played the drums. wow .... and on saturday her kid brother was on bass. like mr nizam said.... kids that age are more enthusiastic about stuff. just like me in my early days. hahaha ...i guess. but i think i still have it. we had fun. mathematic is always fun eh.

but now i got to hold the fast/math stuff a bit and try the new songs nizam burned for me. Mono is great. and furniture sounded like explosions in the sky with a singer. the new limp bizkit is like the bastard child of deftones and RATM. Coldplay is nice.




The serdang kids also went and did their own version of gol and gincu at the kajang futsal centre. Photo courtesy of Mr Nizam Nuri.
Note to the organiser : Next time when planning a 2 hour futsal game make sure there's more than 15 people and some oxygen tanks.

erin got some new hair-do done. he's like a walking mop. but it's cool though.

it's raining now and the bed is calling me. bye

monday monday monday

Kuittho will be having it's convo on the 27th - 28th i think. and malaysian's idol, DR. M will be there to present an award or something. so since the mid-year break starts on 29th of august, Kuittho is worried that most of the students would go back home to their mommy and daddy which means no one at the convo site. so since DR. M is coming and kuittho wanted to make sure that the convo looks happening and hip and full of people, they moved the date of the mid-year break a week after the convo. kuittho's convo is kinda dull. that's why the students rather go balik kampung then stay. maybe i'll go meet da man. the real pimp daddy.

the strap of my swatch irony is broken. i had it for almost 5 years now. i think.... when i have the money, i want to change the aluminium strap to the black leather strap.

my colorspalsh is away in a shoe box waiting to snap away colours and strips of lights coming through it lens. waiting for anyone to pose or be natural in front of it and splashing them with its coloured flash. it's been a while. and farah got some film that she didn't have the chance to use, so i'm gonna take advantage of that. feed the camera with film. please. i look retarded. as if i'm down with the down syndrome.


wow, this sonic youth shit is really mind boggling. especially the diamond sea (LP version). 25 minutes of pure noise, space, ambient, ayah pin whatever you want to call it.


losing yet again. again. and again. but we had fun.

At least arsenal won. 2- 0.

and i gotta start doing things earlier so i don't have to stay up late and do stuff i could've done 2 days before when i had the time.

i watched a malay movie

gol and gincu

http://www.golgincu.com/

i suggest you wait for the dvd or the pirate vcd version. or if you want to support the malay movie scene go ahead and watch it in theatres near you. it's nothing like those hollywood movies. but it;s different. the storyline is predictable and naive. characters are okay. the dialogue, i think... that's how suburban kl chicks talk. i'm sure as hell don;t know ayone who talks or act like that. there are a few 3R elements embeded in the movie. for instance, girl power, girl can do what men can do, and you know ... 3R stuff. I think its too gurly and sometimes annoying to the bones.

the plus is futsal playing chicks and it's different. it's almost real. wait. nope. i take that back. it's not real. girls who wear make up don't play futsal. i mean at least not here in malaysia. originality? no. i could sum it up as a typical date/teen movie and more or less a chick flick. but there is futsal playing chicks. wait ... i've said that already. ok ...girls in skirt. and girls wearing tight sport outfit. i'm dying here.

what bother me the most is... what's the deal with girls and futsal? can't you think of some other lame theme beside futsal playing chicks? how about chicks in a band or something like that?

the movie basically revolves around the sex issue. boys like sport. boys play sport. girls like boys. so why can't girls play sport? and girls wear make up. BAM! gol and gincu. so there's not much malay in it. sepet for example has that pasar malam scene. and the buildings are so malalysia. gng has a scene where an underage is smoking. and the smoker is a girl. wow. great. she smokes menthol. huhhuhuh.

i'll spoil it for you.

boy like sport > girlfriend is too gurly> boy fren break up with gurlfren and hook up with a sporty chick > gurl want boy back and decide to win his heart by playing futsal > girl suck at futsal > got help and starts training > assemble a team from group of misfits > chicks futsal tournamnet > join tournament and beat the sporty chick's team > boy want gurl back > nope, she falls for someone else.

that's basically it.

boys are selfish superficial bastards. the only good boys are sensitive and quite and adores his dream girl from far. that's a rapist profile. gimme a break.

2.33 out of 5 stars.

speaking of girls and sports, here in my very own college, chicks are playing basketball. malay chicks. wow! that is just so ..... great to see. i mean that's real life man. not a movie. arousing at times. (you pervert).

and tomorrow i'll be playing in a tournamnet. and hopefully i'm gonna kick ass. literally speaking.

defeat, SEx ,ayah pin and a little anti-AF sentiment

Yesterday saw another defeat in my attempt to win a competetive tournament. This time around it's a football tournament. I kinda also took part in a basketball tournamnet so i have to wait and see how that one goes.

Do they have t-shirt with a big "loser" sign written across the chest here in malaysia? and a
'defeat" sign on the back. I think it should be my uniform when i'm on the pitch.

SEriously, i've never won anything. have you? But i kinda gotten used to it. So when i fail at something it doesnt kill me. But i love competing. It's the rush. It's what's keeping me alive i guess.

I'm suppose to have stuffs to do but i'm too lazy to even start. can anyone suggest a cure for this laziness?


it's bad to hear abot the haze happening around KL. the haze is like a once-a-year thing. Every year there would be haze happening around KL. Some idiot burned down some forest somewhere sometime ago. right?



The girl's life is a great movie. It's about a porn star who loves what she does and suddenly found herself in limbo and wanted to turn over a new leaf. James wood is in it. he's usually the-tough-guy-bad-cop man but in this movie he plays an old man with parkinson's disease. There's also the guy who's in boston public. the teacher who is helping the cripple children swimming and shit. And also starring is kip purdue who was i think in a sylvester stallone movie where there was a F1 car racing on the street. what was that movie called?

good movie. it's sexual all the way. in a non-sexual way. its very ... arty..and poetic. who would've thought sex could be poetic and artistic. I don't expect this movie to make it on RTm TV2 or tv3 or any other channel in malaysia.

and i saw the making of amytiville horror. horror indeed. i think i want to go see that one. it's based on a true story. i don't know about that. i think the producer just twisted some facts to make the story more interesting and say it's based on a true story.

You know what would be a good based-on-a-true-story movie? A movie about ayah pin. god damn that would sell. whoever got the balls to make the movie would be rich. Ayah pin is just a movie waiting to happen. there's a lot of potential, moneywise, in an ayah pin movie. They could call it "Ayah Pin : who's your daddy now?" or "Father Pin : The untold Story". I don't know. But i think it could be a great hit.

to make sure it would be a success why not ask mawi to act in it. or anyone in AF for that matter. Hey why not? mawi in a movie? who wouldn't want to watch that? He got mawi's eyes. A littltle make up and BAM! no one could tell the difference.

so to all AF fans, pray that mawi can act as well as he sings. (he can,... can he?) because i can't see anyone better to play ayah pin.

bubye :)

p.s- congratulation to farah for her team's win in the girls volleyball tournament. If only i was girl i'd join ya.

6th august 2005

watched 2 really great movie today. one of em is as good as it gets. Finally! notice the 7 academy nomination from the promo poster? no wonder its such a powerful profounding movie. helen hunt is just adorable and she looks comfortable doing her role as a single mother raising a kid with some asthma sickness. greg kinnear was simon the fag / jack's neighbour and jack nicholson as this mentally schizo half sick dude.

at the start of the movie jack seems to shoot from his mouth and just pisses people around him due to his mental sickness. he didn't have nothing personal that really meant something to him beside his job. but he kinda outgrows that when he met greg kinnear and helen hunt. you gotta see it for yourselves. later in the movie he kinda gets personal and his sickness kinda dissolves.

what i like about this movie is the bitterness. we can be so bitter to the point that we look pathetic. beside that this movie proves that how ever bad a person is, there is always a little soft side in them. and like always, love prevails.

speaking of love, i also watched "cinta si penggali kubur" for the second time in my life today. and it never fail to make me want to weep like a girl. but since i was watching with my guy frens i didn't. but most of them did say that movie kinda makesthem weep a little. inside of course. Nasir bilal khan was the backbone of the telemovie. he was a gravedigger called dol who is sort of naive and as straight as a flagpole. and he got deceived by sheila rusly to marry her because she was carrying this bastard child. but then everything started to fall apart for dol. his mom died. the bastard baby died. and sheila left him coz she can;t stand the villagers and the kampung life. but later she seems like she couldnt live with herself and decided to get back to dol but to dol his wife is dead. and the story kinda hangs. and me and my buddies we;re like sitting there with our mind blown. this is a great movie.

the other malay telemovie that has this pussy effect on me is "sekeras kerikil". its about a relationship between a son and his stubborn dad. starring rosyam nor and jalil hamid. who would've thought jalil hamid the comedian could play a serious role.

so i can bet PGL couldn;t even come close to these movies. this remark was just to provoke reactions. i know many people thought highly of PGL. and i;ve never seen it before. so it';s not fair. hehehe...

my watched snapped. and i managed to fix it. and ummm... i finally got to listen to padi's menanti sebuah jawaban. suggested by mr. music maestro himslef nizam nuri. great track. don't know about the movie though. and my fren who gave me the padi's track was even nice enough to give me all this indon tracks. so i'm gonna start listening to it and hopefull i would dig it.

AF is finally over. the only reason i think its over is because the EPL season is starting. so astro won't have their beloved customer constantly switching between EPL games and AF. god damned the kid who won. MAwi is it? he is loaded with money! here comes another artist. watch out for mawi. and his cheesy wooooorld line. waht the fuck is that? that is one if not the only fucking cheesy / corny line i have ever heard. the restaurants with aastros are filled with students who wanted to watch the programme. can't blame em. my parents also digs AF.i think ayah pin would also love to be at one of the AF's concert and hang around with the contestants. but he's busy with his stuff in space or so i hear.

bubye then.

43300 Seri Serdang Selangor

i'm back at batu pahat. after spending the weekend back at serdang.

The annual convo was held at upm during the weekend. and i went to check it out. it was hip and happening. full of upm's chicks. the carnival rides was tempting but me and wafi were not tempted enough to ride em. but we did check out some animals that was on display.

i've been to the convo when i was a kid. and i remembered me cycling with other kids to the convo. and we would laugh at the animal's big scrotum. they still crack me up even when i think about it.

went to putrajaya and then to bangi and stayed home and watched arsenal... wow... eating... hmmm ...missed those already.

the main reason i went back home was not to look at animal's scrotum but was to take part in the MB cup. played 3 win 1 lost 2. not bad for a team which barely played together let alone train together. i missed the first game, so i don't know why we were hammered so much. the second game was probably the most weird competetive game i've ever took a part in.

there was some slight beef within our team. and to make matter worse me and some other players came late and that kinda pisses the other players that was already there..playing ....so ... we were trailing like 10 points. and then something happened that probably lead to our team winning, which was ... the other team getting too confident which led to some complacent playing. and our team kept on the pressure and they cracked . then we tied the game. at that time we know we are gonna win it. and we did. so it was kinda nice eventhough some people would like to see it as luck. i see it as the other team's in ability to control their ego's and not respecting the other team. that was just an opinion. i dunno if that was really the main reason why they lost. but hell. winning is winning. no time for losers.

speaking of losers, we lost our third game. they got 2 national players and they are well trained. go figure.

it was fun. that's all i can bring back to batu pahat. no medals, just fun. and i think its enough and i deserved that.

THIS IS FOR BEING ALIVE, TODAY

Today - Smashing Pumpkins

Today is the greatest Day I ’ve ever kown Can’t live for tomorrow Tomorrow’s much too long I burn my eyes out Before I get out I wanted more Than life could ever grant Bored by the chore Of saving face Today is the greatest Day I have ever known Can’t wait for tomorrow I might not have that long I’ll tear my heart out Before I get out Pink ribbon scars That never forget I’ve tried so hard To cleanse these regrets My angel wings Were bruised and restrained My belly stings Today is Today is Today is The greatest day That I have ever known I want to turn you on I want to turn you round I want to turn you on I want to turn you Today is the greatest Today is the greatest day Today is the greatest day That I have ever known

hmmm i need new songs

flu cold

i'm fighting this cold that i think i caught from farah. anyway.. i'm feeling a whole lot better..if i was the alien in the war of the world movie i would not be here typing this. i'd be dead.

anyway, farah has started her own blog. so i welcome that. and wafi also. blogging isn't like talking. u could say so much more in written sentences than u would in hours of conversations. things just pop up and you would write away. and if you hurt someone's feeling you don't have to look at their faces.

being sick kinda makes me think how we could die anytime. and dying kinda sucks. i mean if i die now. unless we're ready for the afterlife. damn it. this must be the combo of tru calling and me being sick that kinda made me want to write about death.

speaking of death, there was this rempit who almost died. farah almost hit him with her car. i wanted him to die. because he got away with probably him feeling so great that he managed to escape death while me and farah was trembling with fear. if she did ram this rempit and he died, it's not her fault. she did everything by the book. but the mess later and the time consumed with the police and insurance would be such a drag.

things you do when you are young. you're invincible as long as your'e alive. that's kinda true for this guy. i don't know if i ever did something so risky in my life. have you? for once put your life on a line. like parachuting from a plane, or bungee jumping? it looks fun. maybe someday.

how about the earthquakes huh? this year alone there are more than 10 cases already. i guess the world is going to an end. its almost judgement day.

anyway, i've made up my mind. i'm going back to serdang this friday. hopefully mom would prepare me some food.

Cobain's 'Last Days' inspire Van Sant movie

LOS ANGELES (Reuters) - Director Gus Van Sant's new film may be dedicated to and inspired by Kurt Cobain, but moviegoers hoping for a sensationalistic look at the suicide of the Nirvana rocker won't find it in "Last Days".

The film, which stars Michael Pitt ("The Dreamers") as a musician hiding out in his enormous stone house from his career, his family and his parasitic hangers-on, opened in New York and Los Angeles on Friday.

Contemplative rather than reportorial, "Last Days" eschews many of the conventions of mainstream narrative movies, although with "Good Will Hunting" to his credit, Van Sant is no stranger to more crowd-pleasing fare.

Like the director's previous two films, "Last Days" uses a real-life incident as a point of artistic departure. "Gerry" (2002) centered on two hikers stranded in the desert, and "Elephant," which won the top award at the Canes Film Festival.

Cannes Film Festival in 2003, followed a group of high school students in the days before a shooting rampage similar to the one at Columbine.

Like those movies, Van Sant's imagining of Cobain's final descent in 1994 is interested less in answers than in suggestion and observation.

"There isn't really one answer," the director said in a recent interview. "If there is, I tend to think that the answers become sort of like scapegoats. People want answers in the same way that they want the culprit. It doesn't matter if the guy or girl was really responsible for the crime, so long as you have somebody to hang by the tree."

But complicated questions like death, suicide and mass murder, he says, defy simple answers. "We show instances of what may be bothering our character in 'Last Days,' but we don't say, 'This is for sure the reason."'

Van Sant was drawn to the final chapter of Cobain's saga precisely because there is so little information about it.

What is known is that Cobain, battling heroin addiction, a chronic stomach ailment and creative insecurity, spent his last days in virtual solitude before retreating to the greenhouse of his Seattle home and putting a shotgun to his mouth. His body was not discovered for several days.

The film follows the Cobain-inspired character in long takes while he tries to protect his troubled solitude from a variety of colleagues, friends and strangers, including four stoned hangers-on living in his house. (Pitt contributes his own musical compositions; there are no Nirvana songs in the film).

For his ensemble, Van Sant uses both professional actors (Lukas Haas, Ricky Jay, Asia Argento) and first-timers like musician Kim Gordon of veteran indie rock band Sonic Youth.

Van Sant creates an atmosphere of seclusion and disconnection in the film, which was shot mostly in and around a 19th century castle in upstate New York.

"There is no story," Van Sant said with a laugh. "There's a direction, but there's no setup."

john mayer's daughters

this song just have the balance of love and life. i like balance.

i know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
She's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without warmth from 
A woman's good, good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world

So fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters, too

get well soon farah

dump

on wednesday i went to jb with dear farah and i bought myself a nike sandal. and farah was even nice enough to lend me money to buy this black basketball shoe but unfortunately they don't have my size. so i just end up goin' back to batu pahat with just a sandal. so i guess i'll be playing with my aspic "kick ass" shoes.

And farah is so sick today. sick of me.? hahaha... no actually. ..she came down with this sore throat and flu and stuff. and she's been sayin how she wanted to puke when she lays down and when she sits her head hurts... poor girl ... get well soon dear....

a friend asked me to play in his team in the upcoming kuittho sports carnival. that was flattering. but i don't know if i could play or not. since probably the carnival clashes with the MB cup. i wanna play both.

and mostly my classmates who recently just completed their 5 years course are workin already. they are getting paid 1600 - 2300RM. damn it . i could barely survive here let alone afford anything fancy. i guess now they can. i think most of them are thinking of the big stuff now. They're in the big league now. cars, house and even getting married comes to their mind. they're almost completing their transistion to being a full adult. well almost. so i'm like broke, and i don't even have a driving license and i have no savings. i'm thinking like what the fuck am i still doing? on the other hand, i could wake up late and have all this time to myself. the only problem with too much time is having too much time with so little money. so money kind of limits everything.

the transisition? i thought adolesence and puberty was hard enough. but there's lot more coming our way. we'll be mothers and fathers eventually. and we'll be raising our own. we are going to sacrifice a lot of our time and doing all the things we've been doing all along making sure everythings gonna be allright. there's no more "i". it'll be "we". now it's "i want this i want that". but later on it's gonna be "we need this, we need that". and we're gonna grow fat and bald. and our limbs will start to give and goin up the stairs would be like climbing mt everest. i'm going too far there.

i see my friends are more aware of their surroundings. they are starting to care about other people's feelings and are more sensitive. they are starting to step up when it counts. start acting out what they've planned instead of letting it just be another dream. there was once a time when money was for buying stuff but now money is for our parents and to be saved for more useful spending. i don't know if i'm like that. i tend to run away from things if i'm not sure i'm capable enough. i'd rather sit, watch and comment. it's so immature. it feels like you're inside a shell and whoever tries to get into your space will offend you. and you are so afraid of going out of the shell because you got used to it for so long that u're afraid you'll be a target out in the open.

it is mind boggling huh? i guess that how dreams die. the got replaced by another more mature dream. a dream of having a complete life. the basic foundation of life, money, family, asets and maybe a little time.

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PATRICK VIERA

these few days, fellow arsenal fans including yours truly, have been talking about the latest news on patrick viera leaving arsenal for juventus. He had an absolutely great season last season, but now that he's left there's a big gap in the central midfield area and we are all wondering who could fill that gap. So, good luck viera.

and i borrowed my frens PS2, the memory card don't work, so i can't play any games that would take me more than a day to finish coz i can't save the game. so that suck huh?.

watched Fantastic 4 with farah and it's fantastic. War of the world however is ok. The storyline suck though but the computer effect is always nice to watch. spielberg kinda lost it on this movie. maybe he's old.

its been raining here like almost everyday. so it's very cool and i can sleep forever in this condition.

i want to go back to serdang so i can shoot some hoops. damn it. my friend downloaded the 2005 all-star game and that made me want to play even more.

i got an assignment but i'm too lazy to even start. maybe i'll just copy.

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